My house got renovated

Here I am having a bad day with ocd . Meanwhile , my mom is giving Ton of crap for ridiculous things like ; having my hair messy, being late to work, not being able to do things on my own like drive a car and/ or transport myself to own places on my own. This is so exhausting she has no idea what I am going through and everyday is a fucking battle for me . The other day she was very upset I hadn’t cleaned up my room but that is all due to my ocd :( I can’t even do that . Not to mention, if I ever do clean my room I have to always do it in such precise way . I can’t have any interruptions and I always have to have everything done the way I feel is right . Aside from the anxiety I get from that, I’m also feeling overwhelmed with my daily ocd thoughts . Somebody help me !

Is there somewhere I can just go to for OCD THERAPY? I am so freaking exhausted . I had just came back from work due to anxiety attack. I was off to a great start through my day until my mom triggered my ocd and anxiety . We had discussed a lot on the way to work, Having to do most with my mental struggles . She pointed out that I hadn’t cleaned my room , at first it was with her judging me for having messy bed head too. I was openly , sincerely explaining to her why can’t mentally do things sometimes . I basically told her straight up to he bit open minded . Something along what she had said triggered my ocd anxiety. I have no idea why I was anxious , maybe because an intrusive thight crossed my mind as she yelled something out . Giving me false feelings leading up to my anxious mood. But ever since, I had been soo out of focus . Ruminating and just feeling like my ocd completely took over my head .

First my credit card fell on the floor at the coffee shop. I managed to pick it up with gloves, clean it with wet wipes and put it back in my wallet (usually I would try to wash it, but managed to just wipe and put away). Then as ai was throwing away the wipes and gloves, my glasses fell out of my bag, onto the floor. They were in the case so I ended up dumping the glasses on the table and discarding the case (but later found my good case that I've been looking for in my car since last year 😁). I later decided to get rid of the 3 bags of garbage sitting on my counter, went outside, and of course it was raining. I continued to the dumpster, and tried to throw it from a distance. One bag hit the dumpster, while the other 2 went in. I didn't want to get in trouble, so I picked up the bag and threw it in (despite that it felt extra contaminated), and removed the gloves I had on. I continued to enter my apartment and touch stuff (even though it was raining and water that was on my contaminated gloves could have gotten on me). I continued then to go clean my bathtub/shower/shower curtain. Right now I'm trying very hard not to start avoiding touching things and still working a bit about contamination in my apartment (I have chain type contamination OCD that is disgust based, not getting sick based). I hate this😭