i have a date tomorrow! which is exciting but also really fucking scary. like they’re so nice but we’re watching movies together and im worried they’ll make some move i can’t abide bc of my ocd like if they try to like. Put their arm around me i might freak out i can’t can’t can’t handle touch and i don’t know WHY

Be up front about wanting to go slow. That’s a reasonable request from anyone, not just someone with OCD. It might also help to feel more in control. Rather than waiting to see if they put their arm around you, see how you’re feeling, and if you want touch, snuggle up to them. You might feel anxious at first. Breath. Don’t do compulsions. Sit with the anxiety until it lessens. Whether you touch or not, don’t put so much pressure on tomorrow. Great dates don’t always involve touching. There’s plenty of time for that.

Good luck brittches. As pureolife said above, just be open and honest about wanting to go slow. My intrusive thoughts come and go, and have done for around 15 years, but I remember a few months into my new relationship I had a bad night, which was a in turn a bad month, and I was open and honest with her. She didn't understand but you supported me, and 10 years later we're still together. Good luck.

oh you’re an angel :’-) thank you so much for this ♥️♥️♥️

thank you so much the uk guy!! i really appreciate it ? my ocd always just. Centers so much around relationships it’s scary to even think about but your kind words have definitely helped