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You can do this ♥️ I'm talking a lot ? But there's this one saying that really helped me and I'm paraphrasing here but it was something along the lines of you are the sky and OCD is the clouds. You came first and it can't survive without you. Maybe use that if you feel like you really have to do your compulsions.
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- 6y
I’m going to delete this app because I’m definitely coming on here for reassurance. I need to get better
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Or you could just do the exercises and not talk to anyone if you think that would be better
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I hope you get better! ♥️ There's sooo many options out there and even ones for if your sexuality doesn't fit any of the others! I know it's kind of an empty saying but try not to worry about it so much. Even though your hocd might make you do it
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- 6y
Well just go to the therapist. If she says something different you need to mention ocd. If she doesn’t specialize in it you need to get another therapist. They can really mess with ocd if they don’t know. Also if the thoughts are real who cares?? You’ll still be you! But I know that you don’t want those thoughts so I really think it’s ocd
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- 6y
I come on her to feel better and that fuels my ocd I know it does. I deleted the app yesterday for only a little bit and I kept getting urges to get it again “just to check it” but I know this app makes me feel better and I just want to let the thoughts be there and to not avoid it
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- 6y
It's obviously up to you but are you sure it's your OCD? Maybe it's a coping mechanism instead. But I'm new to this and not an expert so do what you think is best. If you stay on this app I'd love to help you though ♥️
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What do you mean? Getting on the app is a coping mechanism?
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Yeah. It could be distracting you but again I could be totally wrong.
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Yeah idk. I can’t tell what I’m doing for reassurance or just trying to feel better. This is all confusing
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I know it is lol
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I’m literally sitting outside of my work not wanting to go in. I’m so tired. I’m confused. I can’t get a therapist because none of them specialize in ocd around me. Ugh this is annoying?
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Yeah I know but reassurance is a compulsion, so I think I might be doing that to feel better
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- 6y
You can go into work and come back to the app whenever you need to. Just try to wane yourself off of it and not just stop cold turkey. ♥️
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Also you can use the SOS feature instead of asking for reassurance if you feel better about that
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Thank you I think I’ll be ok it’s just all confusing right now. I think I have a lot of mental compulsions and looking things up for reassurance is also one. I’m confused because I really can’t tell anymore. I used to be so sure of my sexuality and I still know I’m straight but these thoughts confuse me. I’m just not sure anymore, like what if I’m actually gay and I’m just denying it? That right there is a hocd thought, so why can’t I get it through my head?? Ugh so annoying
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There's also a thing called heteroflexible. (Which is what I am) It means you're straight, but you like the same gender as well, but you'll probably never act on it. It has a really cool flag too lol look it up. When I found this I felt so much better about myself. I don't know if I had hocd before I found it but if I did it stopped it. I would cry because I didn't know what I was and when I found that term I cried tears of joy lol. Don't know if this is what you are or not but though I might be able to help. ♥️ Btw happy pride month! ?️?
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I honestly think a lot more people are heteroflexible than they think lol
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Well thank you for that! But it really doesn’t feel right that’s just not me. Idk it’s all so confusing because I never worried about this before. I’ve always liked boys I can remember having crushes on boys thinking their cute. I had hocd when I was younger as well just because I kid called me a lesbian what a dumb ass. He really made me so upset. Maybe it’s a traumatic experience that’s bothering me. Idk it’s weird. I wouldn’t even care if I was that way it just doesn’t feel right. I don’t have any problems with people that are that way, my brothers that way! I always ask him questions and he says I’m obviously not that way so whyyyyy ugh I can’t
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Heteroflexible means you won't date the same gender but you still think they're pretty or cute or whatever.
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Also there's abro which means your sexuality's always changing
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And there's even a flag for questioning so you can feel at ease either way ?♥️
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Yeah I don’t think girls are cute, I think girls are pretty and most of the time I want to look like them. I’m definitely not that way, but thank you so much for giving me options! That easily could have been me and I would be better. Sadly I’m still in hocd confused asf but I’m not that upset anymore so that’s good
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Have you seen a therapist?? You might need one I don’t think my ocd is as bad as yours. It might have been before but now I’m a little bit better.
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- 24w
Think logically. Literally. Take me as an example. I have hocd and my obsession is “what if I’m gay”. I’ve liked girls my whole life, I can still get aroused by them and I can’t get the same instinctive reaction from a guy. So I can’t be gay. Sometimes ocd will go to something else once you prove it wrong. Maybe like. “What if I’m bi” again I can only get aroused by girls. Sometimes when I’m not thinking about it I can even get aroused when sitting next to a girl or when I’m sitting next to one or even when I’m touching one in a non sexual way. Something that never happens or has happened with a guy in my life. Don’t start panicking. Just “realise” who you are and who you’ve been.
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I keep having this weird feeling none stop that it’s most likely not HOCD and most my feelings. Like I’ve suffered none stop distress and unwanted thoughts the past few days. But those thoughts after a bit just feel weird not the kind of discomfort but are just their and stale. When I look at a guy I don’t feel anything but my thoughts sometimes compliment his looks or personality which makes me doubt my sexuality. I’ve never felt this weirded out. Because I’ve always been straight and still believe I am but I’ve never even had an emotional connection to someone of the opposite gender in fact. My view of the female body has been ruined with none stop pornography addictions. I don’t believe I’m gay but I feel like it may just be denial instead of HOCD but all my symptoms are literally HOCD. I don’t hate the idea of gay people but I can’t imagine or see my heart going off to like someone of the same sex. I haven’t really had any meaningful real life friends besides online but that also ended a few months ago. My only friend ever online that was my friend for the longest of time was a queer but I never really cared about what he liked. Like yes at some point I did try to challenge him with his own feelings but that didn’t last long I just accepted what he liked and moved on. I’ve never even touched let alone held a long conversation with a female. I’ve always been timid and shy around them but I can just say that towards male as well. The gay feelings feel so real. The thoughts feel a bit natural to me but I don’t want this. But I hate how I can’t just move on and be myself and love women when those thoughts demand attention and an answer. It won’t quit it. If I try to do a compulsion it calms down but it quickly becomes a problem again. I’m lonely I don’t have any friends or past relationships I can even think of helping me with the emotions. I still believe I’m straight and I just can’t see myself with a guy. It just doesn’t feel right for me despite my lack of experiences. I just wanna go back to how I was happy and loving girls and not having to question if it was a real feeling or just my natural timid nature. Everytime I think these distressing thoughts I always just wanna sit down and close my eyes and sleep. Because that’s where I can have peace of self. It sucks but I’m so exhausted of having to deal with emotional distress and I can’t even focus on my job as much. I want to meet new people discover my love for women again but I’m scared in the process I may discover I may be gay. Because deep down I know I wouldn’t ever be happy with myself if my greatest fears where confirmed. My dream of always being a father with a loving women and kids would be torn away by something I never asked for. Yes I’m religious, yes I come from a place that homosexuals are usually seen in a bad light. I just hate feeling this emotion that I may not be what I thought and having my dreams torn apart maybe true. I’ve read MUTIPLE articles about HOCD and seen MUTIPLE videos. I’ve come to the realization that I most likely have it. But it’s still hard when the feelings of maybe being gay maybe true you know? I hope I get better I hope I don’t suffer. I just wanna be happy with myself and loving females and I don’t wanna hate myself for feeling an emotion that never occurred to me more then a few times.
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- 22w
Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
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