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- 6y
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- 6y
I do and it sucks. Perfection OCD is cruel because no matter how many times we check and re-check to make sure something is perfect, we know deep down that perfection does not exist. I am always very fearful that something of mine is missing or stolen. A lot of my perfection obsessions have to do with the numbers 3, 7, and 9. In my mind, arranging things in these numbers is perfection to me. I count, tap, and scratch all day long in an attempt to achieve my perfection. With the help of literature, this app, medication, and some therapy, I am working to understand and lessen these compulsions. I wish you the best of luck on your journey!
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- 6y
Most days, I am in your frame of mind. Honestly, I feel like I will never make it out of this alive. But then there are moments, small glimmers of hope where I know I can control the rituals, that I will make it out of this alive because I am strong. I don’t have much of a support system, so I get these glimmers and I hang on to them as tightly as I can because they are all I’ve got. I believe in you and I believe in me. Each day I try and each day I get stronger. Please feel free to reach out during good times and bad. Stay strong! <3
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- 6y
Thanks for your words. I seek help here, i read books, i try to find a solution in my mind to avoid these compulsions that are totally useless, i know it, but the "sick" part of my brain doesn't know, obviously the ocd controls everything.And i know that perfection does not exist and is not even a right thing, imperfection is beautiful, life must be lived without too many fears and controls. But it is so difficult,since i wake up until i go to sleep i always have my mind there. The drugs do not help me (I took a huge amount, maybe too many and all wrong).I have to find a trick to cheat the ocd, maybe sooner or later ... I must have a hope
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- 6y
Your words give me hope! I don't pretend to heal completely, I just want to live more serenely. I thought of closing the closets with adhesive tape, in the most difficult moments I even wanted to burn everything (obviously it was just a moment of anger), I also thought to tie my hands to not control (impossible). I also believe in you and I hope with the heart that you can get better. Thanks again?
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- 2y
This is what I struggle with, too
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- 20w
I have pure ocd i think , i always gotta make sure i do certain things like tap things , light switches on n off , shut things few times and re open them till it feels right . Walk in a room go back out and back in out in in till my mind is right Its exhausting
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- 18w
Hi all, I’m brand new to this app. I’ve never had any mental disorders. I’ve never been diagnosed or even suspected that I had some kind of issue going on. But recently my partner gently pointed out to me that I’ve developed some weird tendencies that are progressively getting worse. I’m getting overly anxious about the smallest of things. Every time he leaves for work, I stare at the tracker on my phone until he gets through his 25 minute commute because I’m convinced there will be a wreck. I’m terrified that someone is constantly taking pictures of me through my windows and even feel like people can see through my (solid) blinds at night. Every time I hear someone in the hallway of my apartment complex I stare out the peephole because I’m convinced they’re going to break in, even if it’s a neighbor that I recognize. I check myself for lumps in my body every morning and every night, and my partner too, even though neither of us have any scary medical history. I unplug everything with a cord every night before I go to bed because I’m terrified that something is faulty and my apartment will catch on fire. I am constantly afraid of being sued by people I don’t know even though the worst thing I’ve ever done is gotten a speeding ticket. I have dreams that people are sending me threatening mail and it stops me from opening my actual mail. There are so many more, I could go on forever. Writing it all down, I know it’s stupid. I just don’t know if feeling this way is normal. There are people out there that have actual stressors and here I am working myself up a million times a day over nothing. Do normal people feel like this? I thought it was normal.
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- 17w
So at night I have these intrusive thoughts that I leave the door wide open. This causes me to fear that someone will walk in the house and harm my family. I also have this back massage device. I fear that if I leave it plugged in on accident a fire will happen. So I went down to make sure that it was not plugged in. The thing is that I never used the massager that day. When I went back up I felt like I opened the front door (an entrance to my house) even though I didn't. I had to get my wife to check the door other wise I would not have slept. When I checked it I became more insecure. This has been reoccurence with me.
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