Harm OCD and scary news stories

Hi there, I’ve been dealing with OCD (harm) most of my life but was just diagnosed at 30 years old.. I am now a mom of an amazing 2 year old so when my OCD flares up it’s a bit more disturbing to me than it was in my past.. news stories have always triggered me. And most recently there was the story of the nurse mom who strangled her 3 kids and tried to kill herself. I’m obsessing over it, comparing myself to her trying to convince myself I would never do that, looking into the story on the internet, the whole 5 yards… I just can’t stop thinking of this woman and I’m so disturbed and scared, it’s making my OCD so much worse. I just started treatment last week and I can’t wait to learn the tools I need to help. But I wanted your guys opinion as well. And was curious if there’s any other moms on here that struggle and how they cope ♥️

Macyj26

Date posted: 2y

Please reach out to me… this is me right now with the same exact story!!!! Oh my goodness. How crazy it scares me so much like so bad … what helps you??!!!! That story just scared me completely I also have a 7 & 2 year old. 🥺💔

Nina.V

Date posted: 2y

@Macyj26 I’m so sorry this is bothering you as well. It’s so scary as a mom 😔 I’m really just taking it minute by minute and trying not to engage too much with the intrusive thoughts. At the end of the day though I’m not her and neither are you, we control our actions and no one else! Easier said than to believe for us OCD brains though 😑

Macyj26

Date posted: 2y

@Nina.V That’s true! Like I would absolutely never, but ocd just makes you constantly worry about it all day long & it sucks so much, I try so hard to get past all that and think positive ♥️ we got this. We are not our thoughts!! We got this. The what if’s are just so scary. Thanks to ocd! What are you taking medicine wise?

Nina.V

Date posted: 2y

@Macyj26 Wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy, but here we are! 🫠 I’ve been on lexapro 10 mg for 5 years now. Ive definitely noticed a difference, but I’m clearly still struggling. I’m excited to see what therapy does for me. I also have gotten some books and listen to podcasts to help! The OCD stories podcast is amazing and makes you feel so much less alone. I also just ordered harm ocd by Jon hershfield and the workbook to go along with it. I’m goin all in lol I am so ready to get the tools I need to get through this the best way possible now that I was diagnosed!

Day at a time

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

Hi, I’m not a mom but I entirely understand this fear. My suggestion is to look up acceptance and commitment therapy techniques, I find those really helpful especially when you feel like you’re in the middle of an OCD flare. And, I know this is easier said than done but to the best of your ability try and stop the compulsions (internet, mental comparison, all that stuff). Good luck and you can do it!

Nina.V

Date posted: 2y

@Day at a time I just bought “the happiness trap” on acceptance and commitment therapy yesterday via my therapist! Must be a sign I really need to work on it, thank you! ♥️

Ocd&me09

Date posted: 2y

This is me too with the exact same story it is horrible I feel so guilty and ashamed I feel like I don’t even want to be around my babies because what if I do this or what if I want to do that it has completely made me spiral and I feel awful!!!!!!! I have a 1 and 2 year old and I literally compare myself to her over and over and over and even get the images in my head I hate it!😭😭😭

Nina.V

Date posted: 2y

@Ocd&me09 I’m sorry you’re struggling with this too, it really is the freaking worst thing as a mother 😔 we love our babies so much this is OCDs way of getting to us I suppose ☹️

mfernandes1

Date posted: 23w

Postpartum ocd/harm ocd

Hi there! I am 4 months postpartum and struggling with harm ocd, the fear of what if I harm my child. It has manifested to the fear of what if I harm my husband, sister, nieces, parents, etc. Anyone else have this experience and how did you get through it?

Holl1

Date posted: 23w

OCD

So I’ve just found out I’m pregnant and I’m freaking out rn I’ve been getting thoughts like “I’ll be a bad mum” and overthinking everything & my OCD is convincing me that I’ll act on my thoughts because of my hormones and stuff. I’ve also got a fear of being sick & I’m stressing over that too. Anyone else who has harm OCD pregnant or a Mum can give me some advice pls😭

Harm OCD

Medicine2021_

Date posted: 19w

Suicidal OCD and harm OCD

I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…

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