Feeling alone after sharing my OCD struggles; am I really a danger?

Feeling Alone And Tired

I’m fairly new to treating my OCD and have felt crazy for most of my life. It didn’t help that no one in my life truly understood OCD and always said I was being dramatic. I very recently (within the past few months) finally got diagnosed with OCD and my whole life started to make sense. However, I recently opened up to someone I really believed I trusted about the intrusive thoughts I have and now feel worse than I ever have before. They essentially called me a psychopath and said they are worried for the people around me. Even though I would and could never hurt anyone. I’ve never felt more alone and broken in my life. I already try very hard to hide my OCD and everything associated with it because no one in my life understands so it’s been easier to deal with it myself than listen to everyone say whatever they have to say about my situation. After what happened today I’m even more inclined to just keep it to myself. I don’t know what I’m expecting from writing this but I figure this is the best place to write what I’m feeling. Going through OCD is hard enough on it’s own. But when people are telling you they think you’re a danger to society and are crazy because of your intrusive thoughts it really hurts. I’m just tired.

Username: thrutheweatherthrutheweather

Date posted: 2y ago

I’m sorry you’ve had to go through that. You’re definitely not a psychopath! - you’re not alone either even though it feels like that sometimes. I hope you meet/connect with people who are more understanding of what you’re going through. A lot of people sadly don’t understand OCD… please keep your head up and don’t let this block you from getting help. You deserve help.

Username: Mau NLMau NL

Date posted: 2y ago

So sorry that you had to go through this, and so brave that you opened up, here and "at home". Not many people understand ocd. That is a shame but it is as it is. You are the opposite of a psychopath: somebody who cares so much that your brain is in warning-signal-overdrive about what you would find most devastating: others, and/or animals being hurt and in pain. We know that. Hopefully that gives you some relief. In the Netherlands, where i live, there are ways to let your close ones be educated by ocd specialists, through contact via websites or by a (your) therapist. If it is really important to you that this person in your network goes back again to liking you for who you are, you might want to investigate if such possibilities are also available where you live. Take care, big hug!

Username: EnyaEnya

Date posted: 2y ago

I had been through that, too. Over 10 years ago, a partner left me after I told him about me suffering from POCD. He told me, that he doesn't believe it's OCD. It was hard and it caused me barely telling anyone about my POCD. Recently my best friend found out about it. I talked about it in a very cryptic way and after he did research on OCD, he figured it out. He told me a month after he found out, that he is in the know and that nothing has changed for him. As he didn't treat me differently at all, I calmed down and am now glad he knows, sees my intrusions as OCD and doesn't like me less. I am still reluctant to tell others though and might keep it to myself as much as I can, because as you said, suffering from OCD is hard enough, there really is no need for hurtful reactions from people who don't understand and/or don't even try to understand.

Username: EnyaEnya

Date posted: 2y ago

@🐝 I struggle with POCD for 17 years. I never really committed to ERP though. I committed to it a bit in 2013, but not fully and after I left the clinic, I completely started to do compulsions, avoidance and ruminating again. The first time I fully committed to ERP had been last year and it helped tremendously with my Magical Thinking OCD, this time with my outstanding nocd therapist, I want to do ERP for all of my themes.

Username: overocdxoxooverocdxoxo

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

this actually just happened to be friday and it took me down for a day of rumination and really sad the feeling was temporary and i had to remind myself that and also remind myself there r a lot of ignorant people in the world with not empathy and honestly alot of people that no or understand or have even heard of ocd and I.T. that day is why i downloaded this app to remind myself i'mm it alone and i've done a lot of work . and also remind myself i should be open about this struggle i've gone through because in reality what i've learned in treatment mayb i can help someone along the way and it's made me very empathetic i hope that helps surround yourself with people who support you this friend is just not educated

Username: Have Some Chocolate 🍫Have Some Ch...

Date posted: 2y ago

Don't feel bad about people's comments and thinking..... The truth is healthy people will NEVER understand Mental illness It's their ignorance for not knowing and understanding things well.... And it's shame that they can't even behave well with the Sufferer There's nothing wrong with you..... And don't feel bad about them..... Let them think whatever they want to think..... You are a Good Human Being...your thoughts can Never define you.. Regardless what ignorant people think....Take Care... Much Love...

Username: Mikala F

Date posted: 2y ago

Feeling alone

Having ocd is a nightmare. I feel so alone. Most of society doesn’t understand it and it feels so awful. I feel like sometimes I don’t have anyone I can really vent to because no one truly gets it. My family and husband are supportive but I feel like they just don’t truly get it.

Username: delomelos

Date posted: 1y ago

I don't know what to out here

I kinda am really alone with this one. I got diagnosed 3 years ago and never went back to therapy. I don't really want help... I'm just here to kinda learn about other people. I've never met someone who has ocd like I do. You may think "they all say that" but I just never have. I got diagnosed when I told my therapist my obsession with gore/nercophilia. I can't believe I'm even talking about it right now. It makes me feel sick. I can't stand it. My mom has undiagnosed bpd. I may be wrong about this, I'm not a professional, but she has all the symptoms. Every single small thing about it too she has, and so do I. Having ocd along with it is even harder. I researched on having both and it's not common but also not impossible? If not, then if I don't have both, I would fit under the ocd title more than ocd. My point is, I feel alone. I just want someone to read this... I hate to admit it, but I want some sympathy. My partner has been really bad to me lately and I can't leave them cause I love them too much. So I don't beg him for comfort cause I know they might leave if I do. I feel like a burden. Please don't comment on that. Actually, are their even comments on this thing? Embarrassing if not..

Username: Taffylee04

Date posted: 22w ago

Not knowing how to cope.

Hey I’m new to this, I’m a 20 yo female, and I’m pretty sure I’ve had ocd since my childhood, but it’s gotten worse has I’ve gotten older. I never really understood my intrusive thoughts and always felt so sick and uncomfortable when I’d have them. They took a turn many months ago when they became more often and more intense. And I started doing some research on them and came across ocd (which I always thought was just when people don’t like to be unorganized and are like perfectionists or something) but as I was reading different websites and seeing how many types of ocd there was I noticed that I related to most of what I was reading. I still haven’t been officially diagnosed or found a therapist yet but I’m working on it. The past year has been the hardest with my intrusive thoughts. I’m mainly bothered by my pocd and I feel sick to my stomach whenever I get an intrusive thought about a child. I absolutely love kids and would never do anything to hurt them it physically makes me ill when I think about it. (If anyone has any tips to deal with this please reply😭) I think I have an idea to why I have those thoughts. I didn’t have the best childhood I was sa’d at 4&9 by 2 different people that were supposed to take care of me, and I have this horrible fear that i could be like them and it makes me feel so incredibly sick. I was also way too exposed to s3xual things as a child, my family was way too open about s3x growing up like I’m talking adults in my life thought it was okay to openly talk about it to me when I was 6/7 like it was normal. I wish I could explain more but this is already way too long. I’ve only opened up to a select few people about this so this was extremely hard for me, I’m literally fighting for my life… Thank you to anyone who cared enough to read this all the way through I appreciate it so much.🤍

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