Scared
I think I commited the worst sin. I had no bad intentions but then I realized I might have thought something bad. I'm so scared and I don't know if I'm forgiven. I'm trying not to replay what happened in my head but it's so hard and I'm so scared.
I had the EXACT feelings last year every day all day. There was like a few minutes that I felt forgiven. I though I had committed the one unforgivable sin. It was worst when I was angry or mad and then had a bad thought about God or a Member of the Holy Godhead. But what Jesus is showing me is that we MUST rest on God’s Truth not on the devils arrows. The devils best tools are lies and discouragement. We must not heed his words even when we feel sooooo Unforgiven. Jesus said that WHOEVER will believe in Jesus will be saved. Doesn’t that include the worst of sinners too? Paul said that he was the chief of sinners, so we can only be the 2nd worst, right? And he was saved and used by God immensely. Also Peter denied Jesus three times and Jesus did not cast Him away. But now by God’s Grace I am learning that I must rest on God’s Truth not my thoughts and feelings. If you regret it, you obviously are not meaning and wanting to do this—even if ocd says you do want to do it. You really have to trust Jesus even when it’s hard and you don’t have the seeing and feeling. Faith is the substance of things hopes for, the evidence of things not seen —the Bible says. The scripture that helped me lots is John 6:37: All that the Father gives to Me will come to Me, and the one who comes to Me I will by no means cast out.” We have to realize that satan wants us to be discouraged and brought low , while Jesus wants our joy to be made full. I’m not perfect now, but you and I have to just let go and Let God take control. I do hope you can trust Jesus through this. You’ll be ok. God bless you Sister!
I struggle with immense OCD and have over matters about Jesus. But let’s be real for a minute: Satan LOVESSSSS that (+ before you have any and all intrusive thoughts there- NO. the enemy CANNOT- and I mean CANNOT touch you when Jesus is in you.) I really am convinced that my OCD about God and my salvation when I’m not constantlyyyy being reminded of His unfailing love. He loves me DEEPLY, He loves YOU deeply. And it’s the second my mind is not renewed by this truth that my OCD skyrockets. Not to be obsessive- but pray about this often. The Lord has showed me how much o truly need Him through all of this. The kind of love He gives is immeasurable, He has a very specific grace for you and your situation because He loves you. As a matter of fact, it says in the Bible, that Jesus laughs when we laugh, and He cries when we cry. 
@h:) because GOD- the creator of the UNIVERSE loves you THAT much. He feels for you friend, He is hurting over your hurting. The only reason God ever made us was to have a relationship with Him. He could and does have everything and He still wanted you. Not to toy with your emotions and treat you like a puppet. Not to bully you into thinking you are forgiven and you aren’t: He created you to take care of you. He created you to protect you, to give you blessings, to let you see and feel an endless love. To care for you, to ponder at your beauty and how head over heels in life He is for you. He created you to tell of His name because y’all just love each other that much. Because we tell of the people we love. His love is simple, He is simple, and He cares for you more than anyone ever will in your whole life. He wants you and I promise there is freedom in all this- we do NOT have to live under oath to our OCD (even if it feels like it) we live under oath to Jesus. This is a hard thing to fight- and He understands because He literally came to earth to walk in our shoes to better understand us. I’m praying on your behalf right now. May the Lord bless you + keep you💞💞💞
The book I believe in Love is wonderful for helping my religious OCD And realizing God is walking beside me in this fight not against me. Also this website. https://scrupulosity.com/blog/
Welp, I was daydreaming had a blasphemous intrusive thought in my head and I ruminated and replayed the thought over and over again and I'm fearing that I may go to hell.
What do you do when you questioned something about God or thought something bad about Him and now fear that He will never forgive you, especially since you still have doubts and questions about Him?
I am new to this. I recently was reading the Bible and then had a horrible blasphemous thought and it was vile and intrusive. It hasn’t gone away and now I’m questioning whether I will go to heaven or not if God will forgive me. I cried and cried and I kept repeating numbers in my head or stating different colors in my head. I asked God to help me but the thoughts won’t go away like it’s cutting me and I keep seeing the scar. I didn’t do good at work because I keep getting sweaty from guilt I tired to be more productive than usual so I wouldn’t think but then would stutter over my words bc the thoughts wouldn’t let me breathe. Then at home I tried to drown myself in alcohol only to end in a fight with my husband. And none of this is in chronological order because I feel dumb just writing all this. The most important thing is I know I Love God , Jesus and the Holy Spirt. I just want to feel better and not feel like a complete monster 😔😢
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