im scared, need advice quick.

I’ve been recently struggling so much with the intrusive thoughts and images, it was bad at first but now its worse. I cant even cry anymore. Im questioning myself. am i really crazy? am i really scared if these thoughts? what if i lose my self control? what if i am my intrusive thoughts? what if i don’t feel bad about them? im so scared my life is being taken over im not myself anymore i feel like im going through derealization as well which i’ve struggled with in the past. I haven’t been diagnosed but am almost 100% sure i have harm OCD im talking to a therapist and a doctor to get me on pills. Someone help me please or give me advice i feel so disgusted looking at myself bc i feel like im a sick human. These thoughts are against my family, especially my mom which is the person i love the most in the world. Im only 13 and miss my old self. I regret watching Dahmer so much, which is what initially caused this for the first time. What if im never gonna be the same again. I cant sleep i feel sick even eating. Am i alone on this.

Username: MultitudesMultitudes

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

You are absolutely not alone. I have felt the same way you have, disgusted at myself, worried that I wasn’t worried enough, that these thoughts were who I really am. I want to first say, I’m sorry you’re going through this. No one deserves this to happen to them. you are not alone. Often OCD attaches on to what you love/value most, in this case your Mom. Those thoughts ARE NOT YOU- I promise. I know it can be hard to remember. If you feel like you are able, please express to your therapist that you are feeling this way. Treatment can be so so helpful for people with OCD. There is always hope

Username: TaylenTaylen

Date posted: 2y ago

@Multitudes thank you so much i really appreciate you replying, i feel alot more reassured. i will definitely be expressing more to my therapist.

Username: MultitudesMultitudes

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

@TaylenThompson absolutely. You got this, I promise

Username: confusedbutamusedconfusedbuta...

Date posted: 2y ago

God you worded all the stuff I’m struggling with right now so well. I hate how they all work off of each other so well. Honestly the best advice I have right now is turn on something comforting to you (like shows or topics or YouTubers) and bury yourself under blankets and like heavy stuff to the point where you can’t feel ur body. Also it helps to have things that remind you of your loved ones or childhood (if u had a good one) around you. I have stuffed animals, my family’s clothes, my friends stuff, etc. Reminds me I’m not alone, even if I have to go through some things on my own

Username: TaylenTaylen

Date posted: 2y ago

@confusedbutamused im so glad i have someone going through this with me. Ive been snuggling up with all my stuffed animals and layering on blankets. I usually stay on tiktok or watch reality shows to get my mind distracted. Just remember that we got this and we will get through this never lose hope. If you ever need to talk just message me 💕 and tysm for replying u have no idea how much i appreciate it and i feel better that im not alone ans neither are you!!

Username: Sam-OverOcdSam-OverOcd

Date posted: 2y ago

Just wanted to let you know you’re not alone. I am experiencing the same thing - also happened after watching dahmer :( we will get through this

Username: TaylenTaylen

Date posted: 2y ago

@samlynn99 im so sorry this is happening to u as well, we will get through this have hope!!

Username: Taylen

Date posted: 2y ago

Harm OCD

just a couple days ago i experienced this for the first time from watching the new DAHMER series. Im having intrusive images and thoughts of me harming or killing my loved ones and its so scary because i would never do it. It has me questioning if im crazy and im having severe panic attacks over 3 times a day. Im mentally and physically drained, i’ve told my mom about it and we are going to see a therapist tomorrow. Im scared to because idk if they specialize in OCD and if i tell them my thoughts they are gonna put me in the mental hospital or say im crazy and don’t have OCD, can any therapists on here or fellow people with Harm OCD let me know if you think im showing signs of it, i just want it to go away and to be able to sleep at night without severe overthinking.

Username: Taylen

Date posted: 2y ago

im so stressed, pls reply

my anxiety has been so bad the past couple of days, ive been disassociating several times a day. Its so hard to be alone because of the intrusive thoughts. I barely can even look at my family without vivid images coming in my head. Im so scared i keep asking myself “what if i wanna do it?” “what if i rlly am crazy” “maybe i am my thoughts” “would i ever do this” “what if i just lose control one day”. I dont know anymore im so lost and depressed i just wanna crawl out of my own skin. Someone please give advice because nothing is working. Keep in mind im undiagnosed and i feel so alone and i know i have harm ocd but the doctors and therapist in my state dont care to listen. They wont even give me anything for anxiety, my life is being ruined and im only 13. I just want it to go away, im trying to keep faith in god but i just wish he would help me faster.

Username: Allier792

Date posted: 1y ago

I’m scared

Hi. I’m just really scared and I want to ask questions. I have been ocd and have been really suffering since December. The intrusive thoughts come like I want them now and it’s more of a “ well oh yeah you want to do that, and it’s gonna happen” and I start panicking and can’t focus and it scares the shit out of me. Is that ocd? Or is there something wrong with my brain and I’m actually some psychopath you see in a movie? I’m terrified. Im scared to be around my family, I’m scared to be around everyone. But I’m scared to be alone as well because I’m alone with the thoughts. What if these aren’t intrusive thoughts and I’m actually some terrible person who’s gonna hurt someone or is actually some psychopath who’s crazy? I hate this so much because I use to be so happy and not have any of these intrusive thoughts or worried that I was going to to hurt someone and now I’m so scared all the time. Can someone please answer some of these questions? I just want to make sure that this is ocd and I’m not a terrible person.

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