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having a crush
how do y’all handle having a crush when you have ocd and severe anxiety? idk i just feel just super anxious ab it. especially the uncertainty of like being in the “talking stage”
how do y’all handle having a crush when you have ocd and severe anxiety? idk i just feel just super anxious ab it. especially the uncertainty of like being in the “talking stage”
I simply don’t handle it lmao. I honestly hate having crushes because I feel too obsessive and anxious over everything and it causes me to feel creepy and ashamed and gross, and every rejection experience I’ve had just feeds into all of it. I hate uncertainty and I always want to know what to expect which I know is very unrealistic but the anxiety and self-deprecating thoughts just take over very easily when I have no idea what is coming next. I just try to avoid pain by making it occur faster, and I’ve put myself in positions where I knew I’d be rejected but I wanted to rip off the bandaid so I could just stop thinking about all of it.
I am in the midst of this right now… I didn’t think of it till now but I am feeling a lot of anxeity in the talking stage… it is like every time she doesn’t answer I think I did something wrong… the best idea is to just sit with the uncertainty, the future is so unknown but right now we are exactly where we are! Thats the only way I see it honestly
@OneDayAtATime I had no idea OCD was so related to feelings of uncertainty until I got this app and I feel like I would’ve been much better off if I knew this a long time ago. I’ve always struggled very deeply with uncertainty. It’s so hard. I feel the same as you but I don’t think I’ve ever truly been in an actual talking stage with anyone, I just try and befriend the person I like, anxiously wait for them to at least be platonically reciprocal, they do so for an extremely brief time and then get bored, and so I just feel like shit and let them forget me or I tell them I like them really normally and casually literally just so I can move on and it freaks them out and they stop talking to me. This is why I’ve never dated. I’m demisexual and I barely like anyone in the first place which helps nothing. Bleh.
Relationships are so hard to begin with. So many people struggle to get it right. It's why there are 100s if not 1000s of books out there about relationships. And there are so many single people on dating apps. Add anxiety and OCD on top of it... oof... I feel that. I am new to the concept that I struggle with ROCD... but I think there is a lot of room for us to be gentle with ourselves in this process. I mean, really be kind to ourselves and take a breath, because so many people struggle to get this right,not just those of us with OCD.
@traingirl10 I am freaked out by dating apps. I tried them but my anxiety couldn’t take it, I just think everyone on them is going to hurt me. I hate strangers so much, they freak me out. And I don’t like the concept of commodifying dating. It just feels icky to me. I wish it didn’t because then I could meet more people but I just can’t
So I identify as a lesbian and I am in a committed relationship with a wonderful girl. But i’m stressing that I have crushes on boys I go to school with. I get anxious around them, which I think I mistake for excitement. I obsess over it in my head which confuses me a lot. Idk I also never think about them sexually or romantically but I think about them often which is scaring me. Any advice?
Okay, just wanna start by saying that I don’t have ROCD. I have perfectionism OCD, and I get intrusive thoughts that no one will like me, I’ll lose all my friends, I’ll be alone for life, etc. if I don’t have things “just right.” I feel like every time I like someone, my OCD just gets worse cause if I don’t perform compulsions, I feel like I have no chance with him. Your handwriting wasn’t smooth? Guess your love life won’t be either. The volume of your phone was too low? Guess your chances with him are too. Failed to draw your graph perfectly symmetrical? Guess what else you’ll fail at. It’s honestly exhausting, and that it isn’t even it. I feel like I tend to fixate on my crushes also. I wanna be 100% sure they’re a good fit before making a move, and that’s really problematic cause there’s just no way to know. And even if I deem that they’re a good guy, I STILL won’t do anything cause I always expect the worst! What if the first impression that I make is so bad that he wants nothing to do with me? I put so much pressure on myself to get him to like me back that I’m terrified to make a move. I’m so focused on the prospect of a second convo that I don’t even want to have the first convo! Like rn, there’s this dude that caught my eye. He’s a senior in high school, while I’m a junior. I’m taking AP bio, and he’s taking AP chem—both are 1.5 periods, so I see him in the cafe and during the passing period (we leave the cafe halfway through the lunch period). I purposely plant myself next to him in the halls during the passing period but haven’t worked up the courage to talk to him. He’s single, I don’t have any classes with him this year, he’ll be at college next year, we follow each other on instagram, and my friends have told me that he’s nice (and keeps to himself), so there’s minimal risk in trying to talk to him. Thing is though, every time I think about introducing myself, I just imagine all the ways that it can go wrong. What if he hates me? What if my first impression is actually good and we become friends, but he doesn’t like me back? What if I tell him I like him over messages, and he screenshots my text and posts it on his instagram story? I don’t know what to do. I know that high school is kinda early and that I still have time to figure things out. I’m just worried that I still won’t have things figured out when I need to. Any advice or personal experience would be welcome and greatly appreciated!
my ocd and anxiety has been so bad a couple of days… so i started liking this guy that i am friends with and we also went to prom together… after prom, i caught feelings for him even more because he’s so respectful and nice… but he is also a boy that acts like one… but overall he’s rlly sweet.. the other day though since we go to the same school we were in the parking lot after school with our friends just talking and socializing… but once he was leaving i went to go give him a hug and hugged me… my other guy friend was with us who’s also friends with him and hugged him too and whispered in his ear and said “yo u and sav would be a good couple” and he nodded saying “yes” (my guy friend told me that) so eventually i told him saying “yeah i like him” blah blah but there is a problem that bothers me so badly… my friend likes him… i didn’t tell her for a while until i think my OCD was just bothering me sm if i didn’t tell her so i told her how i felt and i was just saying like “i don’t want this to ruin our friendship or anything but i have feelings for him…” yada yada… she was like “i understand but if i’m honest with u if u ask him out i will be upset” i’m just like i wasn’t planning to rlly i can’t tell if he rlly likes me anyways but i didn’t say that… i said “i’m just telling u how i feel” and she goes “i mean i would see u guys anyways because u guys are closer” then she says “can i ask u something and a non rude way” and i was like sure…. she goes “since i’m the first person that liked him can i give it a try if it doesn’t work that’s that” and i was like girl idk it’s Gods plan if it doesn’t work it doesn’t if it does it does” and i’m saying that in the most mature and respectful way yk? because i am christian i’ve been praying about it also. so we were good after that but my anxiety and OCD has been so horrible… i’m uncomfortable around them because she flirts with him but i don’t and she did it on ft when i fell asleep on ft and my best friend was on there and had to hear it….she told me that he does it back she just can’t tell if he’s joking or not… but i’m so overwhelmed about it i’m having thoughts like “what if u and him stop being friends” … “what if something bad happens” …. “what if ur not confident in yourself enough where he won’t like you” …. “what if this is a love triangle” i’m just so sick of this and i don’t wanna be so distraught over a stupid boy because i’ve been through sm with my past talking stage thinking it will work but now im like rlly cauious over being in a relationship now…
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