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- 2y ago
At a temp job
I’m temping right now, which is good because I don’t feel pressure. But today, I was asked if I was interested In permanent position. Boy my OCD just shot up.
I’m temping right now, which is good because I don’t feel pressure. But today, I was asked if I was interested In permanent position. Boy my OCD just shot up.
If you find it easier temping keep doing it. Just say you appreciate the offer but enjoy the flexibility temping offers which is the truth! - absolutely nothing wrong with that. You’ll get better doing longer term positions as you learn to manage your OCD so don’t be too hard on yourself ❤️
Yes. I want to take it if offered though. Im thinking it over, checking out what it all entails. Ordering food, supplies, doing mail and close commute. Good pay. Argh
@Anonymous Work it all out and maybe speak to your therapist. Look at what health benefits they offer too.
That sounds like a really cool opportunity, I get why you don’t want to pass it up! Are you hesitant to accept because OCD in general makes it hard to focus on work or is a higher position the reason for your OCD by putting you under pressure? If it’s the first maybe you could talk about flexible time off with your company. When OCD gets bad you can take breaks at work or a day off. If it’s the pressure maybe bring it up with your boss and tell them you’re interested but need a while. It doesn’t guarantee you a spot but they might be flexible and understand it puts you under pressure and save you a position. If you miss out on this because of OCD don’t put yourself down. Your mental health is way more important than a position. However, I understand it hurts to miss out on things because of mental illness and wish you the best of luck!
I guess it’s a trigger for me. All my past jobs where I was over run with obsessions and doing rituals and sweating, heart rate up, shaking, “they are looking at me”. I wish they would ask me later when I’ve had more exposure therapy. Only 1 month of exposure. Ugh
OCD in general makes it hard. Yes. And since it’s reception it wouldn’t be easy to break away. Well I sort of hope they pick someone else and take the pressure from me making a choice. It’s terrible having OCD. I know I can do all the tasks, it’s just I always think people are looking at me funny and I can’t concentrate. I get so my breathing is off and I’m all tensed up. Thank you all for your input.
Remember that OCD often latches onto good change as much as bad change, and it makes decision-making so difficult. Really try to fight your OCD and make the decisions based on what you want (not what your OCD wants) and is healthy for you. I know that’s SUPER DIFFICULT. Just want to let you know I’m rooting for you and am proud of you.
Love your comment. I’d be giving in to it if I let it win, huh? I will sit with that and see how this plays out. Thanks❤️
Hey everyone! I’m new to this app, but not new when it comes to OCD treatments. A few years ago I had to leave school/ my job in order to work on my mental health which was hard but needed. Mentally things have more or less gotten better OCD wise but I still really struggle with protectionism. I started a new job within the past 6 months that is challenging, but I enjoy enough to hopefully stay at for a few years. As of the past two weeks I have been really struggling with ruminating over my performance at work. I have been trying really hard to learn all the moving parts of the job, but because of lack of mentoring and constant little hiccups I have been stressing. Currently I have been overwhelmed/ overthinking so much that I have been messing up my work and it seems like my coworkers are pretty annoyed by constantly having to correct me. It’s honestly my worst fear as a perfectionist to feel like a burden. My intrusive thoughts as of late is that they are going to think I don’t care or try hard enough, that they talk bad about me to each other, and that they are going to fire me. Has anyone else experienced this type of OCD perfectionism that affects there performance within school or work and if so is there anything that you did in order to help recenter yourself in the moment to stop your brain from running in circles?
My problem with OCD/ERP is that it’s very situational and hard to trigger. So it’s hard to create exposures. My trigger is job offers. I obsess obsess obsess about them if they don’t feel just right, ask for lore time, call everyone I know, do obsessive Research, lose all perspective, and then either accept or reject the at the last minute without much confidence. Then my brain tells me I made the wrong choice, and my compulsion is to prolong the decision-making process by undoing and redoing the decision (“I accept! [2 hours later] Actually, I don’t want the job. Oh just kidding, I do! Oh wait, I don’t.”) How the fuck do I do ERP for this?! It’s not like germ phobia where exposure to the trigger is easy (there are germs everywhere). Job offers, real ones, don’t come around often (thank goodness) but when they do it is hell. This used to happen with smaller decisions but thank god that seems to be less so now
My OCD kicks very hard this morning. But it's a different topic. A few days ago I had applied for a small job and talked to the people there. In 2 months I will start my modules to finish my studies for my degree. Now I'm in a constant loop thinking about whether I have the capacities to work while studying and it's driving me crazy. Once I think I settled on an opinion, it switches again...so many what ifs "what if you mess up and ruin your studies" "what if you disappoint at this new job or have to quit because it's too much" "what if you don't have the capacities to do both" etc. it all ends in a shamefull or very stressful, catastrophic scenario where I'm a bad person. On the other hand if I deny the job I'm scared I might regret it or it feels like just trying to escape the situation or responsibility
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