I always have to check that everything is perfect and in order. I am afraid that my things will be ruined. When I am out I have to check clothes, shoes, bags, when I get home I do the same thing. Then I check the cabinets, the drawers, I have to check if something is missing and ask for help because it all seems to me messed up. Does anyone do this?

I do and it sucks. Perfection OCD is cruel because no matter how many times we check and re-check to make sure something is perfect, we know deep down that perfection does not exist. I am always very fearful that something of mine is missing or stolen. A lot of my perfection obsessions have to do with the numbers 3, 7, and 9. In my mind, arranging things in these numbers is perfection to me. I count, tap, and scratch all day long in an attempt to achieve my perfection. With the help of literature, this app, medication, and some therapy, I am working to understand and lessen these compulsions. I wish you the best of luck on your journey!

Most days, I am in your frame of mind. Honestly, I feel like I will never make it out of this alive. But then there are moments, small glimmers of hope where I know I can control the rituals, that I will make it out of this alive because I am strong. I don’t have much of a support system, so I get these glimmers and I hang on to them as tightly as I can because they are all I’ve got. I believe in you and I believe in me. Each day I try and each day I get stronger. Please feel free to reach out during good times and bad. Stay strong! <3

Thanks for your words. I seek help here, i read books, i try to find a solution in my mind to avoid these compulsions that are totally useless, i know it, but the "sick" part of my brain doesn't know, obviously the ocd controls everything.And i know that perfection does not exist and is not even a right thing, imperfection is beautiful, life must be lived without too many fears and controls. But it is so difficult,since i wake up until i go to sleep i always have my mind there. The drugs do not help me (I took a huge amount, maybe too many and all wrong).I have to find a trick to cheat the ocd, maybe sooner or later ... I must have a hope

Your words give me hope! I don't pretend to heal completely, I just want to live more serenely. I thought of closing the closets with adhesive tape, in the most difficult moments I even wanted to burn everything (obviously it was just a moment of anger), I also thought to tie my hands to not control (impossible). I also believe in you and I hope with the heart that you can get better. Thanks again?

This is what I struggle with, too