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- Glasscrow
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Recognizing a pattern is the first step to learn how to manage it. Once you understand how that type of thoughts work you can prevent yourself from responding or act in a way that makes you spike. I know letting the thoughts be is hard, I'm struggling with it too, but that's the thing with therapy is hard at the beginning but then it gets gradually easier
I think some mindfulness could go a long way. Mindfulness is the practice of watching your thoughts float by without engaging in them. Seems like the biggest problem here is that you get so wrapped up in these fantasies that you can’t disengage. Try watching your thoughts for awhile each day, not just these violent thoughts but others too. Watch them go by, acknowledge them, and then return your attention back to yourself as you let them go. If you find your mind struggling to let go of one, that’s okay. Take a breath and try to refocus again. Many people take it back to their breath. The fact that this seems to spike for you during times of happiness makes sense because OCD works paradoxically: it makes you think about the exact thing you don’t want to. Good luck!
Thanks to both of you. I actually already practice mindfulness regularly. I guess it helps with unwanted thoughts a little bit, but these are not normal thoughts and I am not in a typical state of mind when it's happening. I mostly use it to help with moods when something real is wrong. I was mostly wondering if anyone else can relate because I'm new to ocd and was wondering if I should pursue a diagnosis with someone who specializes in it. I've already seen like 7 therapists in my lifetime so it's discouraging to have to keep searching for someone.
I definitely would recommend seeing a specialist. Therapist are helpful but not all of them are specialized to treat disorders. A cbt/erp therapist is what's needed
Am I normal? I have thoughts about killing my friends, family, and strangers recently very often in a variety of ways and these intrusive thoughts are draining happiness from me.. I don't know this type of OCD but I'm certain it's a subset of OCD. I don't know what's happening to me. Someone please reach out to me. Its draining happiness from me every day. When I'm having a fun time with family one intrusive thought enters my mind out of the blue. It gets so bad and so violent that it physically made me sick. I'm not even kidding.
I’ve been dealing with intrusive violent images/urges/thoughts for months now. Lately it’s gotten worse. Sometimes when I see a person i automatically imagine hurting them, sometimes to see if I enjoy the thought or not, or sometimes it just appears in my head and I try to cut it off immediately. It’s like i just can not interact with people because I can’t tell if I’m a risk or not. If I’m capable of hurting them or not. I hate it because I’m all day trying to get an answer to whether I want to harm people or not. I’m constantly asking myself: have you ever desired the thought? Do you want to do it or not? And all of the above makes me feel anormal and like a psycho. And of course, another doubt comes into my head: do you really don’t want to be a bad person? And it’s a never ending disturbing and frustrating cycle... I can’t stop it, it’s driving me crazy and it makes me desperate. Is all this even normal?
Does anyone here have harm OCD that tries to attack every single action and thought they do during the day? Mine is about killing my spouse. Now every time I hear something that entails the future or “doing what I gotta do” I am afraid if the thoughts showing up. And as I try to think “do therapy”, “find hobbies”, “get into yoga” the intrusive though appears and it’s “kill your wife” or “kill your wife and yourself afterwards”. It could attack a happy event to. Like you finally get that reimbursement you were waiting for on an online shopping return. And now you get it and you’re like : “Nice, thats done” and the the intrusive thought comes “cool, now you can kill your wife”. I’m under the impression I am becoming schizophrenic. I don’t hear a voice or see things though, and some days there are less occurrences than other days. It’s days where I don’t work and have a day out with the wife doing fun activities that the occurrences are less. But if I sit alone working in my office all they they appear all the time. This is very distressing and causes severe anxiety. Loosing appetite, head aches, becoming extremely irritable. This is the hardest thing I have ever go through.
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