Lately my ocd has been trying to convince me that I do want to hurt my partner, then I just let the thought flow, after that happens i fully feel I’m convinced that I do & then I get scared and confused if I actually want to but I know I really don’t can anyone relate ?:(
I can relate to this, it’s definitely scary. What I have done that helps me is no matter how hard it may seem don’t try to analyze or ruminate on your thoughts/ feelings. I have been having more good days than bad lately and I never thought I would get here. Hang in there!
@Space1234 Thank you :)
@Space1234 Same same same! The good days are like a slice of off brand heaven. And the intrusive thoughts that are the scariest try to sneak in and grab at my attention. Struggling a bit today but I also am more anxious on the weekends, and now that the time change is hitting it’s becoming more difficult. Like AHHHH therapist on speed dial and thank god for the right meds 😆
Hey so a couple months ago (7-8) I remember being upset at my family member. Like she was talking too much while I was annoyed and remember wanting her to be quiet. I got an intrusive thought like a really bad image of doing something really bad to her, and my hand twitched to the side a little? Like it felt like I was about to?! And I remembered thinking "if I do this, I'll get in trouble". I got up and left to the bathroom and felt horrified! I was thinking "did I want to act out? Did the only reason I didn't act out was because of getting in trouble? If there was no consequences, would have I done it?! Does this mean this whole time I've been using OCD as an excuse?" I remember I couldn't sleep for 3 nights because of how bad the anxiety was, I was crying and I felt very guilty like I should turn myself in to a mental hospital. I couldn't eat for many days or be near her because of that thought and twitch I had! I'm worried it was an impulse or I actually wanted to hurt her. And even to this day I still ruminanate about this. Like last night I couldn't sleep well I kept waking up every two hours and asking myself "am I capable?" I couldn't eat last night. Sometimes I move on from it like I forget that happened but when I remember, I feel distressed about it! I don't want to be an evil person or do bad actions towards anyone! I'm even scared to be angry because of this because I'm scared I have more "chance" of acting out due to anger. Like was it an impulse and I held back? Is this even OCD? Please help, I'm really scared!
i’m back in a cycle of having harm related OCD thoughts and feelings and urges and i get these episodes where it’s like i’m disassociating and feel like i’m about to snap and go crazy violent. does anyone else experience this? i need help
Whenever anyone starts to feel like their thoughts are less triggering or they feel a moment of happiness/ relief OCD tells you that you want the thoughts back or you actually like having the thoughts and maybe thats just the person I really am? I feel like im going insane😢
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