I hate ocd!!
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- 2y ago
Help
Has anyone been stuck in one theme for over a year?I currently have been stuck in the same thought of losing my partner for over a year
zzyyxxzzyyxx
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- 2y ago
Yes i did. I didn't know i had OCD back then. I haven't been diagnosed and i had this theme telling me "what if i'm gay?" for over a year. There were other themes but they were minor compared to this. I was sleeping with the thought of being gay and i was waking up with it. Then it evolved to another theme and the new theme stuck witm me for more than 6 months before i've finally been diagnosed with OCD.
taantaan
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- 2y ago
100%. i had sexual orientation OCD for 2 years straight. every day was a constant battle with myself and i isolated myself from everyone, especially girls. i know how hard it is to be stuck on one theme and for it to not go away. the best help i can give is to sit with the discomfort and allow the thoughts to sit without judgment and to bring yourself back to the present moment. i know it’s easier said than done, but if i can do it, so can you! sending good energy and hugs.
KateWileyKateWiley
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- 2y ago
The false memories make it hard
taantaan
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- 2y ago
@KateWiley i understand. i have been through almost every theme and i know how hard it is.
KateWileyKateWiley
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- 2y ago
@nataroonie Some of them were even proven false. I just want to stop believing them
taantaan
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- 2y ago
@KateWiley the key is to stop trying to “prove” a thought is right or wrong. if it’s true or false. at the end of the day, a thought is a thought. it is non-existent. only in your mind where OCD likes to pick at every value you have.
KateWileyKateWiley
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@nataroonie I know that's the idea, but it's already proven wrong now. Only a few. The others I can't really prove wrong and I'm not even trying to. They just bother me that my mind won't let me just dismiss it. I mean the only time they had relevance in my life is is OCD came. I wanna let it go.
KateWileyKateWiley
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Yes. Hocd and false memory. It sucks
Angel20Angel20
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Yes for several years now 😞
KateWileyKateWiley
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It's terrible, honestly.
Angel20Angel20
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It really is. When I’ve had so much reassurance and know it’s not true but I still hang onto the fear. Just shows it’s true that reassurance does not work.
KateWileyKateWiley
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Exactly. It's either I don't believe it but it still feels true or I totally believe it and it still feels true.
Angel20Angel20
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@KateWiley Yup! A no win situation 🙄
KateWileyKateWiley
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@Angel20 Right, if I feel that it's false the feelings still don't go away, and if I feel that it's true the feelings don't go away, so you literally can't win for trying.
Angel20Angel20
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@KateWiley I know! It’s like a nightmare you can’t wake up from. I’m trying hard to just float with those feelings and hope that my brain will eventually stop seeing them as a threat. I think our brains have become confused/overwhelmed with all of the thinking and ruminating we’ve done and maybe need time to just reset. Problem is after “floating “ for a while I then fall back and start delving into the thoughts again. It’s like rinse/repeat 😞😞🙄
KateWileyKateWiley
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@Angel20 Floating for me always feels like not fighting the thoughts but still believing it. Like everytime I stop fighting its like it feels normal to be and I feel less and less towards my values
Angel20Angel20
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@KateWiley Wish we knew what the answer was.
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