Suicidal OCD vs Suicidal Ideation

2 months ago I fell into existential OCD that left me questioning the meaning of life and if anything was or wasn't real. Became depressed from the thought and eventually through acceptance if never knowing the unknown, I was back to having better days. Well, one day I found myself ruminating about the existential OCD again and had the random thought "Do you think you can keep living like this"? The thought Terrified me. I had been through alot of pain and loss and things but through it all I had never questioned if I could continue living. Since then I've been confused and anxious and tired. I don't know if it's suicidal ideation or suicidal themed OCD. I avoid songs with the word suicide, I stopped watching horror movies and stopped enjoying other things like Ghost Pokémon because they made me think of death and kind of triggered anxiety in me. Sometimes the thoughts feel so real that I'm not sure if it's something I actually want to do or if it's OCD. I've turned to trying to find spirituality and religion to tell myself if I kill myself their may be consequences in an afterlife. Im constantly googling things like "How to make suicidal thoughts go away" and reassuring myself that I wouldn't do it. It still feels real sometimes and it's horrifying. Is there a difference between being genuinely suicidal and suicidal ocd themed?

Username: Danielle:)Danielle:)

Date posted: 1y ago

It is my understanding that if the thought of suicide is terrifying to you and doesn’t bring you a feeling of relief it’s the OCD and not ideation. I’ve struggled with this as well.

Username: Billy 1Billy 1

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

I feel you ! Dealing with OCD can be extremely tiring at times and can sometimes leave you feeling deflated. It can take it out of you, both your body and mind. But it’s worth knowing that the fight is worth it, ERP has saved me !! I was house bound at one point, with my life being taken over by rumination compulsions. I now live a very happy, content life with very little compulsions and when they do arise I have techniques and skills to manage and challenge them 🙂 You’ve got this !!!!

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

I’ve always leaned on the side of if I’m questioning if it’s my thought or not, or if I want it to go away, then it’s OCD. Also the avoidance etc is pretty typical avoidance compulsion. But definitely talk to a trained therapist to help you figure it out

Username: Billy 1Billy 1

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Hey, this sounds really difficult for you at the moment. OCD loves latching on to things you like/ enjoy and your personal values. ERP is the gold standard of therapy to treat OCD and can help you overcome these compulsions and rumination your doing. The difference would be the intense anxiety and fear your currently facing surrounding suicide. The best tip I got from my therapist was to think “maybe I am maybe I’m not”. This takes the power away from your OCD. It’s great to hear that you’ve challenged previous obsessions and compulsions that then followed with better days 😊 sit again with these thoughts, don’t over think them, just let them be. We can’t control our thoughts which OCD loves, it’s the doubting disorder and that’s exactly what it does….. doubt! You’ve got this, you can also book a free consultation session through NOCD, ERP has changed my life!

Username: Skai Skai

Date posted: 1y ago

Thank you! Is it normal to feel defeated sometimes with ocd? Do you feel happy after the erp?

Username: RandomOCDGuyRandomOCDGuy

Date posted: 1y ago

I feel you man. Keep doing the work and learning about OCD and how to get better

Username: woahman

Date posted: 2y ago

After months of no harm ocd, something happened that triggered my anxiety and everything came back, i have unwanted thoughts about suicide. And im googling again about whats the difference between s real suicidal feeling and suicidal ocd... bc these thoughts arent make me just anxious... i start to feel depressed about them... i fight with them too much. Still cant decide and want to know what is this, real or just ocd suicide thoughts...

Username: emilycb

Date posted: 1y ago

Suicidal thoughts vs suicidal OCD?

I have really been struggling the past few weeks. I have suicidal/harm OCD, and I’m very often met with intrusive awful suicidal thoughts that feel so so real. Recently, my therapist said that I might also be dealing with some trauma regarding these thoughts. Tonight, my brain kept telling me that I am past help and eventually, my therapist won’t know how to help me and I’ll end up harming myself. Sometimes I feel so alone and I have so much doubt about whether my suicidal thoughts are ocd or not… any advice?

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Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 28w ago

Suicidal OCD vs. Suicidal Ideation?

Frist off, I am not asking for reassurance nor do I have concrete plans of suicide, so please don't flag. I am just asking because my therapist was asking if I had Suicidal OCD or actual suicidal ideation, but I am unsure how to exactly tell them apart. I mostly get thoughts of "I am worthless and don't deserve to live" and intrusive images of seeing myself commiting suicide, but they theme ego-dystonic. On the other hand sometimes there are feeling of actual worthlessness and being overwhelmed with life.

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