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@Keona Yeah hopefully we’ll just know I’ll be thinking of u today

@Keona Yeah thanks last night I had fun but I feel like ocd ruins my holidays whenever I try to do something fun it always comes back to haunt me

@louisa davoli Today we are goi g to the beach and doing much more hopefully I have a better day today

@Keona Like I just want to relax on holiday last night I had it really bad like I didn’t think it will be like that

@Keona And I hope u have a good day today

@Keona Thanks ill try to forget about it but it never really goes away I feel like I’m trapped in my head like why me like I just want to be normal

@Keona Yeah exactly like idk what to do mojority of the time erp doesn’t work for me like these thoughts are too strong

@Keona Same. But it will get better Ik ocd doesn’t really go away but it will get better we have to believe that

@Keona Ik same u should try distracting yourself like doing a hobby or just go out

@Keona That’s good and yesterday went walking next to the beach gonna go into it today. Yesterday I didn’t have ocd when walking because I was distracted. I find that sometimes distractions can work.

@louisa davoli I mainly get ocd being on my phone like idk why because I’m snapping my bf and thoughts just pop up in my mind

@Keona Yeah Ik have u told anyone about ur ocd but the therapist?

@Keona Well I tried telling my mum and she is not serious about it I think she needs to be educated on the topic she knows ocd as cleaning and just being organised. I mean at lest ur mum knows and ur seeing someone about it which it good

@Keona I mean maybe letting her know more about how u feel. As long as ur talking to a therapist who understands that all that matters like ur gonna get help and I’m happy for u

@Keona Yeah that’s so good dw u will be much better after a couple of appointments u’ve got this

@Keona Let’s hope so

@Keona Ik how u feel tmr ur gonna feel better I’ll be thinking of u

@Keona Yeah we can it’s good talking to u

@Keona Nah I’d like that I’m from Melbourne Australia and I’m on holiday to Queensland how h ever been? And yeah I was curious too r u from America cause u say ‘mom’

@Keona Cool I always wanted to go there to America have u ever been here?

@Keona Ok thanks

@Keona I mean it’s ok not the best

@Keona I love in Victoria

@louisa davoli In America there is more tourist attractions

@Keona It’s not I just went to the beach but there are other places in America that r really good

@Keona Yeah ok, how r u feeling now?

@Keona Remember flirting is just a part of ur personality like it’s a part of mine look ur not doing it on purpose there’s nothing to worry about. I feel like if ur flirting because u like the person then u should tell ur bf. I don’t believe ur flirting is a form of cheating

@Keona I don’t believe u like him ur brain is just telling u something else that isn’t true. I get that too like I have a bf and my brain tries to convince me I like other people it’s just not true

@Keona Yeah just know ur not alone I’m here for u and to reassure u of what is true

@Keona I feel bad but I’m ok if that makes sense I’ll be ok

@louisa davoli Idk I mean I’m trying to relax and watch a movie but I’m getting ocd texting my bf when watching the movie and on the movie idk

@Keona I’ve been battling ocd for a long time ROCD came into the picture ever since I got a bf it’s nearly been a year

@louisa davoli And ROCD is the worse. Like Ik my thoughts r just thoughts but why do they make me feel so bad like I don’t wanna think these things

@Keona Yeah exactly I wish I got help sooner like I wanna be normal so bad ocd ruins everything

@Keona Ok have fun and here in Australia we go on school holidays now that’s owed ho it different in America. I would be in bed later talk tmr hopefully we will feel better soon.

@Keona It’s morning for me now, hru now?

@Keona I’m feeling good going on a family road trip to Brisbane and Bribie island

@louisa davoli And that’s good ur feeling better there’s nothing to worry about

@Keona Yeah I’m so excited. Our family never really goes on holidays

@Keona I mean I wish it helped but it doesn’t like I learnt I can’t run away from my problems and feelings like no matter what I’ll still feel like this

@Keona Like getting into a relationship I thought a person would make all my problems go away but I have the same even more. U need to be happy within yourself before u can be happy with someone else

@Keona Yeah baby people say they need others to feel complete and happy but u need to be happy within that’s what my mum always said I never listened. We just need feel happy and whole within. Ik we are going to feel like this maybe not now but one day.

@Keona That’s good that he wasn’t that upset does he understand ur ocd?

@Keona That’s fine as long as he understands u

@Keona That’s good that he helped he just need us to educate him more about it but it’s good that he was t really upset

@Keona Yeah I get that as long as he’s not really upset u can work through it

@Keona Yeah good going to an Asian restaurant today, shopping and the beach. Right now I’m just tired still feeling a little anxious

@louisa davoli Hru today?

@Keona I’ll be thinking of u today I deserve to have a good day too!

@Keona I’ll be praying and thinking of u

@Keona I know exactly how u feel I get that. Like I don’t find other guy’s attractive like I think they r cute but I’ll never go for them. I get really babd ocd like I tho like I like them or find them attractive and I don’t. I’ll be thinking of u and don’t worry u r not alone Ik it’s hard to ignore the thoughts tho

@Keona I know it’s feel like the end of the world trust me I know if I want we can sometime call. Ik the thoughts feel debilitating but at the end of the day they r just thoughts and ur boyfriend understands

@Keona I’m here anytime if u need to talk. Even if I have Snapchat we can talk more there

@Keona Or here that’s fine

@Keona I’m currently at a Asian restaurant it’s so hot here I’m tired gonna sleep on the beach haha

@louisa davoli And I’ll call when I can maybe another day basically out all day and I’ll add u

@louisa davoli Added u

@Keona I will be I’ll have fun sleeping I’ll go in the water tho but sleeping most of the time

@Keona Ok goodnight haha

@Keona Hahah think it’s like late afternoon there ur a day behind

@Keona 2:56 In the afternoon