Username: PRIV8

Date posted: 1y ago

I just cant deal with this... its too much

I cant find anything about this on the internet, i found religious ocd and all that...but not what i have. I do suffer with some kind of obsession, i about how should a christian behave. Whatever i do i always have a guilt that this isnt what a christian should do... like i make jokes, i flirt with girls or just have fun, think about something and living my life. I just cant handle it anymore. I want to enjoy my life as a christian but i have guilt for wanting to behave how i want too... i even thought about losing my faith and move on without God... offcourse i dont want it but i cant handle this anymore, i do t enjoy my life constantly worrying about how should i behave or feeling guilt cause i maybe did a sin like watching girls, loving myself, care about how i look, want to be liked by girls and more... I think this is not ocd, it feels like i have desires of doing sinful acts and i dont want to not think about it or idk...

Religion & Spirituality OCD

Username: Kenzz Kenzz

Date posted: 1y ago

I know it’s hard but don’t stop trusting God. He put us on this earth for a reason and even though you might be asking the question “why me”, it’s not God it’s our sinful nature. As hard as it is, keep pushing through and keep praying! God never leaves us and will always love us! He know our heart, and He knew us before we were born. Ocd is so hard and as a Christian myself I find myself doubting if I can be forgiven but I have to recognize it as ocd and my sinful nature. Keep fighting the fight, and remember you can do anything and overcome anything with God on your side!!

Username: PRIV8PRIV8

Date posted: 1y ago

I know but what i dont know is what is sinful act and what is not...

Username: Hannah LantermanHannah Lante...

Date posted: 1y ago

@PRIV8 The bible will tell you this and God can easily confirm things to you if you still have questions after reading it! I left you a paragraph lol

Username: r.m.1r.m.1

Date posted: 1y ago

Research! Research! Research scrupulosity, research Mark Dejesus…. Don’t research theology right now as it can easily turn into a compulsion. In Christianity, what do we do when we become anxious and obsessive?- we look at Jesus, just him- not ourselves, not measuring up, just look to Jesus and keep living. I’ve wanted to give up before too and felt tremendous spiritual pain, but the moments of joy (even small) are so worth any pain…. It’s stinks at times, but it does get better. He is all we need and trust him to give you what you need in these moments- WITHOUT you trying to figure it out yourself. I’m praying for you

Username: PRIV8PRIV8

Date posted: 1y ago

I will just copy here what i wrote to the other person, hope its not a problem. I dont know if you are still here, but because its thanksgiving, i thought about finding the person who lead me to Mark Dejesus, and now i see it was actually 2 person, one was you. Im so thankful for you, since i started watching Mark's videos i changed soo much. NOTHING couldve made me understand my problems like this, before i was into spirituality cause i was desperate for help, i watched eckhart tolle, i thought i found the answers but i always got back way worse and i couldnt find myself and the answer to my suffering. I always thought God doesnt help us in mental health cause all you hear from people is to just believe, but theres no teachings about what we should do, how to handle mental illnesses. But i was wrong thank God... i realized tha lies of spirituality and how its a trap and, then I started watching Mark and at first it didnt hit, i needed some time to understand his videos, but then i understood it and it helped ALOT. just 3 months of watching him did more than many years of therapy and spiritual stuff... now i think its been 6 months and changed alot, and im so happy that God showed me that person, and im thankful for you that you lead me to him :) God bless you and i hope youre feeling good too! Happy Thanksgiving if youre from usa, if not, well im not either but its a good opportunity to be thankful for the good things we got this year!

Username: Faith over fearFaith over fear

Date posted: 1y ago

Look up scrupulous it will help you make sense of what your feeling.

Username: Hannah LantermanHannah Lante...

