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- I hate ocd!!
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Help
Has anyone been stuck in one theme for over a year?I currently have been stuck in the same thought of losing my partner for over a year
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- zzyyxxzzyyxx
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Yes i did. I didn't know i had OCD back then. I haven't been diagnosed and i had this theme telling me "what if i'm gay?" for over a year. There were other themes but they were minor compared to this. I was sleeping with the thought of being gay and i was waking up with it. Then it evolved to another theme and the new theme stuck witm me for more than 6 months before i've finally been diagnosed with OCD.
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- taantaan
- Date posted
- 1y ago
100%. i had sexual orientation OCD for 2 years straight. every day was a constant battle with myself and i isolated myself from everyone, especially girls. i know how hard it is to be stuck on one theme and for it to not go away. the best help i can give is to sit with the discomfort and allow the thoughts to sit without judgment and to bring yourself back to the present moment. i know it’s easier said than done, but if i can do it, so can you! sending good energy and hugs.
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- KateWileyKateWiley
- Date posted
- 1y ago
The false memories make it hard
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- taantaan
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@KateWiley i understand. i have been through almost every theme and i know how hard it is.
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- KateWileyKateWiley
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@nataroonie Some of them were even proven false. I just want to stop believing them
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- taantaan
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@KateWiley the key is to stop trying to “prove” a thought is right or wrong. if it’s true or false. at the end of the day, a thought is a thought. it is non-existent. only in your mind where OCD likes to pick at every value you have.
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- KateWileyKateWiley
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@nataroonie I know that's the idea, but it's already proven wrong now. Only a few. The others I can't really prove wrong and I'm not even trying to. They just bother me that my mind won't let me just dismiss it. I mean the only time they had relevance in my life is is OCD came. I wanna let it go.
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- KateWileyKateWiley
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Yes. Hocd and false memory. It sucks
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- Angel20Angel20
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Yes for several years now 😞
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- KateWileyKateWiley
- Date posted
- 1y ago
It's terrible, honestly.
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- Angel20Angel20
- Date posted
- 1y ago
It really is. When I’ve had so much reassurance and know it’s not true but I still hang onto the fear. Just shows it’s true that reassurance does not work.
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- KateWileyKateWiley
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Exactly. It's either I don't believe it but it still feels true or I totally believe it and it still feels true.
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- Angel20Angel20
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@KateWiley Yup! A no win situation 🙄
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- KateWileyKateWiley
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Angel20 Right, if I feel that it's false the feelings still don't go away, and if I feel that it's true the feelings don't go away, so you literally can't win for trying.
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- Angel20Angel20
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@KateWiley I know! It’s like a nightmare you can’t wake up from. I’m trying hard to just float with those feelings and hope that my brain will eventually stop seeing them as a threat. I think our brains have become confused/overwhelmed with all of the thinking and ruminating we’ve done and maybe need time to just reset. Problem is after “floating “ for a while I then fall back and start delving into the thoughts again. It’s like rinse/repeat 😞😞🙄
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- KateWileyKateWiley
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Angel20 Floating for me always feels like not fighting the thoughts but still believing it. Like everytime I stop fighting its like it feels normal to be and I feel less and less towards my values
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- Angel20Angel20
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@KateWiley Wish we knew what the answer was.
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- Delilah111
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I have been dwelling on the same thing since February. It’s awful. It feels suffocating. I don’t even know what to do anymore. I hate myself for it
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- acrazy23
- Date posted
- 48w ago
Still in Therapy
Has anyone else been in therapy for over a year and still struggling?
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- Hannah B.
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 46w ago
thoughts of spouse dying
does anyone ever struggle with intrusive thoughts and even feelings of your spouse or SO dying suddenly? it’s been a theme for me the past few weeks and i’m not sure what’s causing it. he’s perfectly healthy and fine but it’s been so intense that i’ll just sit there and cry and cry and feel such intense grief.
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