- Username
- CB1992
- Date posted
- 65d ago
- Mid-life adults with OCD
- LGBTQ+ with OCD
- Sexual Orientation OCD
Thoughts on Sexual Orientation OCD
Seeing these posts regarding sexual orientation OCD has been really interesting for me. I didn’t know that was a thing and now I’m like… shit. I came out as a lesbian in my early 20s. I always knew I was into girls from a young age and went through the usual turmoil etc. but I was so confident in my sexuality by the time I was in my 20s. Then I developed a crush on a man a few years ago. I think? Because I don’t even know if I would actually want to date one… Is nervousness attraction? Is thinking someone is good looking attraction? For the past few years I’ve been spiralling between this is just me being in denial I’m definitely a lesbian and actually no this is really attraction and that’s okay labels can change you’re bisexual. But I’ve literally had this inner debate for over 3 years now on a daily basis. I’ve spoken so much about it with my friends and they’re always like ‘just go with the flow.’ I can’t! And now I’m realising it’s not normal to stress over your sexual orientation on a regular basis… And it comes back to the OCD problem of I MUST know!! I need to know 100% who and what I am or nothing makes sense!! Anyway, every day I am learning new ways OCD has been a part of my life and I never knew, ha. Any other LGBT people with the same thoughts? Seems a lot of het people who worry they’re gay/bi whereas I’m the opposite 😅