Does anyone ever get thought like “maybe I should leave my bf to work on myself” but deep down inside you know you don’t want to leave him and in fact he helps you through the rough times?

You can totally work on yourself while in a relationship. It's actually a one of the best times to. You learn what he really appreciates in you and you can look on yourself and see the things that are toxic (if there are any). When I say toxic, I don't mean anything that is bad with you, they are things that your brain is wired to. May that be childhood experiences or past relationships. This can simply be if you have an avoidant attachment style so you push him away and pull him back. I find that taking 15 minutes a day to really focus on your breathing can help. This doesn't mean the thoughts you have are your truth, ocd is still there. But simply allowing your body to relax.

I have thought about that in regards to my girlfriend tonight actually as I hit a breaking point. But I know how much she loves me and that I love her so much also. I talked to her tonight about my feelings saying how I have become insecure about myself and she actually helped me out by telling me to get an app, which is why I am here. So what I can tell you is talk with them as I am sure your partner loves you and since they do they will understand and want to help you as much as they possibly can. That is what my girfriend did and promised for me. Just knowing that they understand you is a big relief as when you have moments they will know why and can act accordingly. Just be open with them and do not leave them as I am sure you love him dearly and do want him, and because of that you may regret leaving him and be worse off. Work together on your metntal health and I am sure you will be much better off, it has helped me.

Relationships are for you to grow/find what you want and need and rocd prevents that by giving you these thoughts. When you have rocd, you are in a secure relationship. It sounds like you have some unrealistic expectations about relationships. Rocd doesn't allow us to focus on anything else. When you have these thoughts, do not latch on. Allow yourself to feel and think because it is normal in rocd.

It’s hard to know tho whether or not they’re true Bc Ik if I left him or he left me I’d miss him so much:( and like my logical brain says I don’t wanna leave him but my anxiety and thoughts are like ya maybe u should. I’m relapsing:(

The fact that you know he helps you is an amazing start. I deal with the same thing, and somehow I just know that leaving will not allow me to work in myself. Do you guys spend a lot of time together?

Ya we do and it’s scary Bc yesterday I didn’t “feel” anything with him and it scared me but Ik that’s just my rocd

But also remember you won't always feel it. There are ups and downs in relationships

How do you know whether that thought is the truth and what u need or just ocd

The fact that you know your logical wants you to stay, then that's you should do no matter how much the anxiety wants other. Give your anxiety and rocd a human name so that when those come be like "it's just ____ talking"

I got that last month. It crossed my mind and I felt so very guilty because there would never be that I would rationally want but it just popped into my head. I felt like the most horrible person on the planet because "why would I even think of such a thing if I don't want to deep down?" But honestly just the thought of not being together made me feel like total shit, and I would never want it to happen. Then I eventually Googled it and discovered that it's a typical thought that people with OCD obsess about... And just knowing that made me feel so much better, like I'm normal again and I'm not a complete piece of shit. the obsession has now almost left me but it's still can be triggered. At least now I know how to deal with (acknowledge and ignore it) so it typically only last for a couple of minutes, instead of making me feel terrible for hours.