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How are you sure that what you're thinking is false memories OCD? Have you ever thought, what if actually these are not false memories, what if actually you remember you did something wrong from beginning, but at that time you suddenly forgot or you are in denial. then, have you ever feel like, suddenly some thoughts that relate with the things you afraid of comes (its hazy but you feels familiar) and you think its your real memory come back. even though the thoughts / that memory never appeared before, but after thinking / rumination about this for months - years, suddenly you feel that memory or thoughts shows that all this time my thoughts are real not false memories ocd. I often read, if you do something terrible, you don't have to try to remember, you’’ll remember about it. but I'm always afraid, what if that time I'm too tense or scared, then I forget about the truth, then I say this is a false memory OCD, whereas all of this is real. :(

Stardust777

Date posted: 2y

This is exactly what I’m going through….in my thought or false memories I remember freaking out too….but how could I have lived with the guilt this whole time?! Like did I hide it??? My false memories feel more like repressed memories….I don’t even know anymore 😭 do yours have to do with pocd?

ocdandme2828

Date posted: 2y

@Stardust777 yes it's about POCD. From your experience, how do you deal with this situation? I feel like an irresponsible person. sometimes I think is it better if I confess? because my thoughts feel its real. but I also feel like “am I sure about my actions to confess?” in the beginning, you had no memory of this, you created the scenario yourself, then now you feel this scenario is real and it's like the memory is coming back. then now, you are so doubtful with your words that said “you had no memory of this in the beginning” You think you're in denial at that time or suddenly you forget. if I don't confess, I feel like someone who's swearing. the act of confessing to something I doubt, of course, can have serious effects, especially since I struggle with the POCD theme. I'm so confused

Stardust777

Date posted: 2y

@fh2828 Ugh yes…..I don’t remember this at all….I was having real event ocd of stuff I knew happened…I was feeling better because I was finally letting go of the guilt…then boom! I get this vivid image and I’m like what?! That was weird like I understood it was an intrusive image….and then it would come in more vivid and it turned into a flash back memory…and I was like omgggg did I do that?! So I started obsessing and ruminating on the image that it would make more and more until it eventually made a story….or I would try to find stuff to connect to it…and I would find myself lying but then those lies would feel like the truth…. It makes me want to turn myself in…like I’m suppose to be in jail rn but I’m just in denial…. And it’s like an I suppose to confess??? Do I stay quiet??? For the rest of my life??? Am I going to have to take this to the grave, this “secret”??? It’s weird because I wasn’t worried about this at all it never crossed my mind…but now it’s all that’s there. I even asked the only adult person that would know…if they had the pictures or proof somehow and they didn’t have memory of it…they don’t remember anything bad…but I just felt like they we’re lying.

ocdandme2828

Date posted: 2y

@Stardust777 yes.. same with me. right now I feel confused, I'm even confused about making some life decisions like I'm going to move countries to work, because I feels bad like I'm running away from problems. I feel really stressed when I move countries later, I can't carry this burden. should i just end up in jail? huff.. By sharing stories like this, I hope you don't feel alone, I hope these are just ocd tricks that keep us thinking. :)

Anonymous.

Date posted: 1y

@Stardust777 Were you ever able to move past this false memory?

ocdandme2828

Date posted: 2y

if you need someone to talk to, you can comment here, not for reassurance, but sometimes when we know that other people have the same experience, we don't feel alone. hopefully we can keep fighting. :)

ocdandme2828

Date posted: 2y

*i feel like someone who’s hiding*

eb123456789

Date posted: 25w

Identifying Intrusive thoughts / false memory

Without trying to seek reassurance, I’m wondering if anyone has insight on identifying an intrusive thought vs reality. Something that’s always really helped ground me in moments of false memory ocd is clearly remembering the exact moment the thought arose and how it started as “what if I cheated and don’t remember.” Then the images come and are extremely distressing, but I’ve always found some comfort in coming back to that moment of “this started as what if.” It feels like my brain is almost getting more creative with the thoughts now, and I’ve been having probably the worst anxiety of my life the past couple months after another intrusive thought entered my mind. I woke up after a night drinking and thought to myself “did you kiss your friend and don’t remember?” (Didn’t happen, undeniably proved). The rest of the day I stayed anxious about other things I could have done and poured over all my memories of the night. Then the next day I finally had found some peace based on all the evidence from my friends who were with me that nothing bad happened. I then thought “what about when you went to the bathroom,” which I hadn’t really been thinking about before, and then my mind immediately started flashing with images of me performing sex acts in the bathroom with some person who has no name, face, details, or anything I remember about interacting with them. I think I’m just concerned that this was a moment of genuine memory recall since I hadn’t been thinking about the bathroom before, and it was more of a sudden flash of images and “did you do that” vs “what if you did that.” I’m wondering how others are able to identify that something is an intrusive thought vs reality.

dee012

Date posted: 24w

false memory help

any advice for when you get false memories that feel really real? especially something that had JUST happened, it’s like ur brain distorts it. i feel like i do something wrong 24/7 then i get over it and ocd latched onto something new

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 20w

Question about false memories, please help

Can it feel like you literally remember a false memory happening? And it feels like the memory has always been there and you vividly remember it happening that way? Because I don’t even know if I’m experiencing a false memory or not but god it feels so fucking real. Like I literally remember it happening. But what’s weird is the original memory was kind of different. 2 years later, the memory is not the same, but it feels like I literally remember it happening. And in this memory, I’m fucking snapping. I’m acting on my thoughts. I feel like a fucking psycho. I hope this is just OCD

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