At a temp job

If you find it easier temping keep doing it. Just say you appreciate the offer but enjoy the flexibility temping offers which is the truth! - absolutely nothing wrong with that. You’ll get better doing longer term positions as you learn to manage your OCD so don’t be too hard on yourself ❤️

Yes. I want to take it if offered though. Im thinking it over, checking out what it all entails. Ordering food, supplies, doing mail and close commute. Good pay. Argh

That sounds like a really cool opportunity, I get why you don’t want to pass it up! Are you hesitant to accept because OCD in general makes it hard to focus on work or is a higher position the reason for your OCD by putting you under pressure? If it’s the first maybe you could talk about flexible time off with your company. When OCD gets bad you can take breaks at work or a day off. If it’s the pressure maybe bring it up with your boss and tell them you’re interested but need a while. It doesn’t guarantee you a spot but they might be flexible and understand it puts you under pressure and save you a position. If you miss out on this because of OCD don’t put yourself down. Your mental health is way more important than a position. However, I understand it hurts to miss out on things because of mental illness and wish you the best of luck!

I guess it’s a trigger for me. All my past jobs where I was over run with obsessions and doing rituals and sweating, heart rate up, shaking, “they are looking at me”. I wish they would ask me later when I’ve had more exposure therapy. Only 1 month of exposure. Ugh

OCD in general makes it hard. Yes. And since it’s reception it wouldn’t be easy to break away. Well I sort of hope they pick someone else and take the pressure from me making a choice. It’s terrible having OCD. I know I can do all the tasks, it’s just I always think people are looking at me funny and I can’t concentrate. I get so my breathing is off and I’m all tensed up. Thank you all for your input.

Remember that OCD often latches onto good change as much as bad change, and it makes decision-making so difficult. Really try to fight your OCD and make the decisions based on what you want (not what your OCD wants) and is healthy for you. I know that’s SUPER DIFFICULT. Just want to let you know I’m rooting for you and am proud of you.

Love your comment. I’d be giving in to it if I let it win, huh? I will sit with that and see how this plays out. Thanks❤️