Don’t know if this is a part of ocd recovery or what but my hocd thoughts don’t give me anxiety anymore. Sometimes it feels like this tapped into my feelings. I don’t know how to explain it. Like when I get the thoughts now my mind is like “you’ve always been like that” but I feel no anxiety. I’m also regaining some attraction for the opposite sex and that feels great but at the same time my mind says I’m lying to myself and I get this weird feeling in my chest. Idk what this is.

What happens when you start to heal from your principal theme, is that your ocd tells you: ☆ well maybe you are lying. You are just faking it. And anything has any meaning at all anymore. And bla bla bla, Im going to make your life miserable because you can't choose anything bla bla bla ☆ And to that, just answer: okay, whatever you say. You are not real. Not me. Just a thought. I can get through this. I can distract myself. This is not important at all. Everything doesn't need a why or an answer. Things just are, I like what I like, I don't need to ask myself all the time, I don't need to know to feel better. I don't need this. And with soooome time it will go away. Is not easy, but you can do it. That is erp. Because that feeling or that thought "Im lying to myself", is your anxiety disorder telling you that you have to start to obsses about this, so you can protect yourself from your fears :)

Anxiety has a lot of forms. You have adequate to a thought that is always in your head. That doesn't mean anything else. Your brain get used to that like every other thought you have everyday. The anxiety dissapearing means you are starting to heal because if you (re)learn to don't panic at your trauma you also don't give meaning to it. No compulsion. No rumination. Break the ocd cycle. And you will not think in your obsession so much, to a point that in a not long future you'll be fine again with it.

Yes

Omg sameeee