How long have you struggled with OCD? My first memory of intrusive thoughts and constantly rechecking stuff is from around third grade. Around sixth-seventh grade it got really bad, though. I was constantly confessing to every bad thought and action I had ever done. Then I got really bad intrusive thoughts about harming myself/others alongside sexual ones. It continued like this for a while, although I stopped confessing. It wasn’t until 11th grade it really started flaring up again, and I was eventually diagnosed this year.

MelissaRose

Date posted: 7y

I think my OCD started around fourth grade if not sooner. It started with compulsive hand washing and I remember my hands being so dry and cracking. I remember feeling self conscious about it because they did this square dance performance thing at school with all the kids in my grade and I was worried about people holding my hands because they were so dry. @Canadi I had a similar fear of the restroom as a kid. Mine was because I saw the movie Gremlins where they come out of the toilet and it freaked me out. I would be terrified to flush the toilet at night. I was also scared of Bloody Mary, and just mirrors in general.

Dsarahm

Date posted: 7y

i was diagnosed last year (10th grade) but i have been having obsessions and compulsions from about the age of 7

d a i s y

Date posted: 7y

I was officially diagnosed in year 10 (I’m now in year 12), but I’ve had symptoms since preschool. d a i s y

Canadi

Date posted: 7y

I think I’ve always had OCD, and even remember my obsessions from when I was younger. I remember when I was in elementary I was terrified of using the restroom at night because I thought Bloody Mary would kill me if I did, so I have memories of peeing in trash cans instead of going to the restroom.

Dsarahm

Date posted: 7y

i remember as a young kid staying up late into the night worrying about what to do in a fire and going through all the thoughts in my head. i was so scared of chemicals (i still am!) so i stayed out of the science experiments at school, and made sure my family was safe from carbon monoxide leaks in the house. @MelissaRose i had the same thing with flushing the toilet at night, i was so scared to go because i always thought someone was outside my door to kidnap me. i wish we all didn’t have to experience this at such a young age (or at all!). all the best x

d a i s y

Date posted: 7y

Dsarahm I can’t believe how similar our worries were! I vividly remember not being able to eat at preschool because I was worried about the chemicals they used to clean the tables. And I used to spend hours worrying what would happen if my house burnt down. One night, we were staying in the city, and the motels fire alarms went off so we had to evacuate. It was one of the scariest moments in my childhood! I can’t tell you how grateful I am to have found this community. I never knew people could understand how I was feeling! d a i s y

Ocidokie

Date posted: 24w

Childhood OCD

Since when do you believe you have OCD? Anyone who would like to share what were the indications/symptoms in childhood?

sofiachloes617

Date posted: 12w

I just found out I have it

I've been struggling about OCD for a long time and I've only been made aware of it now. It's the cause of all my worrying, compulsions, and all the times I feel unpeaceful. When I first learnt about it I felt really relieved. My kind of "obsession" are intrusive thoughts that contradict my faith and values. I've spent years fighting these thoughts and doing compulsions of seeking reassurance from verses or praying and such or saying "no I don't!!" when they happen. I try to ignore them anduse cognitive defusion but sometimes it just breaks my peace. Another obsession I have is having images in my head about touching dirty things like the rust in my bathroom. A compulsions I have regarding that is imagining myself being anywhere BUT the bathroom but it doesn't stop. Now that I know, I'll try and find a way to heal, and figure it out with myself and God (because I can't rely on my parents, they're not the open-minded kind regarding mental health)

Straptap

Date posted: 11w

Not sure if I have OCD

I’ve been suspecting for awhile now that I might have OCD once I started to look into it. Often times I get a lot of thoughts of me being a terrible awful person and being afraid that I don’t even know if I’m aware of that. I try my hardest to ‘diffuse’ these thoughts constantly. I go over them and remind myself that that isn’t me but I also wonder if that’s what I truly think. I’ve experienced this for as long as I can remember. I’ve always had instrusive horrible thoughts, even from when I was a child. It’s always been background noise to me but sometimes I tune in and scare myself and often wonder what my motives are. I don’t want to have these thoughts anymore but they keep coming back. I don’t like constantly worrying if my friends all hate me or if anyone around me thinks something is completely wrong with me. It’s extremely hard to operate properly already and constantly being streamlined these thoughts 24/7 just makes it more difficult. I have to try to think of literally anything else to prevent myself from having intrusive thoughts but even that doesn’t help. It feels incredibly disabling and it often times prevents me from doing things I actually have to do out of fear because of those “what ifs”. I just live in fear. I constantly worry even when there isn’t anything to worry about. I am incredibly paranoid. I feel like anything can happen at any given moment when I am not in control and it’s exhausting. I don’t want to live like this anymore.

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