- Date posted
- 2y
Failed all my finals exam because of my OCD
ever since i started college i have been feeling so depressed, i always fail my exams because my OCD wants me to be perfect in every way but I always end up making some sort of clumsy mistake and I end up repeating that mental compulsion again, it’s like its hard to face that uncertainty, i have been always trying and i ended up failing miserably so because of it i couldn’t start any new task like studying or cleaning because it did not feel ‘right’ so now I have failed my finals and I feel extremely bad to my parents because they spent so much of their money on my education and I just acted like it was nothing. I am 18, i don’t want my 20s to get ruined because of some mental health disorder… i have told my parents i have OCD but they think i’m lying and they think i’m just plain stupid so i can’t get therapy right now because its too expensive. Nothing in my life has been good, studies, relationships with family and friends, intellect, low self esteem, boring personality, i just feel like i was destined to suffer so i really feel like killing myself some day since all i do is just make people suffer by existing I also have ADHD that makes it hard for me to focus on one thing, however, i can tackle that and focus on a particular thing for long but i also suffer from stuttering which makes me so mad because i do want to talk with people but stuttering doesn’t let me fully talk properly and i just don’t talk at all and avoid new people i seriously don’t know what to do, my parents are considering to get me out from college, should i continue or should i leave?