I hate ocd!!
- Date posted
- 2y
Help
Has anyone been stuck in one theme for over a year?I currently have been stuck in the same thought of losing my partner for over a year
zzyyxxzzyyxx
- Date posted
- 2y
Yes i did. I didn't know i had OCD back then. I haven't been diagnosed and i had this theme telling me "what if i'm gay?" for over a year. There were other themes but they were minor compared to this. I was sleeping with the thought of being gay and i was waking up with it. Then it evolved to another theme and the new theme stuck witm me for more than 6 months before i've finally been diagnosed with OCD.
taantaan
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- 2y
100%. i had sexual orientation OCD for 2 years straight. every day was a constant battle with myself and i isolated myself from everyone, especially girls. i know how hard it is to be stuck on one theme and for it to not go away. the best help i can give is to sit with the discomfort and allow the thoughts to sit without judgment and to bring yourself back to the present moment. i know it’s easier said than done, but if i can do it, so can you! sending good energy and hugs.
KateWileyKateWiley
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- 2y
The false memories make it hard
taantaan
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- 2y
@KateWiley i understand. i have been through almost every theme and i know how hard it is.
KateWileyKateWiley
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- 2y
@nataroonie Some of them were even proven false. I just want to stop believing them
taantaan
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- 2y
@KateWiley the key is to stop trying to “prove” a thought is right or wrong. if it’s true or false. at the end of the day, a thought is a thought. it is non-existent. only in your mind where OCD likes to pick at every value you have.
KateWileyKateWiley
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- 2y
@nataroonie I know that's the idea, but it's already proven wrong now. Only a few. The others I can't really prove wrong and I'm not even trying to. They just bother me that my mind won't let me just dismiss it. I mean the only time they had relevance in my life is is OCD came. I wanna let it go.
KateWileyKateWiley
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- 2y
Yes. Hocd and false memory. It sucks
Angel20Angel20
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- 2y
Yes for several years now 😞
KateWileyKateWiley
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- 2y
It's terrible, honestly.
Angel20Angel20
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- 2y
It really is. When I’ve had so much reassurance and know it’s not true but I still hang onto the fear. Just shows it’s true that reassurance does not work.
KateWileyKateWiley
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- 2y
Exactly. It's either I don't believe it but it still feels true or I totally believe it and it still feels true.
Angel20Angel20
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- 2y
@KateWiley Yup! A no win situation 🙄
KateWileyKateWiley
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- 2y
@Angel20 Right, if I feel that it's false the feelings still don't go away, and if I feel that it's true the feelings don't go away, so you literally can't win for trying.
Angel20Angel20
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- 2y
@KateWiley I know! It’s like a nightmare you can’t wake up from. I’m trying hard to just float with those feelings and hope that my brain will eventually stop seeing them as a threat. I think our brains have become confused/overwhelmed with all of the thinking and ruminating we’ve done and maybe need time to just reset. Problem is after “floating “ for a while I then fall back and start delving into the thoughts again. It’s like rinse/repeat 😞😞🙄
KateWileyKateWiley
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- 2y
@Angel20 Floating for me always feels like not fighting the thoughts but still believing it. Like everytime I stop fighting its like it feels normal to be and I feel less and less towards my values
Angel20Angel20
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- 2y
@KateWiley Wish we knew what the answer was.
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- 25w
Dealing with a lot. Need support and company.
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ashleynicoleeee
- Date posted
- 22w
Does anyone else experience this in their relationship?
When my boyfriend and I are apart, it honestly feels like I've lost all feelings for him. I start questioning everything, wondering if I even love him at all. Then, when we're finally together again, the memory of those earlier doubts creeps in and completely ruins the moment. I get so caught up in overthinking and analyzing my feelings that I can't even enjoy being with him. It's like I'm constantly second-guessing myself. The worst part is, sometimes later, when we're still together, I do feel the love. But then the anxiety kicks in again! I start worrying that I'm just faking it because I had those doubts earlier in the day. It's this endless cycle of questioning, doubting, and overthinking, and it's exhausting. I'm really struggling to stay present when we're together, and it feels like this constant cycle is preventing me from truly connecting with him. We have been together for three years and we love together, and I just started feeling this way about a month ago; it’s been almost every day since. One day, I randomly thought about breaking up with him. Our relationship is healthy, especially compared to my previous toxic one, where I was anxiously attached for two and a half years. My boyfriend is very supportive of me. I have talked to him about my doubts and everything I’m experiencing, and he continues to support, care for, and help me through it all. I am very grateful for that. One aspect of my current relationship that I would like to improve is our communication, but we are both willing to work on it together. I often find that my overthinking leads me to question whether I really want to try to fix things or if I’d rather just continue as we are. This creates a constant push and pull in our relationship. Has anyone else experienced something similar? Any advice on how to break this cycle and just be present in the moment? I'd love to hear from anyone who's been through something like this.
Anonymous 25#
- Date posted
- 21w
Anyone please?
Okay so I’ve dealt with harm OCD from the beginning. Started off with harming my kids, going to jail and then harming myself. The harm to myself stuck around for a long time. Then it went away and other themes picked up but it keeps coming back. This is like the third time it’s come back and every single time it comes back it feels worse. It feels like this is the time something is going to happen. Has anyone ever dealt with this? With old themes constantly coming back and feeling more real? Please any advice is greatly appreciated. Thanks
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