new ocd theme??

terrified of being home alone ——— hi, so i know i’m not frequently on this app because lots of things have calmed down in the course of a few months and just over the past 2 years. but i seriously think i am showing signs and symptoms of checking ocd which has already been advised to my therapist. now , i want to give a little backstory as to what’s even going on. i hope someone has gone through similar things and can give me advice. about 8-10 months ago i was working from home 4 days a week with my other job and i loved it. i still live with my parents i’m 20 and throughout the week they sometimes just have to run errands . i don’t remember having this fear of being alone or being anxious about them leaving until around september last year-ish. i started another job which i’ve been with since october of last year and i work COMPLETELY remote. i would say around this time is where i started to become absolutely terrified of being alone. i believe some of the m^rders and just overall bad stories and events (school sh^^tings here in texas) just freaked me out. so fast foward to now the anxiety has just gotten worse. i get up every 5-10 mins checking to see if there’s someone’s at the door or around the house and if i hear even the slightest noise i nearly have a panic attack and start crying. i have to call my mom and dad constantly while she’s away or else i don’t feel safe. the only time i’m ok is if someone else is here. otherwise i’m a mess and check the door and windows 50-60 times every hour and keep monitoring my surroundings. we’ve lived here almost 17 years and nothing like a break in has happened and i remember back when i was 12 and 13 and would have to be alone (didn’t have a phone) and loved it and actually wanted to be home alone. idk how to beat this. it’s wearing me down and i’m getting super tired of having this much anxiety anytime my parents leave the house.

Isabel Davis

Date posted: 2y ago

I had this theme. The only thing that helped was staying home alone and moving on with my day. It was so hard I’m not going to lie. Terrifying. It still comes back around from time to time.

holley

Date posted: 2y ago

@Isabel Davis what would you call this theme anyway? “scared of burglars ocd” lol. no but for real it’s so scary. how do you keep from doing the compulsions ???

Isabel Davis

Date posted: 2y ago

Yeah you can call it that, it’s still plain ol OCD. While the anxiety is spiked move on with your plans do it scared and find the will power to not do physical compulsions (Jesus give me the strength) it’s hard to not ruminate once your stuck in it but keep moving on with your day. You will feel exhausted at the end of the day but it’s a step closer to recovery.

cows12465

Date posted: 22w ago

please help me

can someone with this theme help me i’m so scared and i can’t stop having panic attacks is this OCD??? So i always have struggled most with sucicidal ocd and harm ocd. i never really had any other themes. but recently ive struggled with SOOCD. My whole life i have never EVER been into girls ever and i could never even think of ever being with a girl in my entire life. i’m having extreme amounts of anxiety and i have compulsions to make sure i look at a girl and don’t feel anything towards them or anything. My mind is literally going “what if your just in denial” or “what if you’ve just been hiding it all these years” When i know i haven’t. i have all of the symptoms of SOOCD and i still know that im not gay,but these thoughts are extremely distressing and have been the worse to deal with. I’m constantly panicking and doing compulsions to get these thoughts to leave and they won’t. i’m scared and these thoughts are making my mind scared. What if i’m going against my morals and i’m lying to myself like and i just went through a tough breakup too so that is shooting these thoughts and anxiety. Please help omg!!!

cows12465

Date posted: 19w ago

please advice please!!!!

I feel like there’s no way out of this. everyday i’m anxious and depressed from these thoughts. i feel like i have to constantly question if it’s OCD or not. the panic attacks are insane and i freak out. and a compulsion i have is looking eveything up on the internet when im stressing to know that it’s just my OCD and im not in danger. but looking things up add on to my thoughts and i start thinking “what if” actual suidcal people think. do others with this theme whenever they do something like if im taking a picture it’ll be like “yeah you look happy people will wonder what happened when your gone” LIKE i DO NOT want to end my life. or even as simple as cleaning my room, “yup keep it clean so when your family goes through your stuff” then i panic and can’t even do anything. those thoughts distress me so bad. i’ll sit there and think how good my life is or when im having a good day my thoughts will be like “NOPEEE what if your just saying that to convince yourself” it never shuts up and genuinely makes me think i have SI or something. i hope this reaches the right people just to know im not alone. Even when i do get better in the back of my mind it’s always “people who want to are the same a day before too” im genuinely scared and im scared one day im going to just snap and do it because its “too much” do i need to go to a mental hospital! i feel insane.

Jack03

Date posted: 14w ago

Is this OCD?

Hi, I’m new here!! I’m praying I don’t get judged for this. But, back in late May of 2022 ( literally right before I graduated high school), I added this one random girl from my school on Snapchat. She posted something about a graduation party , so I swiped up on her story basically saying how I can’t believe we’re almost graduated. She replied and we had a really short and simple conversation. The next day ( i believe) , we started talking a lot , and I just so happened to see her at the highschool when we were grabbing our graduation outfits and doing the rehearsal. When I saw her irl, I kinda got turned off ( I heard she was kinda crazy) , and on top of that , she was a little ugly irl. I remember seeing her Snapchat bio , and she was close friends with my female cousin ( a year younger than me) , who I happened to experiment sexually with when I was 10-11 years old. I remember going to work later that day and having sort of a lightbulb flick thought ( it wasn’t a good thought though) , what if my cousin told her about what happened when we were younger? So I started to kind of panic and immediately distanced myself from that girl. I also experimented sexually with one of my female friends when I was 10-11 , and from that day onwards, I’ve been pretty much living in paranoia and a little bit of guilt about someone finding out and my life being ruined . On top of that, It’s gotten worse to now sometimes I wonder if a girl I added off of quick add ( Snapchat) is underage even if they told me they were 18+ or had 18 and above in their bio, and I get so much guilt and anxiety about that. I even had a quick thought last February on what if I did something inappropriate with my younger cousin when I was 15-16 but I just can’t exactly remember when it happened , and it still eats me alive when I think about it, because I don’t know if it happened or not. I’m sorry for the long vent, I just wish I felt normal again. No matter how much I try to do things that old me used to do, life always feels “ off”. I always kept the top part about when I was younger a secret up until early (ish ) 2024, then I vented to one of my best friends and he told me that that’s a normal thing to do at a young age. Since then, I have told multiple friends and they all say they did similar stuff, but my brain just can’t accept that. Please help me, I quite literally overthink everything nowadays. 2021 was the last full year that I felt normal ( coincidentally, the best year of my life so far) . It’s not just about sexual related things either, sometimes I’ll wonder if I messed up something at work or hit a car while driving/hit someone and drove off. I just wanna live my life how I was supposed to live it after highschool ( carefree and happy) before whatever it is ( I think it’s ocd) hit me unexpectedly. Thanks to anyone who read this , I just needed to pour it out regardless of how negative I felt typing this, I hope someone can relate , because I feel so alone in my head at times.

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