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Sounds like me
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Really? Do you get the same type of thoughts?
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Yeah I have intrusive thoughts about sexuality and gender all the time and I've had those adhd and depression thoughts too!
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Do they feel actually real to you? Do you feel it's because your mind tells you you want to be "different"?
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Yes they feel very real it's scary and yes
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I've tried to accept the uncertainty but now my mind is like "oh you accepted this" and it feels like it's want I want and that I'm capable of doing and it feel very real but whenever the possibility is brought up I feel very distressed and I feel all kind of weird sensations like blood rushing to my head and the urge of holding on the closest thing as if I am on a roller coaster
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Exactly, I even tried to use some labels but it just freaked me out even more. I even got a thought about being attracted by myself and I said that's it, this is ridiculous but it's so constant and it feels so real. Before I wouldn't even think about these things but I can't even recall how I felt before hocd hit
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I can’t relate to the wanting to be ‘different’ part, but anytime I read something about any disorder or illness I get a spike in anxiety and OCD loves that! My brain will cling right onto the idea of possibly having adhd, schizophrenia, bpd, literally any mental illness you could think of, I’ve pondered if I could have it. Is it possible that you hate your ocd so much that’s why you want to be different?
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No, because it's not like I want to be different, my thoughts are "you have to be /have x cause then you'd be different". I don't want to,but that's what my thoughts always brings up. Fear of developing illnesses is pretty common in ocd, but because I've recently realized that all my obsessions circle around that thought that I may have found the root of my problem. It's the only thing that soothe my current theme
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Oh, I see. The thing about discovering the root of your problem, is that you have ocd, so your brain isn’t functioning exactly as it should. When you think you’ve found an answer, naturally ocd will find a way to make you question even the root.
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Omg same like if i try to accept the thoughts my mind says that it means it's really true or i want it to be true or it comes true so i just can't accept it ugh ocd sucks
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@notfortalk omg I've had the same thought that what if I'm attracted to myself too! Actually i have that thought at the moment and It's literally freaking me out beacause I'm in a relationship
Related posts
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for the past few years i have been struggling with a certain theme of ocd as well as most of the other themes. but this one i have not figured out a good way to do my own form of erp or non-engaging responses. basically i will be daydreaming or thinking and have a very random thought. i wouldn’t call these thoughts intrusive thoughts because it’s not necessarily fear of the thoughts coming true, its just fear that my thoughts are too unique. my ocd will latch on to random or weird thoughts and may also add in that i was doing something weird while doing the thought. let’s say for example i thought of something random while i was rubbing my feet. then my ocd would be like “why are u having such a unique thought while doing something weird? nobody has ever thought about that specific thought while rubbing their feet before” (just an example). but basically it’s like my ocd bullies me for having thoughts that are too random and things i’ve never heard people talk about before if that makes sense. i am just trying to see if anyone relates even a little and how i can accept that everyone has unique thoughts.
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Guys, I would like help with maladaptive daydreaming and impulsivity. What would both be in OCD? I've always had daydreams. But it was something I did because I liked creating stories. But recently I've noticed that sometimes when I'm stressed, if I think about a situation, it feels like I'm going to imagine it or want to imagine it. When I say don't do it, it feels like it's basically going to happen. I talked here the other day about what if I try to create a compulsion to get out of my subject? Yesterday I was so anxious and I did this counting thing. Then it came to my mind, "put something like, if you don't do this, someone will suffer harm." And I don't want that. And I don't even want to create this compulsion because I would know that it would be worse because I would never risk it. But the thing is, even though I had a clear idea, it seemed like I was going to do it. I just wouldn't let it happen. Is that daydreaming? Is that impulsiveness? This has happened to my OCD theme before. But I had the feeling that I wasn't taking things seriously. That I was being childish. But I don't do it on purpose, it seems like I can't get out of the habit. Thanks for the help!
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I don’t even know where to start because there’s so much going on in my head and it feels like there’s so much evidence for every thought. Like my ocd feels like it doesn’t just have one specific theme it’s honestly every theme and it just switches throughout the day depending on the thoughts I have. This started all about a month ago, this whole ocd flare up. I’ve been diagnosed with ocd for about 3 years now and looking back on my childhood, I feel like I’ve had it for probably my entire life. My grandpa just recently died back in February and I feel like this whole ocd spiral is a result of dealing with grief especially because it didn’t even hit me for the whole month of April for some reason and things felt “normal”. But since this ocd flare up has started I’ve been constantly reviewing and revisiting my past, all my childhood memories and so many of them are terrifying which is weird because I never had a traumatic event hppen to me as a child. I feel like it’s always been “self-inflicted” trauma if that makes sense? My mind is telling me so many things related to so many topics like maybe I liked my family member as a kid and have just hid it to fit in with society? That my anxiety as a kid has caught up with me and I’m turning into a psychopath? That I’ve always been a creep and enjoyed looking at peoples privates or chests, etc but just ignored or allowed the thought this whole time. Also before this whole flare up I remember always feeling on autopilot and not really alive like everything I did I just felt numb about it. Which aids my ocd to tell me that these feelings are real and the thoughts are true and that I’m “waking up” or realizing or something. I haven’t felt such intense anxiety and distress since I was a kid and I didn’t even understand my own thoughts. It’s like I’m either hyper aware or totally unaware of what’s going on around me and it gets me thinking about my existence, personality, what my role in life is and like genuinely what I’m even doing in the moment like what’s the reason behind everything. I’m constantly questioning my intentions because I don’t know if they’re true or not and it’s like my ocd doesn’t even allow me to consider the thought it just jumps to conclusion. Like telling me I’m guilty before proven innocent. It honestly feels like so much at once to even simply call it ocd or anxiety because it feels like a crisis and any moment I could spiral and breakdown completely. Going to school everyday feeling like anytbing could trigger a panic attack at any moment makes me feel like I can’t be left alone with my thoughts. And like overall since I got down this rabbit hole, my first obsession was harm to myself, then it was harm to others specifically my family, then it was being a pervert or pedo, or being attracted or someone or something I shouldn’t be, which then makes me question my existence and who I am along with also being hyper aware of my facial movements like my eyebrows, nose, etc. Like why does ocd have to involve itself in every aspect of my life? It feels like there’s always something wrong that I need to fix.
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