Sometimes it feels

I am male but I feel like I’m gay. I tried kissing a pre op transexual while drunk but I didn’t like it. I’m not hoping to try it again because I know it would be just to check. The thoughts torment me pretty much but thoughts about being with a woman and having a future together have always been one of my utmost dreams. I hope to find a productive, beneficial relationship and have satisfaction at last. I hope you get what you want from life. 👍