- Username
- 0Aqi0
- Date posted
- 5y ago
When I was 10, I had an EXTREME fear that I was going to shoplift. I absolutely did not want to steal anything but I was worried that if I walked past a rack of items in the store that I would accidentally shoplift. It was so bad. A few months later, I started thinking that I might’ve had a vague memory about finding something in my bag that I thought could be something I stole and it totally freaked me out. Eventually I was able to reason out the false memory and realize that I wasn’t going to steal anything.
1. At first I thought I had real event OCD cause I remember some parts, but after listening to Ali Greymond I discovered it is actually false memory cause it can be tied to a certain situation and you can remember something and obsess over not remember all. 2. To me it happened gradually after doing confessions and compulsions about my "sins" and past mistakes to my boyfriend, I came across this memory from 10 years ago and wasn't sure why I did what I did, what it meant, was I hiding something, did it really happened that way I remember etc. etc....that is how my false memory developed. 3. I like Ali Greymonds approach. Her videos helped me so much, she literally saved my life. I suggest you listen to ALL of her videos on false memories. 4. I don't have any insight. I still remember what I remember, I don't want to solve it. I decided to believe myself (which is extremely hard with OCD but not impossible) that there is a reason why it didn't bother me for so many years. I decided to label it as OCD, and that is what helped me.
And I do have real event OCD too, but with real event you remember everything, there's no blank spaces in your memory.
What if the ocd just take blank spaces and full with others stuff?
I mean, from what I understand at least, false memories don’t present themselves as “false,” they feel real initially, but you can learn to recognize what’s false and what’s true, unless I’m wrong?
I have a memory similar to that! Although I don’t know if it’s true or false :\
No, you will usually not know.Because the environment or youself tampered the memory to make yourself more convinient.
So most likely if you know it is a false memory then you do not have a false memory
How?
Living with the fear of going crazy. Hey everyone, through my journey living with OCD I’ve had many different themes. The most enduring one was Harm OCD, but I would also have intermittent POCD thoughts. It wasn’t until the last few years that I developed a new theme: the fear of developing psychosis/schizophrenia. While this theme seems to be far more common, it is my experience it isn’t really noted in most of the conventional information you might find online. In all the books, websites, videos, and blogs I’ve digested, I’ve only seen it mentioned a few times. But a perusal online shows that in many OCD communities, it’s a common fear. That’s why, for those of you who are suffering or may suffer with this theme, that I find it important to share the experience openly. During the day-to-day, depending on the intensity of the obsessions, it can have a profoundly limited effect on your life. You want to avoid any scenario that might trigger the thoughts, but the avoidance leads to ever-increasing isolation. Personally, I’ve found actively participating in treatment and ERP has helped me maintain most of my regular responsibilities and habits. In the past, an OCD spike could really derail my life. And while I’m certainly dealing with more intrusive thoughts than “usual” at the moment, knowing I have the support of the community and my therapist helps me stay on course. It is without question that without treatment, my suffering would be greater than it is now. I have tools now to manage it that I never had before. It’s important to remember that no matter the theme, someone else is experiencing it. And within that theme, the particular thoughts aren’t really the issue. It’s our response and relationship to them. OCD is incredibly creative, and many with OCD tend to be reflective and conscientious people! You may have all manner of odd, strange, or disturbing thoughts. And that’s ok! Although it seems like a tired cliche, you’re never truly alone. If you have this theme, and are comfortable sharing, it can help others feel that they can be open and without judgement. I hope this has helped someone who felt isolated. Thank you!
i’m curious to see how OCD kicked in for other people. in retrospect, it’s easy for me to see times before i was diagnosed where i was obviously struggling with a theme. i’ve always been an anxious overthinker and i’d tell my friends offhandedly that my brain fixates on things for weeks at a time before it passes, but until the Big One, i was never so crippled with anxiety that it made me dysfunctional and completely disconnected. that was until my last theme hit, started by a friend who was making an innocent comment about my dating habits. it was like a bomb was set off in my brain. the anxiety was so acute i felt like vomiting. i was an insomniac for about three months. it was awful. when i stumbled across an article on OCD, i sobbed for finally having an explanation. and when i was diagnosed i told my therapist i think i lied (LMAO). so what about you guys? what was the theme that finally made you realize you had OCD and how old were you? looking back, did you recognize early signs or was it a sudden onset?
I’m new to NOCD and was recently diagnosed with having traits of OCD. I’ve yet to start therapy, but I’d like to start to engage with the community and especially with anyone who can relate to what I’m currently experiencing. I’m a spiritually based person and my OCD has latched onto my spirituality, religion and may be making me question my overall reality, etc. This also makes me question whether or not I am experiencing Magical Thinking OCD as well. Can anyone who deals with spirituality, religion and false memory OCD help guide my thoughts and I? I know that we’re not licensed professionals, but I am seeking fellow users who can relate to what I’m currently going through and experiencing because I currently feel alone and like no one else immediately around me can relate. Thanks in advance!
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond