Meg Johnson
- Date posted
- 2y
Stupid
Literally now when I think of my past crushes, my head like "yeah, but it was fake or you forced it"
Ocd I don’t like these thoughts Ocd I don’t ...
- Date posted
- 2y
I can relate..
Meg JohnsonMeg Johnson
- Date posted
- 2y
It's really annoying when it does that. And it keeps taking away every fact that I've had fro the beginning and doing this to it.
EllieDuffy21EllieDuffy21
- Date posted
- 2y
Omg I had this aswell! Ocd will attach itself to anything you feel strongly about and care for. Just remember how you felt when you had these crushes and you weren't dealing with heightened ocd, you can't fake the feelings without realising! Stay strong, you've got this 👍💗
Meg JohnsonMeg Johnson
- Date posted
- 2y
That's the issue, I can't remember. It's been 6 months and I honestly can't remember at all how I felt. However, I do agree that you can't fake without realizing. Just like, I wasn't attracted to girls without realizing, which is also what it tells me.
EllieDuffy21EllieDuffy21
- Date posted
- 2y
@Meg Johnson You know you had these crushes as you are so aware now you don't have them. With your crushes you must have enjoyed seeing snd being around them or heaing about them and want them and have attraction towards them, if you didn't you probably wouldn't be wondering right now "oh no, what if it was all fake"
Meg JohnsonMeg Johnson
- Date posted
- 2y
@EllieDuffy21 - Oh, yeah, I felt all of that. Only thing was sometimes when they showed interest back, I kind of ran away. But not from all. But I definitely was happy being around them and everything, I was nervous too. But I figured that's normal.
EllieDuffy21EllieDuffy21
- Date posted
- 2y
@Meg Johnson Omg yes I was always so normal and everytime a boy would talk to me who I had a crush on I would be trying my best to avoid it because I thought i would ruin it or say something I didn't mean
Meg JohnsonMeg Johnson
- Date posted
- 2y
@EllieDuffy21 - I don't know if it was because I was worried about that too. I worry that I didn't like them and that's why I ran away. But tbh, I've always had an issue with emotional intimacy, even with my parents. I think that had something to do with it. Plus, I think I'm the kind of person to take it slow with.
EllieDuffy21EllieDuffy21
- Date posted
- 2y
@Meg Johnson taking it is slow is such an easy and common thing to do. When I worried about my attraction to men being a complete lie my whole life I always remembered these things: - You can't fake feelings without knowing - a person has to actively change there views and values to other people and themselves to fake it and know they are doing it. YOU WILL ALWAYS KNOW! - if you didn't fancy men, you would of never gravitated to their attraction more. I am presuming you have been attracted to people you know before or people you have seen. This shows you gravitate to men and you look for the men you fancy as that's best you are inclined too. - remember how you felt when you fancied someone, remember your behaviour remember your feelings and remember your thoughts! You've got this ❤️ ❤️ ❤️
Dothewalkoflife. Dothewalkofl...
- Date posted
- 2y
Me too
Meg JohnsonMeg Johnson
- Date posted
- 2y
I just remember the day I got my first false memory. I was trying to recover and I all of a sudden had so much anxiety and got so many what ifs. Trying to remember something made me go downhill it was like it confirmed my fears. Ever since I've been finding tons of memories not even intentionally and it all seems to support this theme.
Related posts
Googlyeyes34
- Date posted
- 25w
False attraction
False attraction has been killing me ive had it for months with the same person. I have a boyfriend so having false attraction makes me feel so guilty. And lately theyve felt so real and ive been so anxious. What if I do like him bla bla. Ive only ever saw him as a brother and we have a good connection and he is one of my good friends but even sometimes when im having a conversation I feel like im cheating. Sometimes I get excited like oh yay he is gonna be here and then I get scared that it’s romantical because I get excited when he is around because he is a funny. Im so scared thats its real attraction because I love my boyfriend I would never do such a thing. And lately my minds done stuff like oh grab his attention stuff like that and it feels like I have done those actions but I dont want to. Sometimes when he is like idk sitting near Im like oh is he looking and my minds like oh do something to empress him bla bla. Recently he was going thought stuff and my boyfriend was there and I was I can give him a hug because I think he needs it but after I thought of it as bad because he is a guy and I had this false attraction what if I did it because I like him bla bla. I am freaking out idk why my mind makes me do compulsions that I have acted on like oh go talk to him and I do its weird urges that I do not want to do. I am scared that it will come true
geodrimilis
- Date posted
- 22w
Hocd is literally a clown in my head.
Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
Idontknow
- Date posted
- 16w
18+
So I was fantasizing about my crush and when I was into my brother pops up or something and it makes me think I was turned on by him like I’m upset about that now
Be a part of the largest OCD Community
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond