Stupid

It's really annoying when it does that. And it keeps taking away every fact that I've had fro the beginning and doing this to it.

That's the issue, I can't remember. It's been 6 months and I honestly can't remember at all how I felt. However, I do agree that you can't fake without realizing. Just like, I wasn't attracted to girls without realizing, which is also what it tells me.

@Meg Johnson You know you had these crushes as you are so aware now you don't have them. With your crushes you must have enjoyed seeing snd being around them or heaing about them and want them and have attraction towards them, if you didn't you probably wouldn't be wondering right now "oh no, what if it was all fake"

@EllieDuffy21 - Oh, yeah, I felt all of that. Only thing was sometimes when they showed interest back, I kind of ran away. But not from all. But I definitely was happy being around them and everything, I was nervous too. But I figured that's normal.

@Meg Johnson Omg yes I was always so normal and everytime a boy would talk to me who I had a crush on I would be trying my best to avoid it because I thought i would ruin it or say something I didn't mean

@EllieDuffy21 - I don't know if it was because I was worried about that too. I worry that I didn't like them and that's why I ran away. But tbh, I've always had an issue with emotional intimacy, even with my parents. I think that had something to do with it. Plus, I think I'm the kind of person to take it slow with.

@Meg Johnson taking it is slow is such an easy and common thing to do. When I worried about my attraction to men being a complete lie my whole life I always remembered these things: - You can't fake feelings without knowing - a person has to actively change there views and values to other people and themselves to fake it and know they are doing it. YOU WILL ALWAYS KNOW! - if you didn't fancy men, you would of never gravitated to their attraction more. I am presuming you have been attracted to people you know before or people you have seen. This shows you gravitate to men and you look for the men you fancy as that's best you are inclined too. - remember how you felt when you fancied someone, remember your behaviour remember your feelings and remember your thoughts! You've got this ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

I just remember the day I got my first false memory. I was trying to recover and I all of a sudden had so much anxiety and got so many what ifs. Trying to remember something made me go downhill it was like it confirmed my fears. Ever since I've been finding tons of memories not even intentionally and it all seems to support this theme.