- Date posted
- 2y
At a temp job
I’m temping right now, which is good because I don’t feel pressure. But today, I was asked if I was interested In permanent position. Boy my OCD just shot up.
I’m temping right now, which is good because I don’t feel pressure. But today, I was asked if I was interested In permanent position. Boy my OCD just shot up.
If you find it easier temping keep doing it. Just say you appreciate the offer but enjoy the flexibility temping offers which is the truth! - absolutely nothing wrong with that. You’ll get better doing longer term positions as you learn to manage your OCD so don’t be too hard on yourself ❤️
Yes. I want to take it if offered though. Im thinking it over, checking out what it all entails. Ordering food, supplies, doing mail and close commute. Good pay. Argh
@Anonymous Work it all out and maybe speak to your therapist. Look at what health benefits they offer too.
That sounds like a really cool opportunity, I get why you don’t want to pass it up! Are you hesitant to accept because OCD in general makes it hard to focus on work or is a higher position the reason for your OCD by putting you under pressure? If it’s the first maybe you could talk about flexible time off with your company. When OCD gets bad you can take breaks at work or a day off. If it’s the pressure maybe bring it up with your boss and tell them you’re interested but need a while. It doesn’t guarantee you a spot but they might be flexible and understand it puts you under pressure and save you a position. If you miss out on this because of OCD don’t put yourself down. Your mental health is way more important than a position. However, I understand it hurts to miss out on things because of mental illness and wish you the best of luck!
I guess it’s a trigger for me. All my past jobs where I was over run with obsessions and doing rituals and sweating, heart rate up, shaking, “they are looking at me”. I wish they would ask me later when I’ve had more exposure therapy. Only 1 month of exposure. Ugh
OCD in general makes it hard. Yes. And since it’s reception it wouldn’t be easy to break away. Well I sort of hope they pick someone else and take the pressure from me making a choice. It’s terrible having OCD. I know I can do all the tasks, it’s just I always think people are looking at me funny and I can’t concentrate. I get so my breathing is off and I’m all tensed up. Thank you all for your input.
Remember that OCD often latches onto good change as much as bad change, and it makes decision-making so difficult. Really try to fight your OCD and make the decisions based on what you want (not what your OCD wants) and is healthy for you. I know that’s SUPER DIFFICULT. Just want to let you know I’m rooting for you and am proud of you.
Love your comment. I’d be giving in to it if I let it win, huh? I will sit with that and see how this plays out. Thanks❤️
Hello! I am really looking for some advice. I have been struggling with OCD for a few years now and it drastically affects my daily life. I am going to give a quick run through of my OCD, and then the current situation I am in now. So for almost 2 years now my most prominent themes of OCD have been getting sick with the stomach bug (emetaphobia) and watching someone die/ having to see large amount of blood or do CPR on someone (I just graduated nursing school). Last year I stopped eating out, wouldn’t touch any of my food with my hands, would wash my hands until they bleed every day, bleached everything I touched when I was in public etc… I would have these major panic attacks all the time and the thought of getting sick hasn’t left my head 24/7 for 2 years. I was unable to complete my nursing school clinicals due to panic attacks each time I was at the hospital afraid someone would die and get these terrible images in my head. I didn’t sleep ever, barely graduated. I did ERP after school and was able to make up the clinical days I missed. Got to a point where I was eating again, felt like I was able to get my hands clean just by washing them. I have been doing exposures every day, and have accepted that getting sick will probably happen at one point and I am okay with it as long as I am at home when it happens. So locking myself in my apartment for 48hr every time after I could have been exposed to the stomach bug is major progress for me and I have been overall doing much better. Fast forward to now: It’s time for me to start my new job on a med/surg floor in a hospital. This week I have made it through a few days of orientation with panic attacks day and night but I am doing it even though I am petrified. I don’t feel ready for this big of a step, being exposed to both of my biggest fears constantly. Today at orientation the girl sitting next to me told me she had been vomiting all day, and continued to run out of the room a vomit the rest of the day. I now am 90% sure I am going to get sick and feel as if I would rather die than continue this amount of stress and anxiety I have felt from just a few days of being on the job. This is my BIGGEST fear and it’s coming true and I don’t know if it’s worth putting myself through this every day at work to just be having constant panic attacks and be miserable. I know with OCD you have to face your fears but I have been pushing myself and trying so hard and I don’t feel like it’s worth it to work this job. I would also feel incredibly guilty for quitting on the first week, but there are a million other nursing jobs that are not in a hospital. I think this is too big of a step for me right now but I wanted to see what others think. Any advice at all is so appreciated!
Hey everyone, been doing ok this week but having a little bit of a rough moment rn. So I’m about a year and a half out of college and I still have yet to a real job job. I worked for eight months somewhere which was great but I decided it wasn’t permanent. Now I’ve been unemployed for about four months and OCD is really having a field day with it. Trying to deal with it and just keep applying everyday, but I always feel like my family and friends are looking down on me and/or just plain disappointed in me. Just wanted to kind of vent and get this out of my head before I go to bed. I hope everyone is having a great week!
I posted the other day about my subtype of staring ocd but I’m supposed to start a new job next week. I work in wellness/beauty and will be seeing people half naked. It doesn’t trigger me as I’m treating clients but only when I’m not supposed to be looking (like normal interactions). It happens when people wear very revealing clothes or are super curvy and my eye goes to that area. It also happens when people are adjusting themselves and my eye goes to their hands. It’s very embarrassing and I quit my last job because of this and I don’t want to make more people feel uncomfortable. It left me very depressed and hopeless. It’s such a frustrating type of ocd to deal with because it impacts me financially and socially. I just want to feel okay. Anyways, I’m writing this because I’m wondering if I should share with my new employer about this issue so I don’t weird anyone out or keep it to myself? I’m not sure what to do. I need money as I have a mortgage and two kids and would like to help my husband. I’m currently on Zoloft 50mg, have done therapy but this is such a hard type to treat as it’s not the cleaning type. I know I’m not supposed to ask for advice about what to do but I need to know so I can make a decision and not get cold feet.
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