I have no one

No one who cares No one who understands No one who shows up No one who listens I have no one… Not even on a post venting to the world… I have no one…

leoncitos

Date posted: 3y

This disorder can be very frustrating and makes you feel like you're all alone in this world. But believe me, there's always someone, or something that makes you keep going, please don't give up, if you need a friend im here :) just remember that you're very valid and a beautiful human being!

Givenup

Date posted: 3y

@leoncitos I was manipulated and deceived into experimentation with an older friend (16) when I was 14... he had been saying over and over that it wasn't a homosexual act and that it wasn't gay to do it.… it nearly happened a couple times before but this time we actually did it. 20 seconds of itand I went into the bathroom gagging and just overall having a panic attack.. It was such a horrible anxiety inducing experience and my HOCD makes me think I'm in denial for this…. I had repressed it in my memories for years until HOCD had made the memory came flying back into my mind… I don't ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual at all… in any way shape or form…

Killian

User type: NOCD Alumni

Date posted: 3y

I am so sorry you are feeling so alone. OCD is a really, really hard thing to live with, and it tries to make us believe we are alone and helpless so that we can’t fight back. Trust that there are tons of us going through it alongside you. We want to listen and support however we can. I hope you can find some hope and community here 💜

Givenup

Date posted: 3y

@Killian I was manipulated and deceived into experimentation with an older friend (16) when I was 14... he had been saying over and over that it wasn't a homosexual act and that it wasn't gay to do it.… it nearly happened a couple times before but this time we actually did it. 20 seconds of itand I went into the bathroom gagging and just overall having a panic attack.. It was such a horrible anxiety inducing experience and my HOCD makes me think I'm in denial for this…. I had repressed it in my memories for years until HOCD had made the memory came flying back into my mind… I don't ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual at all… in any way shape or form…

mattyp

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

@Givenup I cannot say how much I relate to your story like holy sh*t. I was also abused by a older boy. Did the same type of manipulation. And man my ocd has ran wild with this since I was a kid. I’m in my 30s now and still struggle. But I promise you it’s worth the fight. Keep going. I’m seeing results from erp and other therapies and am feeling freer than I ever have. Keep going!!! You can find your way to live with all this and start to love yourself.

one step at ...

Date posted: 3y

You’re not alone, hang in there🤗💝 you are brave, just keep putting one foot in front of the other and reach out for support like on this app and nocd therapy💝 there is hope, recovery is real and possible, sending hugs🤗

mattyp

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

You are definitely not alone. I do live the same way. All of this is too myself and I don’t share accept with my therapist. Only now I think I see the benefits of kinda sticking to myself. Many disappointing people out there I find. And opening up to them can become like a weapon they use against you. But just know you aren’t alone with this theme or ocd. Keep pushing threw and I promise you can learn to live with this.

Sp1999

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

I cant handle this man, i don't want to be bi or like men. But everything saying different and my gf tells me im definitely not bc shes pan and apparently "gaydar" exists . It feels like a sexuality crisis but before all this i was 1000% fine with who I was and all

mattyp

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

Yea unfortunately your gf reassuring you is definitely going to make your ocd worse. The only way out is to give up looking for an answer. Witch is really difficult. I really recommend looking up some podcasts or videos on dealing with intrusive thoughts. And therapy on here if at all possible. Uncertainty is the only way. You’ll never be able to find out 100%. The search for 100% certainty is what fuels the fire.

CatDad

Date posted: 3y

Please fight. You will solve this and be ok someday.

Berryx2

Date posted: 23w

I feel all alone still

I don’t know what to do anymore I made a friend recently in college and was texting her the other night and she mentioned she was doing her nails and I said nice and asked her if I could see. Because I was curious about what she did to them this time around and since then she has not responded to me I apologized to her saying I’m sorry if it bothered her but still nothing. Some of my friends just don’t answer me anymore I feel like I’m a burden of the ones who do still talk me I’m so done with it all. I’m tired of trying to find love as well I feel nothing to it anymore it’s only left me with disappointment and sadness I feel like I’m an unlovable husk of a person and that I would only ever be a bother I cannot fathom the idea of someone loving ME I just can’t I feel like it’s impossible I feel like everything about me bothers people to the point where I think is it even something I should try to achieve anymore. I should honestly block myself from trying to make new friends and relationships I’m so so tired of it. I feel unappreciated and annoyed that I am the one that has to try to keep up any sort of relationship because if I don’t reach out they never will reach out to me the reason I know this is because it’s been proven time after time since middle school that I am nothing to these people and I might as well no longer try. I don’t know what to do anymore I feel like I’m going to be all alone for the rest of my life I’m just so lonely now.

Givenup

Date posted: 21w

Venting

All my real events are hitting me all at once and i genuinely despise my existence right now... i feel so alone and genuinely horrible and nothing is working for me right now... im trying to not ask for reassurance but its so dang tough and i dont know what to do... please someone help me... i feel so so so so so alone right now...

Anonymousssssss

Date posted: 20w

Can I talk to someone?

I have something that’s been on my mind but my post isn’t getting any interaction. Only offer advice if you’re willing to respond please!!! People have asked me in the comments to share something and I do and they never answer which makes my mental even worse

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