Bebster

Date posted: 2y

My therapist just triggered me

My biggest theme is existential and at times it latches on to “what if evil is controlling us”.. I was telling my therapist how OCD makes you doubt everything then she proceeded to say yes it does and that she had a therapist who once said that OCD is the devil… you can tell she tried to redirect it!! She than followed with “but I know and study shows it’s the brain”. I felt sooooo triggered and now I am crying cause like why would you say that.. now I am back thinking what if OCD is the devils work. 😭

Ocdstrugglesss✝️

Date posted: 2y

This is why talk therapy is not the right therapy for ocd. At the end of the day therapist are also people. My therapist also triggered me, I’m struggling with POCD and she once said ‘’everyone can be a ped** you will never know’’ and I was like what😃. They mean well it’s just we people with ocd can be triggered by anything which makes it so hard to talk about it.

Bebster

Date posted: 2y

@Ocdstrugglesss Lol oh that would have triggered me too.. POCD was one of my first theme!

Ocdstrugglesss✝️

Date posted: 2y

@Bebster Yessss mine too!

Nica

Date posted: 2y

I know it’s hard, but you need to not fight agains this trigger. Sit with it and accept everything you’re feeling.

Bebster

Date posted: 2y

@Nica That’s the thing I was having such a great 3 days, even therapy was going great till she ended it that way..

Holly Hoyt

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Bebster Bebster, I’m sitting with horrible intrusive thoughts about the devil too. It’s not fun. But we can do it

Nica

Date posted: 2y

@Bebster You have to habituate and desensitize to your OCD overall, and this is one of the popular ways to do that in a controlled environment with a professional.

Bebster

Date posted: 2y

@dirholly We got this!!

Bebster

Date posted: 2y

@Nica Thank you Nica! Seating with the uncertainty!

Erin P

Date posted: 2y

@Bebster You can do it and make this a win. But my experience has been that a good ERP therapist will say something highly triggering only when there is time for you to do the work of sitting with it during your session. If it was a talk therapist, I agree with Ocdstrugglesss. And I would consider seeing an ERP therapist for the OCD part of your treatment instead.

Bebster

Date posted: 2y

@Erin P She is a ERP therapist! It was at the end of our session she was candidly replying to a comment I made about a TikTok that I saw.. literally right after to made her statements she had to leave for her next session.. it was like i was left with a cliff hanger 😂😂😂. Like whatttttt!!! ??? Other therapists think this is the devils work!! What???? The thought of “if the professionals think this! Then what are we doing here!”

Erin P

Date posted: 2y

@Bebster Wow. I also had an ERP therapist who would say or do things that triggered me at or near the end of our appointments. I was much happier when I changed to someone else who had more of a speciality with OCD and really understood how it works. If she’s great usually and you are getting better - stick with her but let her know she triggered you. If things have been so so and she doesn’t seem to totally get OCD or says things that indicate that she’s still learning (as mine was), think about if someone else would be better for you.

Holly Hoyt

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

Aw, I’m sorry! I think that was probably your therapist’s way of triggering you on purpose to help you habituate to the anxiety. Turn it into a successful OCD moment; it happened, now refrain from compulsions and ruminating. That will turn this into a huge win. ❤️

Bebster

Date posted: 2y

@dirholly I will try! Thank you 🙏🏽

Holly Hoyt

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Bebster You’re so welcome. You are gonna come out of this stronger. We are in it together

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

TW: Im new to this therapy community stuff and don’t know what/how I’m supposed to say things. I’m not trying to change your mind, just giving my personal perspective and I’m curious on your thoughts on it because it’s not like I have people to talk about this stuff with in my life Wouldn’t OCD being the “devil’s work” technically be kind of sort of a “good” thing? I know it’s not “my work”, at least and if either way we’re suffering, what does it matter if it’s the devil or the brain or the devil in the brain (not from a medical/psychological/treatment perspective, just from a personal perspective). Either way we don’t want it. It’s not like she said “people with OCD ARE the devil”. It basically just implies we are victims of some of the devil’s most dubious trolling. The “alternative” is that we’re the victims of some of the BRAIN’S most dubious trolling. Either way we’re victims of some dubious trolling. OCD is a terrible disorder. It feels like hell (metaphorically) so I personally find it fitting to call it the devil’s work. I wouldn’t take it as me being a vessel of the devil, I would take it as either OCD being a weapon the devil is employing against me to hurt me or the devil targets people who are susceptible to OCD because it knows they’re vulnerable. I’m gonna suffer the exact same way from the spiritual perspective as from the neurological perspective and I’m gonna need the same treatment. I don’t see them as mutually exclusive at all though but if I did that’s how I’d look at it.

Bebster

Date posted: 2y

@Anonymous I see what you are saying! But just the thought alone knowing that it maybe the “devil” doing this or controlling this is scary.. no one wants to be the devils weapon..

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

@Bebster The devil doing this is scary. My own brain doing it is scary too. But I want to make it very clear that I didn’t say/mean I am or people with OCD are the devil’s weapon.

miagrace.

Date posted: 16w

therapist made my ocd worse

just been to therapy and i was explaining my contamination ocd and says i don’t diagnose ocd but this doesn’t seem severe enough? so now im spiralling am i just lying to myself and im just a freak. does she mean my other ocds aren’t real either? i’m just honestly so upset. need advice please im just spiralling so much i take medication for ocd and basically have every symptom and subtype of ocd:(

hereintheUK

Date posted: 15w

Please help 😭

I’m feeling really scared I’ve been left in the lurch by my therapist today as she said she doesn’t feel comfortable doing anymore therapy with me unless I increase my mirtazipine (Remeron) as my OCD has spiked a lot since I started with her and I’m only just at the beginning, but I’m not sure increasing my meds is the right thing to do so much as what she’s doing is causing it …….. basically my OCD theme is it tells me I’ve done horrendous things like I’ve harmed people, it’s in the affirmative tense not the “what if?” anymore, I guess it’s a bit like it tries to give me false memories but isn’t quite the same,and I just feel so unarmed how to deal with it and I’m really scared I’m going to end up in a very very dark place again 😭

Imnew@this

Date posted: 13w

Therapy today.

(21+ ONLY: TRIGGER WARNING) I have therapy today and I’m nervous. I just started going to therapy and I really like my therapist. She talked to me about doing ERP and I’m really nervous about it. I’m scared to tell her the extent of my OCD, and my themes. I’m scared to tell her about my false memory OCD, because I’m scared that what I did was real and I’m just excusing it as false memory, although I have no memory of it. I’m scared that I am truly a monster and I’m using OCD as an excuse—and that she’ll find out and distance herself. I’m just scared that my whole world is gonna fall apart, all around me.

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