Why do i feel different that everyone else?

I feel like I’m not “struggling” as bad as others might be and that’s making me so scared. Like don’t get me wrong the intrusive thoughts and images have been soooo horrible and gruesome and caused me so much stress and anxiety. But never once have i isolated myself from my family. Like I’ve always been part of family events and have enjoyed them. And on here i always here stories about how people have to isolate because they fear they will hurt their family. Like don’t get me wrong i too fear that i will do something wrong but I’m isolating myself. And it makes me scared that I’m not, like should i be? Does that mean that i want my thoughts because I’m okay with my family? Also others Struggle for years in end and i have only been struggling for about 3 months and i feel like I’m already potentially getting “better”. Like I’m not struggling with intrusive thoughts as much and if they do come i feel like i can shut them down quickly. I just feel so guilty and so terrible because others struggle so bad. And it makes me feel like there may be truly something wrong with me because I’m recovering quicker if you will. Can this be normal? I’m actually kind scared.

Username: Stacy QuickStacy Quick

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 2y ago

Hello there, I think it's important to recognize that everyone's journey looks different. That's okay, take a deep breath and realize that OCD is a doubting disorder, no wonder it is making you doubt whether yours is legit or "real enough" or "severe enough". Any suffering, no matter the amount is still suffering. It sounds like treatment and/or addressing OCD has been helpful, we want to see results of decreasing anxiety with the thoughts- that is the goal. Try and give yourself compassion!

Username: Anon17Anon17

Date posted: 2y ago

@NOCD Therapist - Stacy Q. Thank you so much! I needed this!

Username: Space1234Space1234

Date posted: 2y ago

You aren’t alone on this! I never avoided loved ones or knives. When this first started 6 months ago I was afraid to use knives but read about how avoidance could make it worse so I never did and now I am not scared to use them at all. So I get where you are coming from on that. My thoughts have lessened so I feel like I am on the road to recovery but still do a lot of rumination and still terrified I may act on the thought.

Username: Anon17Anon17

Date posted: 2y ago

@Space1234 Thank you for this. Glad I’m not alone. Like never once was “afraid” of knives because i use them everyday. And it just scares me because i know others avoid everything and it’s just so natural for me

Username: Dothewalkoflife. Dothewalkofl...

Date posted: 2y ago

Hey there :) doing as I said. I know this feeling too well. I have a friend with extreme OCD and telling her that I have, it makes me feel bad because it’s nowhere near her extreme. I’ve learnt that any form of ocd Is affecting. Therefore valid. Please know that (like others have said) your not alone at all. Wishing you all the best !!

Username: Anon17Anon17

Date posted: 2y ago

@Myheadhurts35 Thank you so so much

Username: forya99forya99

Date posted: 2y ago

Maybe you're just handling your thoughts a little bit better. In the beginning I isolated myself as well, but it made thing much much worse. I'm so happy to hear you're doing better! :)

Username: Anon17Anon17

Date posted: 2y ago

@forya99 Thank you. But it’s just so nerve racking to think that the thoughts are already minimizing. Like i almost feel to good i guess. Like how can i get better that fast considering what others are going through? And to have never been in therapy or anything it’s just scary because what if me feeling okay is me secretly accepting the true me? What if i actually like my thoughts and that’s why they don’t bother me?

Username: forya99forya99

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anon17 I think you wouldn't be that concerned if you really liked your thoughts

Username: lbaccellilbaccelli

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anon17 yup..same thing! it's the doubt

Username: Anonymous2602

Date posted: 1y ago

Am I the only one who…

Feels like “what if I’m not suffering enough to have OCD” which makes me feel terrible because my anxiety has slowed down after finding out what OCD was and that’s why I’m having these thoughts.

Username: flowerpetals

Date posted: 1y ago

Just some late night thoughts

So I’m going to college soon and every time I think about it, I feel like the odd one out because of my intrusive thoughts. Like I literally feel like an “intruder” going to school because of how my thoughts make me feel. This is also every time I talk to my friends, my brain is like “your friends are talking to a future criminal”. I just feel like I don’t deserve to be there and have good memories and like my thoughts are inevitable. I feel like a completely different person from who I was before June. Of course I have had these thoughts throughout my life, but nothing that stuck longer than a week or two. It’s so weird how one day your perfectly happy and the other you feel like a completely different person. Furthermore, while these thoughts don’t make me happy and provide anxiety, those feelings feel so forced sometimes. Also I’m sure a lot of us do this, but when I think of the thought and want to feel disgust (as one does), it feels like I’m forcing that feeling. During the beginning of June I was nauseated by these thoughts and crying most days, now they just feel annoying more than anything because there’s nothing I can really do to provide relief. I constantly am questioning whether this is me or not and at this point I don’t even know. I feel like the thoughts have gradually went from making me want to vomit to questioning whether I would actually do it. Anyone else?

Harm OCD

Username: accordinglytome

Date posted: 47w ago

Is this normal ?

Okay so I have deal with harm ocd for like month now, but for like 3 weeks when I first started I was scared and depressed because of my thoughts, and there were thoughts about hurting my family to the point were there not alive anymore and I would cry and pray constantly because I was scared I will act on my thoughts, but now that a month has passed, I still get those thoughts but this time I’m not scared anymore. Like yeah I just get little scared that I will act of these thoughts, but not as bad. I feel like I don’t have any more empathy, or like emotions. Like I feel like I’m becoming an evil person because I don’t feel scared about the thoughts anymore. And it kind of worry me because if I don’t feel anything will I most likely act of my thoughts ????????? I need help. What do I do ? Is this normal?

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