KAD.98
- Date posted
- 2y
Struggling
It’s one of those nights where I’m constantly checking my body, seeking reassurance and wondering if I need to see a doctor tomorrow. I stopped therapy because I thought I was getting better…
Erin PErin P
- Date posted
- 2y
Remember you were getting better, you can do it. You know OCD is what is telling you to check your body and see a doctor. Use the tools that were working.
KAD.98KAD.98
- Date posted
- 2y
@Erin P When it’s times like this and my OCD is through the roof. My compulsions are out of hand I feel like it’s a race with everything. If I don’t shut this door before the garage closes something bad will happen, or the microwave, the fridge, etc. I completely forget everything I’ve learned in ERP. I called my best friend had her check her lymph nodes, then had her husband check his, then woke up my bf to have him check his then had him feel mine. It’s never ending and I feel like I’m getting worse and there’s no cure, I’m struggling so much for some reason. And I’m scared to you my dosage because of the side effects and I’m scared to keep taking it because I think I’m misdiagnosed, then I’m scared to stop taking it because of the side effect withdrawals. It’s ridiculous. 😫
KAD.98KAD.98
- Date posted
- 2y
@KAD.98 I’m scared to up my dosage**
Erin PErin P
- Date posted
- 2y
@KAD.98 I’m so sorry you are suffering so much. Erp with the right therapist will get you better. One thing to do when you are having a calm moment is to figure out what your bf do to help you remember ERP instead of providing reassurance. I know that’s a scary concept but the reassurance of their checking will just keep the OCD in play. Sending you calmness.
KAD.98KAD.98
- Date posted
- 2y
@Erin P Thank you ❤️❤️ he kept trying to resist but I BEGGED him to feel his lymph nodes. 😫 I’m seeing my therapist soon. 😔
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
You sound like me! I’m starting therapy tomorrow again after a 3 month break
KAD.98KAD.98
- Date posted
- 2y
@Anonymous I just texted my therapist this morning I’m still waiting on a date to set a meeting 😔❤️
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
@KAD.98 Wishing you luck! I had my appointment earlier and I’m feeling hopeful
ashski398ashski398
- Date posted
- 2y
I have been non stop analyzing my symptoms which make them worse since last night. I am trying to the techniques and I can’t shake the mental war going on inside my brain!
KAD.98KAD.98
- Date posted
- 2y
@ashski398 I feel this!!! I almost want to call my doctor, get another blood test and have her feel my lymph nodes again! 😫😭
Erin PErin P
- Date posted
- 2y
@KAD.98 Good job resisting
Erin PErin P
- Date posted
- 2y
@ashski398 If something new would help check out the Reid Wilson you tube on the noise on your head
KAD.98KAD.98
- Date posted
- 2y
@Erin P I didn’t resist. I just came back from the ER with a $200 co-pa and the doctor prescribing me a different medication telling me my lymph nodes were fine🤦🏻♀️ I made a fool out of myself. I cried to the nurse not because I’m tired of waking up everyday and thinking something is wrong with me. 😭
KAD.98KAD.98
- Date posted
- 2y
@KAD.98 He prescribed me a different anxiety medication *** because the Lovux isn’t working.
KAD.98KAD.98
- Date posted
- 2y
@KAD.98 *****I cried to the nurse because I’m tired of waking up everyday thinking soemthing is wrong with me ***** sorry for the corrections. I’ve been crying snd im burnt out.
Erin PErin P
- Date posted
- 2y
@KAD.98 I’m so sorry. OCD is a really hard beast. Forgive yourself. You didn’t make a full of yourself you merely lost a battle.
Erin PErin P
- Date posted
- 2y
@KAD.98 Nurses have dealt with worse - it’s okay
ashski398ashski398
- Date posted
- 2y
@KAD.98 I have been contemplating this….. I want to go so bad.
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