I’m having a backdoor spike and I’m in the middle of antivirals with Covid and I’m having a really hard time and am scared of my thoughts which I know is ocd but I hate them. 😢
Covid hits OCD hard!!! I’ve been there a few times too. You are not alone; you got this!
@kar Thank you. I didn’t expect for it to be this hard and it scared me about relapsing but “maybe I will, maybe I won’t.”
Me too
@MaryAlice235 You’re in the middle of Covid or backdoor spike or both
@artsygirl Scared of my thoughts
Hang in there, remember it’s OCD, it’s hard
I'm having awful stomach pain and nausea and it's really worrying me and scaring me
I want to rip out my uterus. Only my hormones can make my OCD and ability to manage it go back to square one. I am spiraling *so* hard. I cannot breathe. My PMDD is going crazy. I’m having a panic attack again. I feel so scared. The POCD is going absolutely insane right now. It feels undeniably real, and my mind keeps drifting to those awful thoughts and what feels like exploring them?? but I can’t for the life of me stop some of these compulsions right now. I was trying to watch something to get my mind off of this but ended up getting triggered twice, so my anxiety is a 10 and I can’t seem to calm down. This panic attack is tuned all the way up.
So I was doing good for about 5 months. I was going to therapy, practicing the skills, and for about the past month, I fell into a depression funk. The last week, however, has been a week of really loud OCD. I am in a constant state of anxiety and find myself doing compulsions. I'm wondering if anyone has experienced what I'm about to describe. I'm considering taking myself to the hospital, but my little boy's birthday party is this weekend and I don't want to miss it: I keep having this bad feeling like I actually want to do the bad things in my mind. I know OCD intrusive thoughts can tell you "I want to" but this just seems different - maybe it's OCD trying to come at me a new way. It's not like thoughts telling me "I want" it's like even when I tell myself I don't want to do the bad stuff, there's this nagging feeling telling me I really want to. I'm scared.
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