- Username
- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I do and it sucks. Perfection OCD is cruel because no matter how many times we check and re-check to make sure something is perfect, we know deep down that perfection does not exist. I am always very fearful that something of mine is missing or stolen. A lot of my perfection obsessions have to do with the numbers 3, 7, and 9. In my mind, arranging things in these numbers is perfection to me. I count, tap, and scratch all day long in an attempt to achieve my perfection. With the help of literature, this app, medication, and some therapy, I am working to understand and lessen these compulsions. I wish you the best of luck on your journey!
Most days, I am in your frame of mind. Honestly, I feel like I will never make it out of this alive. But then there are moments, small glimmers of hope where I know I can control the rituals, that I will make it out of this alive because I am strong. I don’t have much of a support system, so I get these glimmers and I hang on to them as tightly as I can because they are all I’ve got. I believe in you and I believe in me. Each day I try and each day I get stronger. Please feel free to reach out during good times and bad. Stay strong! <3
Thanks for your words. I seek help here, i read books, i try to find a solution in my mind to avoid these compulsions that are totally useless, i know it, but the "sick" part of my brain doesn't know, obviously the ocd controls everything.And i know that perfection does not exist and is not even a right thing, imperfection is beautiful, life must be lived without too many fears and controls. But it is so difficult,since i wake up until i go to sleep i always have my mind there. The drugs do not help me (I took a huge amount, maybe too many and all wrong).I have to find a trick to cheat the ocd, maybe sooner or later ... I must have a hope
Your words give me hope! I don't pretend to heal completely, I just want to live more serenely. I thought of closing the closets with adhesive tape, in the most difficult moments I even wanted to burn everything (obviously it was just a moment of anger), I also thought to tie my hands to not control (impossible). I also believe in you and I hope with the heart that you can get better. Thanks again?
This is what I struggle with, too
Hi, I’m new here. I am a checker. I need to check the stove and other household appliances before I leave the house. I think I am afraid that I will burn the house down with my dog In it. I know this is not rational and the chances of it happening are incredibly low but I worry. I get stuck In loops while I’m checking things over and over. Sometimes things are better and I can get out of my house relatively easy. Other times it takes me 10-30 minutes to leave. I am seeing a therapist but I am not taking medication. Does anyone deal with similar issues? Has anyone found any strategies that help them cope?
today wasn’t the best. i kept checking if everything was still in my bag while i was out every 5-10 mins. i just couldn’t stop checking for hours. does anyone have any tips on how to stop checking things? xx if you have read this far, have a good day xx :)
i feel like i obsess over the slightest things that don’t even matter but i feel like life won’t function perfectly unless i catch every little detail.
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