Advice needed

Same as anything else OCD related. You accept the uncertainty. There’s inherent risk associated with sharing our vulnerabilities, especially things about us that we’re ashamed of. The most you can do is make sure that the people you do share that information with are trusted parties. From there the ball is in their court and there’s literally nothing you can do. Sorry to be blunt. I’ve had the same fear. I’ve also told people about not only my OCD thoughts but about real events from my childhood that I believe either caused my OCD or were intimately connected to it. Both were things I thought I would never tell anyone out of fear that they would think I was something I am not and I would lose everything and everyone. At this point if someone thinks that of me, especially someone I’ve been vulnerable with about these things, so be it. That isn’t to say I don’t care or there won’t be intense pain. I’ve just accepted that while I get to decide who I am, I don’t get to decide who someone else thinks I am, and that’s ok.