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I really want to have a family someday with my boyfriend. I’m so scared POCD will keep me from that. Can anyone share success :(
I really want to have a family someday with my boyfriend. I’m so scared POCD will keep me from that. Can anyone share success :(
I don’t know if this is a success story, but here’s my story. I dealt with severe pocd when I was 15. It was a battle everyday and I couldn’t focus on school or my daily activities. It was a nightmare and was very traumatic. I have two little sisters who I love to death, and when I had pocd, it was hard to be around them. It was a complete nightmare. Overtime, as I started to focus on other things and keeping myself busy everyday, the pocd.. kinda disappeared for me. I can happily see my sisters now without any intrusive thoughts actually. Maybe it’s because I’m struggling with other ocd themes idk. But I hope this story gives you some sort of hope.
@AliS914 This does give me some hope. Thank you ❤️
This would be a good exposure for pocd. My godsister had it bad but then she had a baby and we’re so happy. She still has the thoughts but they don’t scare because they don’t mean anything. Don’t let ocd take that away from you
I have 4 children, and pocd. I know the thoughts don't mean anything, because they aren't mine, and I'd never hurt them the way I was hurt as a child. Most of the time, I don't give any heed to intrusive pocd thoughts, and if I start to worry I'll be a monster I remind myself...they're my babies and I truly love them. I know I'd never hurt them. Idk if this helps. It used to be worse, because I'd worry I might hurt them one day, or do something without thinking - it was terrifying. But the less attention I gave the thoughts, the less frequent they became, and the less intense they were.
Thank you everyone ❤️ it does help. Not trying to get reassurance, I just don’t want to give up.
Definitely don't give up on your dream. It can get better. 💜
If anyone else can share I’d appreciate it..
I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now
I feel like I’ll never lead a normal life again with OCD, my thoughts have begun to be convince especially about POCD. I feel like so sad and down that this will be my life forever. I’ll never get to fall in love again without intrusive thoughts. I’ll never be worth falling in love with. I can never be intimate again. I’m just done, my life is over. I can’t even look at my nephew and niece anymore without the smile fading. It feels like I’m so nasty and then my brain convinces me this is how I feel. That there’s some part of me that is a p*do and that’s it. I’m a disgusting human being for that. I just feel hopeless
Please read this. I’ve had ocd pretty much a lot of my life but never knew what it was until my senior year of highschool. I’m 21 with 2 kids and i believe i’ve had pocd a little bit before my daughter was born (which was 8 months ago). It made me start looking at all kids differently and i hate it. But it really started triggering me about 3 months ago. I’ve been thinking if i’d intentionally touched or harmed my kids the wrong way, or any kids for that matter. This started giving me false memories (or at least hope they are). I’ve been having panic attacks, yelling at myself, punching walls, praying, and even thoughts of ending my own life. I grew up in a severe toxic household throughout my childhood and teenage life. I’ve never wished that on my kids since i became a dad. I wanna give them the life i never got. I look back my photos of my children and i feel like i’m a complete fraud of a dad. I cannot look at my kids or be around them a lot of times. I can’t hold my daughter right. I can’t change their diaper when they need it. Even my son came and was hugging on me the other night while i was watching tv and i acted like a stranger to him. I can very little do this stuff sometimes because it’s either i get relief or i push my thoughts as far back as i can. I get scared if i did something to not just my kids, but any other kids in the past. I have such a a great life and such a beautiful family. It was hard and stressful at first being young with a family but i couldn’t be more thankful at all for them. I’m just so lost and stressed right now that i just don’t know what to do anymore
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