I am struggling a lot right now with ocd convincing me I want to hurt my partner when I know deep down I don’t. It’s more so a feeling then a thought. I’m just scared that one day I’ll be convinced or give in into the thought. I don’t want to feel like I would hurt my partner anyone else ?
Oh 100% it always me being scared I will act on it but hey! We haven’t yet 💖and that’s all that matters
I’m going through that today, even in a crappy mood I have to say , maybe I will maybe I won’t. 🥴😔 I hate it here.
Hello honey, I just wanted to say that I get what you are going through. My harm OCD started with me thinking that I have hurt my brother and ex foster sister sexually. Then that led to me getting really bad thoughts of hurting (even killing) my partner. I am in love with my boyfriend and would never hurt him. It leaves me shaking and scared. I panic a lot because of it. I'm still dealing with it to this day!!!
I get these feelings, thoughts, images almost every day about hurting my partner. It's awful. My harm ocd is getting better every week and it still scares me deeply when I think these things. I think "what if I just snap one day and hurt her?" Sometimes I do exposures for ERP where she's near me while I'm holding a knife or a hammer. She trusts me so much. At the end of the day it's like the therapist keeps telling me: I may or may not hurt someone in the future. And that's what makes the harm ocd thoughts get quieter every week.
@Jesse M. That’s what scares me though the “May or may not “ I don’t understand how this would help me it makes me worry more
@Anonymous999 My experience with ERP is that I feel more anxious, and I stick with it, and then somehow I feel less anxious