How long have you struggled with OCD? My first memory of intrusive thoughts and constantly rechecking stuff is from around third grade. Around sixth-seventh grade it got really bad, though. I was constantly confessing to every bad thought and action I had ever done. Then I got really bad intrusive thoughts about harming myself/others alongside sexual ones. It continued like this for a while, although I stopped confessing. It wasn’t until 11th grade it really started flaring up again, and I was eventually diagnosed this year.

MelissaRose

Date posted: 7y

I think my OCD started around fourth grade if not sooner. It started with compulsive hand washing and I remember my hands being so dry and cracking. I remember feeling self conscious about it because they did this square dance performance thing at school with all the kids in my grade and I was worried about people holding my hands because they were so dry. @Canadi I had a similar fear of the restroom as a kid. Mine was because I saw the movie Gremlins where they come out of the toilet and it freaked me out. I would be terrified to flush the toilet at night. I was also scared of Bloody Mary, and just mirrors in general.

Dsarahm

Date posted: 7y

i was diagnosed last year (10th grade) but i have been having obsessions and compulsions from about the age of 7

d a i s y

Date posted: 7y

I was officially diagnosed in year 10 (I’m now in year 12), but I’ve had symptoms since preschool. d a i s y

Canadi

Date posted: 7y

I think I’ve always had OCD, and even remember my obsessions from when I was younger. I remember when I was in elementary I was terrified of using the restroom at night because I thought Bloody Mary would kill me if I did, so I have memories of peeing in trash cans instead of going to the restroom.

Dsarahm

Date posted: 7y

i remember as a young kid staying up late into the night worrying about what to do in a fire and going through all the thoughts in my head. i was so scared of chemicals (i still am!) so i stayed out of the science experiments at school, and made sure my family was safe from carbon monoxide leaks in the house. @MelissaRose i had the same thing with flushing the toilet at night, i was so scared to go because i always thought someone was outside my door to kidnap me. i wish we all didn’t have to experience this at such a young age (or at all!). all the best x

d a i s y

Date posted: 7y

Dsarahm I can’t believe how similar our worries were! I vividly remember not being able to eat at preschool because I was worried about the chemicals they used to clean the tables. And I used to spend hours worrying what would happen if my house burnt down. One night, we were staying in the city, and the motels fire alarms went off so we had to evacuate. It was one of the scariest moments in my childhood! I can’t tell you how grateful I am to have found this community. I never knew people could understand how I was feeling! d a i s y

Anonymous2212

Date posted: 25w

False Memory/ ROCD

I am diagnosed with OCD, ADHD, and mild depression. But my OCD symptoms are so prominent in my daily life where it feels debilitating. It comes in waves, there will be months with very minor symptoms and other times where it comes in random hitting me like a truck making me rethink life. I grew up having intrusive thoughts of all types, and a lot of them sent me over the edge because I couldn’t understand why things of such sort would cross my mind, things that I’m sure to this day that I’m incapable of or would never want to actually do. Yet I find myself in a constant cycle of trying to dig deep in the past and trying to figure out if I ever acted on any of the intrusive thoughts I can remember, yet ofc have no recollection of acting on them because they most likely didn’t happen. However, not having concrete proof of these things makes me not want to see another day sometimes. It is so hard to move into daily basis like this. I’m also in a happy healthy relationship and sometimes I get these thoughts of “what if I’ve done something awful during the relationship (for example, cheat, dishonesty, etc.) and can’t remember?” I know I would never do anything intentionally to harm my relationship and I think that maybe the idea of not having my partner sends me down a rabbit hole to think all these things. This mental fight is getting harder and harder. It feels unbearable. Does anyone have some fruit for thought, relate, or have any tips?

iluvpink

Date posted: 22w

A small vent

I've been struggling with ocd since I was 7. I'm 18 now and it feels like the older I've gotten the worse it's gotten. I don't know how to deal with it and i feel so lost and alone. Its hard for me to even say what my intrusive thoughts are or to even fully acknowledge it to myself in my head because im scared that if i put it out in the world itll be true or if i acknowledge the thought it solidifies it and makes it true. i feel like im just over exaggerating what im feeling and im turning something that isnt there into something bigger which makes it hard to talk about it with other people. Especially because im not diagnosed but I know it's ocd but what if it isnt? What if im lying to myself or I'm just doing it to get attention and I don't realize it? I just try to deal with it on my own but it's so hard and feels impossible. I feel like ocd has contaminated every part of my life that I enjoy. The things that used to bring me comfort are now filled with things that trigger my ocd and bring me anxiety.

Ocidokie

Date posted: 16w

Childhood OCD

Since when do you believe you have OCD? Anyone who would like to share what were the indications/symptoms in childhood?

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