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I think I’ve actually got to the point where i dont care if what i fear i am is wrong im not wrong. I know who i am. I dont give af. I do what i want & hurt no one.
I think I’ve actually got to the point where i dont care if what i fear i am is wrong im not wrong. I know who i am. I dont give af. I do what i want & hurt no one.
I aint doing anything to hirt anyone & u cant expect me to change common sense things & foundations.
💫✨️💖✨️💫 I'm so happy for you!!! You're not letting OCD make you stop doing things you love and that's very hard to do. I'm going through a very bad theme rn, and it's making me have intrusive feelings and urges and it sucks. I wish I could just stop worrying and get on with my life. Even if its easy in theory, it's hard to practice, and I have to remind myself that OCD is making me feel this way and that it's not actually me. I really am so happy you're taking control back and living your life!!! If you ever find yourself relapsing back into the OCD cycle, just remember this: OCD will make you feel, think, and try to act on things you know is not apart of your core beliefs. It can cause distress, anxiety, fatigue (because we are constantly battling with our mind), and emotional fatigue. But one thing that I think helps is not judging yourself for not feeling your best. We should t force ourselves to be in a good mood when we don't feel that way. It's bet to acknowledge that your feeling bad, and try and find something to slowly lift your mood, without forcing it. Hope you keep up the attitude!! 💫✨️👍✨️💫
as the title says. i am trying, i really am but i cant help but think that i have been gay this whole time. it feels like i can never be happy again unless i come out. i cant do it anymore. everyday is hard. there are not easy days. i just want to love my partner and i cant. i look at him and i get this wave of anxiety and guilt. why can i just be me again? i miss the days there this was just a past thing. i feel alone and i feel stuck like this forever. my heart hurts all the time. i am trying to sit with uncertainty but i cant because it feels certain and that i know i am gay but i dont want to be. its really really sad. i hate my life and i need it to end. bye.
I don’t even say I have OCD anymore because it feels like I’m lying. Maybe this isn’t about OCD anymore and is about accountability instead. Accountability for how twisted and sick I am. Sometimes I force myself to admit that it’s not OCD and that I’m just dark and twisted and need to protect the world from me. I mean god this feels too real to be OCD. Sometimes I look back at my memory and wonder if I did certain stuff on purpose and ask myself who could do stuff like this? Everyone says it’s OCD but it feels too real. I have a gut feeling that I’m a deviant psycho. I want to be gone.
I just recently kind of was getting over my Constant spiral of “am I a lesbian or bi?”(im a lesbian) and now I’ve been tackled by “am I trans” even tho I’ve never questioned my gender ever, I love being a woman, and I never thought I’d ever be dealing with this since I’ve always been so sure of being a woman, anybody else?
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