Date posted: 1y ago

Hey I just wanna let you know God isn’t doing this to you He WANTS to help you out of this but you gotta take those steps. Some advice though- as long as you are following what the bible says there’s nothing to worry about. Worry and fear aren’t from God. Guilt isn’t from God other so He’s not the one making you feel that way! God wants you to enjoy your life as a christian too guilt goes against Him and His desires for you!! You have to remember God just wants your heart, so go to Him with a fully open heart and mind and He can give you peace and you gotta trust these feelings aren’t coming from Him! Even when we sin He still doesn’t want us to feel guilt but rather just repent and move forward. If you genuinely don’t know if you’re sinning or not just read what the bible has to say about it! If you still have questions ask God to provide you clarity and even talk to other christians bc God can speak through others as well! If you recognize these feelings aren’t from God try to remind yourself that only the bible really detwrmines if you’re sinning and if/when you do sin bc we ALL do remember God is telling you He forgives you and loves you and just wants you to leave it ALL in His hands!! Hope this helps

Username: PRIV8PRIV8

Date posted: 1y ago

Thank you, there are some things that you cant read on the bible, like not so long ago i learned that drinking itself isnt a sin, being an alcoholic is a sin, but people make it a sin cause some cant have control over themself. There are alot of things that "religions" make it a sin, like dancing, partying,watching girls, how to dress, even rock music is a sin at some religions, and you cant read about these things specifically, so idk how should i decide if these are sins or not...

Username: PRIV8PRIV8

Date posted: 1y ago

Like now, i searched about "is rock music sinful" some people said the genre isnt sinful, the only way it can be sinful if the lyrics are glorifying bad things. And there was someone else who said that "satan is in the music controlling you, gives you anger, sadness and high sex drive, and this adrenalin is in rock music" And now my ocd telling my im gloryfing satan,im having thoughts like what if demons will get me and take me, all nonsense but in the moment it scares the shit out of you. And how should i respond to that? Saying "oh maybe i am glorifying satan" isnt going to help cause God is important to me so this just makes me feel worse...

Username: PRIV8PRIV8

Date posted: 1y ago

I just really cant take anymore...does more harm then good...

Username: dimples4christ1dimples4christ1

Date posted: 1y ago

Please google Mark DeJesus. Watch his videos !

Username: PRIV8PRIV8

Date posted: 1y ago

I did, thank you he has really good videos. Helped me alot. However as i commented to another person before, there is one problem, there are things that some religions take as sin but you cant find that on the bible so you have to search about it. And there are alot of questions that you dont know the answer and some people will give you the wrong answers(what he learned too) so i know researching and googling is a compulsion but where we should get an answer too these questions?

Username: PRIV8PRIV8

Date posted: 1y ago

I dont know if you are still here, but because its thanksgiving, i thought about finding the person who lead me to Mark Dejesus, and now i see it was actually 2 person, one was you. Im so thankful for you, since i started watching Mark's videos i changed soo much. NOTHING couldve made me understand my problems like this, before i was into spirituality cause i was desperate for help, i watched eckhart tolle, i thought i found the answers but i always got back way worse and i couldnt find myself and the answer to my suffering. I always thought God doesnt help us in mental health cause all you hear from people is to just believe, but theres no teachings about what we should do, how to handle mental illnesses. But i was wrong thank God... i realized tha lies of spirituality and how its a trap and, then I started watching Mark and at first it didnt hit, i needed some time to understand his videos, but then i understood it and it helped ALOT. just 3 months of watching him did more than many years of therapy and spiritual stuff... now i think its been 6 months and changed alot, and im so happy that God showed me that person, and im thankful for you that you lead me to him :) God bless you and i hope youre feeling good too! Happy Thanksgiving if youre from usa, if not, well im not either but its a good opportunity to be thankful for the good things we got this year!

Username: dimples4christ1dimples4christ1

Date posted: 1y ago

@PRIV8 Thank you for your comment. I’m struggling so bad and your comment brings me some encouragement. I’m so glad Mark has helped you!

