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- Ben m
- Date posted
- 5y ago
- Username
- pureolifepureolife
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yes. It’s so confusing. There is a part of me that just wants to say “fuck it” and live by the thoughts. No matter how unhappy and scared it might make me. At least then maybe they’d shut up. And I could stop working so hard all the time. But the idea also makes me want to throw up. When I feel like I’m “accepting” the thoughts almost completely, I’m in a full or partial state of panic. And I just can’t imagine that that’s how someone is supposed to feel when coming out. I imagine that internally you feel at peace with the idea (or at least know it’s true for sure) and then decide it’s time to incorporate it into your external life because it’s what you really want. Internally, I don’t know what the fuck is going on. I’m just scared every which way. Scared of being in denial or inauthentic, scared of becoming someone I don’t really know or ever imagined being. Scared of losing myself either way.
- Username
- OcdsuxsOcdsuxs
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I did lol
- Username
- OcdsuxsOcdsuxs
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I confused the heck out of my self and friends
- Username
- OcdsuxsOcdsuxs
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I had people congratulating me for coming out but I wanted to take it back as soon as I did it LMAOOO I think about it and it actually makes me uncomfortable
- Username
- OcdsuxsOcdsuxs
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’m not into women at all but I find them attractive like “she’s pretty” but I got so overwhelmed with anxiety I came out as bi and literally felt awful and confused afterwards cause I never want to sleep with a girl or hold hands or any of that I just made myself believe this. It’s just a thought
- Username
- Ben mBen m
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’m struggling with the trans ocd
- Username
- CheeksCheeks
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Confession is an OCD compulsion. Dont feed into OCD by giving in to compulsions.
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- Ben mBen m
- Date posted
- 5y ago
My anxiety isn’t even as bad anymore but that alone scares me
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- pureolifepureolife
- Date posted
- 5y ago
My anxiety is no where near as bad as it was a year ago. The fact that I only almost throw up at the prospect of accepting them completely is a huge change. And that scares me too. It could mean getting over OCD. Or it could mean slowly accepting them as true. But I guess with OCD, you gotta accept that risk to get better. I try to remind myself that either way, all I really want is to be true to myself. Either outcome should achieve that, right?
- Username
- Ben mBen m
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’ve been finding the temptation to
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- ryryryry
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’m with y’all. My anxiety when this all started was extreme. This time around it’s not as extreme and it scares me that it’s not.
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- SickMannnnSickMannnn
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Just do not give in if you dont.The start will fights but at least you live for yourself
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- Ocdsuxs
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I went from... Omg what if I’m gay To Omg what if I’m bi To omg I am gay and I should come out And it’s like I’m not triggered anymore I just feel the need to go back and fourth in my head about my sexuality. And just come out but I know it’s not true. I don’t want it I don’t need it. I literally don’t want to be gay.
- Username
- Ocdsuxs
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’ve lost my interest in men. I’ve been telling myself what if I’m gay for over a year now and I feel like I’m gay now. I feel like my biggest worry is coming out now. In my religion and culture it’s wrong and I don’t want it. It all started as a movie scene last year. I’ve accepted it I’ve given up. I feel like I’ve been in denial the past a year. I’m on tinder looking at girls now cause I don’t know anymore. Now I can’t seem to find someone I’m interested in I can’t see myself kissing a girl or sleeping with one. I just truly believe I’m gay and I have to call my mom and come out. I want to cry. I’m nervous idk what’s real. Am I gay? Or is this ocd? Am I bi? Should I come out? Was my life a lie? Am I in denial cause it’s unacceptable? Will my parents love me? If I’m worried about them then it’s cause I’m in denial right? Ugh I want to die.
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- Idk
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I feel like I’m starting to deny my sexuality. Before this I never really thought about girls that way. Now I am and it terrifies me. It feels like I just don’t wanna accept that I’m lesbian. I’m so damn lost. It feels like I know I’m lesbian. But I just can’t be. Anyone feel this way? Probably reassurance but if any of you think I am or it seems like I am please tell me.
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