I feel like I’m basically now convinced. Has anyone else felt like they have to give in and “come out” as gay or trans? I hate this so much.

Yes. It’s so confusing. There is a part of me that just wants to say “fuck it” and live by the thoughts. No matter how unhappy and scared it might make me. At least then maybe they’d shut up. And I could stop working so hard all the time. But the idea also makes me want to throw up. When I feel like I’m “accepting” the thoughts almost completely, I’m in a full or partial state of panic. And I just can’t imagine that that’s how someone is supposed to feel when coming out. I imagine that internally you feel at peace with the idea (or at least know it’s true for sure) and then decide it’s time to incorporate it into your external life because it’s what you really want. Internally, I don’t know what the fuck is going on. I’m just scared every which way. Scared of being in denial or inauthentic, scared of becoming someone I don’t really know or ever imagined being. Scared of losing myself either way.

I did lol

I confused the heck out of my self and friends

I had people congratulating me for coming out but I wanted to take it back as soon as I did it LMAOOO I think about it and it actually makes me uncomfortable

I’m not into women at all but I find them attractive like “she’s pretty” but I got so overwhelmed with anxiety I came out as bi and literally felt awful and confused afterwards cause I never want to sleep with a girl or hold hands or any of that I just made myself believe this. It’s just a thought

I’m struggling with the trans ocd

Confession is an OCD compulsion. Dont feed into OCD by giving in to compulsions.

My anxiety isn’t even as bad anymore but that alone scares me

My anxiety is no where near as bad as it was a year ago. The fact that I only almost throw up at the prospect of accepting them completely is a huge change. And that scares me too. It could mean getting over OCD. Or it could mean slowly accepting them as true. But I guess with OCD, you gotta accept that risk to get better. I try to remind myself that either way, all I really want is to be true to myself. Either outcome should achieve that, right?

I’ve been finding the temptation to

I’m with y’all. My anxiety when this all started was extreme. This time around it’s not as extreme and it scares me that it’s not.

Just do not give in if you dont.The start will fights but at least you live for yourself