Does this sound like ocd?

I can’t figure out if I’m really suicidal or just obsessing over the thought of it. Im to scared to even do it. I don't know if this is my OCD or what but for the past week or so it's been really bothering me these thoughts that I am on edge, scared. I haven't eaten in 3 days. I have imagined every single way of doing it, and everything and it makes me SICK. It feels like an urge at this point. I start to feel like maybe I could actually do it, then I feel myself about to go into a panic attack. I already feel derealization where this world doesn't feel real and nobody seems real to me, and my family feels like strangers and I'm just really scared. I feel very scared. I don't physically feel like I'm "here." I feel like my mind is lost. I feel like I just want to be at peace and then I think I’m seriously suicidal and the cycle just keeps repeating itself. Im sick to my stomach and terrified.

Username: CodyCody

Date posted: 1y ago

That sounds like OCD in a nutshell. Clearly the thought of taking your own life scares tf out of you, so that’s why ocd is all over it. It uses our fears against us. I think the truth is that you don’t want to die, you actually want to live and live life to the fullest. You don’t want to die… you just want to live a life better than this.. and I can assure you that if you just ignore those stupid ocd thoughts and white knuckle the thought “nope, not going to happen” you will see that life IS worth living and it DOES get better. My prayers go out to you, you’re a lil badass. A warrior, so though I don’t know you, I’m proud of you. If I could make one request, it’s that you just continue to press on even when everything in your mind says “quit”🫶🏼

Username: Steve2022Steve2022

Date posted: 1y ago

Hi, what you are saying sounds very much like what I have been going through with OCD. You will get through this, and feel normal again. Please try to eat - it will help. I see a counsellor once a week, and was describing a lot of what you are going through to him - especially the derealisation. This is all down to OCD and the way it feels, and makes you worry about losing the things that matter to you. Be kind to yourself, and find someone to talk to about what’s worrying you. You’re not going through this alone.

Username: optimismoptimism

Date posted: 1y ago

Ya I told my dr these thoughts and they put me in the psych ward so don’t do that. Even positing on here I got put in the psych ward cops came to my house

Username: AislinndestAislinndest

Date posted: 1y ago

@optimism How did they know your address

Username: Love 777Love 777

Date posted: 1y ago

More to life … the world is real , ive experienced that too . Just find a really cool hobby you love enjoying . Find your purpose

Username: ShipsShips

Date posted: 1y ago

Yes love, this sounds like obsession and I really know how painful that can be!! I hope you’re getting some good support from a therapist and in the meantime we are here for you. Try to eat and get some sleep it helps a ton!! Xo

Username: holytropical!

Date posted: 5y ago

(PLEASE HELP IM BEGGING!) Hey guys, right now I’m having suicidal OCD and it’s really fucking scaring me because I know I want to live but it’s feeling like I’m going to end my life any second or any day now and that I’m going to die soon, and I’m afraid that I’m going to come up with a plan and go through with it, or say fuck it, I don’t care about recovery, be selfish and just do it. I’m SO scared I don’t know what to do anymore, I don’t know if these are real suicidal thoughts or just my OCD attacking me and I’m genuinely scared for my life. It’s like every second of the day I get a stupid intrusive suicidal thought and it makes me feel like I’m really suicidal and that I don’t want to live anymore, for ANYTHING positive I hear, I twist it and make it negative and tell myself, you’re going to die soon, or you’re gonna kill yourself anyway, you don’t have a future, you don’t care anymore. I even feel a lil bit down and sad when I get these thoughts and I start to feel depersonalization, I almost feel depressed when I get these thoughts all day and it makes me feel like I’m genuinely gonna get depressed and the suicidal thoughts will become REAL I’m so scared. Even when my parents tell me that I’m going to be ok and not do anything, I tell myself in my mind that I’m still going to go through with suicide and just kill myself. I don’t have a set plan and I’m afraid that I may develop a plan and want to go through with it. IM SCARED FOR MY LIFE! IM SO FUCKING SCARED PLEASE HELP PLEASE! Anyone that has gone through this PLEASE HELP! Going into a hospital won’t help because I’m not ACTUALLY suicidal but these thoughts make me FEEL like I am and it’s just SO confusing I don’t know what’s real and what’s not!!! PLEASE HELP ANYONE!!!! I’m so fucking scared ??

Harm OCD

Username: Cozy_dragon

Date posted: 2y ago

Ocd about being alive

At this point I’m pretty sure I’m psychotic. I have intrusive thoughts all day long of me doing a bunch of things that I never and will never do. Images of me poking out my own eyes in all sorts of other horrific things that will have to do with self mutilation. These images have been haunting me for two years with the persisting fear that I will act out on these things one day despite me never wanting to do so. Now on top of these thoughts I am dealing with something else. I keep thinking about the fact that there’s no escape from life other than death and it makes me feel scared and trapped. I can’t stop thinking about this that there’s no escape. It’s scaring me. I want to live I have no desire to die but once I get the intrusive thought about not being able to escape this life is scaring me. I believe I’m going through depersonalization because nothing feels right my surroundings feel unfamiliar I feel unfamiliar. I feel like an alien in a place that seems unknown to me. This all started after I had a panic attack in the shower three weeks ago over my intrusive harm thoughts and in the moment I actually thought that my life was over and that I was about to act out on it but of course I didn’t because it’s just a thought and an obsessive fear. Something I would never do but it felt so real in that momentI almost passed out from the fear. The day after that I felt like nothing was real and I’m still in depersonalization and having panic attacks on the regular but today I got that thought about not being able to escape life and how we’re basically all trapped here. I can’t stop thinking it and it’s making me feel sick. Maybe if I Felt more connected to myself and my surroundings stuff like this wouldn’t bother me but that panic attack destroyed me. Does this sound like OCD or something else?I was completely normal and fine three weeks ago yes I had my intrusive thoughts but they weren’t scaring me or controlling me like they are now.

Harm OCD

Username: Ocdlife123

Date posted: 1y ago

Sorry to keep posting

Can ocd make you think your suicidal? I then try justify why i dont want to kill myself Eg my daughter would be so unhappy with out me! Then my ocd was like “its okay take her with u” Omg so freaked out Now my thoughts keep telling me im planning on doing this or giving me ideas on how to do it to both of us! Please advice im so scared im actually planning this now as the images and ideas are so vivid. Will it convince me? Im afraid i will get suicidal off this pain and actually then do it as already depressed. Do i need more then ocd help

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