Username: PRIV8PRIV8

Date posted: 1y ago

@dimples4christ1 I also had a stressful week, ive been emotional and it was really sad, right now i have reactions i had before, sudden panic, but i do notice that i can react to these things differently than i used to. I try to not put so much pressure on myself, this weekend im going out with my family and i want to relax, but i will not beat myself over my emotions. Mark really helped me with this, and to view the situation im in in a sober way. Cause before i thought accepting means i need to let myself feel bad and let the day be ruined by negative thoughts, but its not like that at all. Hope you will feel better!❤️

Username: dimples4christ1dimples4christ1

Date posted: 1y ago

@PRIV8 My son is ten and has ocd. He is having a flair and unfortunately we feed each other’s OCD. He seems to be struggling with some trans/homo ocd or dysphoria. I do not know for sure if it’s ocd or not and it’s KILLING me as it would any conservative Christian mom. I’m a terrible mother right now.

Username: PRIV8PRIV8

Date posted: 1y ago

@dimples4christ1 Im not sure what should help your son, i can only say if hes afraid then its ocd. But for you i can say that i know what Mark would say to you. You strugling right now and thats not enough but you even are hard to yourself with saying youre a terrible mother. Its okay, youre going through something, be kinder to yourself first then you can be kind to others too

Username: PRIV8PRIV8

Date posted: 1y ago

@PRIV8 Be there for yourself and nurture yourself, and if you can, at the same time nurture your son too, its okay, yall going through something, that doesnt define yall

Username: dimples4christ1dimples4christ1

Date posted: 1y ago

@PRIV8 Thank you. I need this and prayers. I am so broken. I thought I could make my child’s life better than mine. I’ve had him in church all his life. I went back to work to pay for him to attend a private Christian school. I am angry at God that this is happening.

Username: PRIV8PRIV8

Date posted: 1y ago

@dimples4christ1 Its not easy sometimes. I said i will be kind with myself and now im struggling so much, i dont feel good and im soo scared of my emotions idk why...but for you i would say work on your relationship with God. Its okay you feel that way now but i say to you work on it

Username: j.dj.d

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

I have the same thoughts as you.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Holy heck I can finally relate to someone on this thank you for your post.

Username: Puppy

Date posted: 2y ago

Confusion

Sometimes I have thoughts that I would normally assume to be ocd, not sound like ocd. I start to think/feel that it's God telling me to do these things?? I then end up feeling guilty for not immediately implementing these things into my life. I hate that so much of what used to feel like ocd seems unclear. I don't feel like a good person. I know a lot of sermons aren't made with ocd in mind, but I feel like I'm not listening to God if I don't listen to thoughts I would've thought were ocd before

Username: PRIV8

Date posted: 1y ago

How you accept that you are sinful?

If i try to accept i feel so much guilt and sad and even depressed like im a bad person and i have to fix this, but i realize to that then i become perfectionist, and its really exhausting to always be perfect for God, and you become obsessive with that, its not healthy. But i cant accept im like this and this is okay cause God still loves me... i still feel bad about being sinful... so then i say to myself that maybe im not sinful cause i really avoid many bad things, so i might be good but then i get guilt again cause "who i am to say that im not sinful, im a human too, i cant say that"... This might come from me not knowing what is really a sin, there are alot of things people call sins, but i want to understand why is it a sin. This really makes me not enjoy my life cause i call sin many things i enjoy doing and now i feel guilty about doing them...

Religion & Spirituality OCD

Username: Leila4740202...

Date posted: 1y ago

Can someone send reassurance?

One thing that I’ve noticed about my OCD is that it makes me feel very regretful and embarrassed at the end of every day. I reflect on every interaction and every conversation and any thought that I’ve had throughout the day. As a result, I feel more and more ashamed of the way that I act, even though it is probably normal for some of my age to act and see the things that I say. Earlier today I flirted with a guy and then as soon as it ended I had so much religious and moral guilt about it. Does anyone have any advice on how to not feel so ashamed after doing the typical activities that people in their 20s do? I feel like these thoughts are making me want to isolate from everyone else so that I’m not put in the position to do and say these things. I feel comfortable with myself when I don’t talk to anybody but I’m noticing that that can’t be normal . I don’t want to lose friendships and potential relationships out of fear that I’m going to say something wrong. I don’t know what to do.

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