Hyper awareness/sensorimotor ocd?

Hyperawareness/Sensorimotor can be a real bitch. You are absolutely right with accepting the worst, accepting that you could never stop thinking about it. You don’t have to like it, it would probably really suck, but accepting you can still live your life the best you can. Common compulsions to avoid are trying to not think about it/distract yourself, and avoiding anything you would otherwise be doing. Script writing and other specific activities can be very helpful. Just don’t do them with the mindset that you’re doing in order to stop your Hyperawareness, because this will just backfire. Do the exercises because you fed up with this causing you anxiety, and you want to to get used to the uncomfortableness. Basically you won’t stop thinking about something, until it doesn’t bother you when you do think about it.

No problem!! Yes, still going through it. I’m a big time runner, and about 2 years ago I had a worry I would injure my knee, despite never even having a history of it. Since then to this day every time I walk or run I’m hyperawrare of how my leg and knee moves. Through compulsions of avoidance and manipulating how I walk/run, I’ve gotten to a point where I don’t even know what feels natural anymore, and often times my knee does ache now because I’m overthinking it etc.. I was at a pretty low point about 8 months ago. Depressed, crying frequently, not wanting to die but tired of living how I was. Today, I still am hyper aware, and still don’t feel how I “used to” when I ran automatically. But I have stopped many compulsions and have worked on acceptance, and I am no longer constantly miserable, and am actually able to enjoy life more. I hope I continue to improve, it would be amazing if I could feel how I used to. But I’m working on taking it day by day, and living the best life I can despite my situation. I mess up all the time, but I think progress not perfection is a good quote to keep in mind. Really work on self compassion and be kind to yourself. This is not your fault, and despite your brain telling you there’s something you need to do or figure out, don’t listen to it. Accept the worse. Learn to live with it. Just know you can’t control your thoughts or Hyperawareness, but you can control what you do with it and how you live your life. Best of luck to you, I know it’s difficult, but I believe in you! Here’s to a great New Year of moving forward and living the best life you can:)

So sorry to hear you go through this. I’m currently battling the hyper awareness of my consciousness. Hopefully we can recover so that we can enjoy life! One way to look at it is, that once you get those thoughts, realize that you really are in control of yourself and everything around you! It’s hard believe me! Before this I was obsessed that I was going to develop a disorder because of taking medication. I didn’t know it was OCD. I thought ocd was just being a perfectionist. The. Out of no where, BAM like a ton of bricks i became hyper aware. It sucks but we’re going to make it!