Might have meta ocd/obsessions?

As the title says I think I might have a new theme coming and it’s meta :( lately I’ve been ruminating on the thought I’ll never get over ocd and even though I’ve made some progress it tells me it doesn’t matter as it’ll always be the same or that I’m in denial with things,or if I don’t constantly keep doing perfectly good with my exposures I’ll always keep going backwards, etc etc. and it doesn’t help it partners with the other themes I have but idk all day I’ve been overwhelmed with these thoughts and last night I had a meltdown over it. Idk what to really do cause I can’t stop ruminating on it and tomorrow is my last day of school and I wanna make it good but I’m afraid my thoughts won’t stop even then or I’ll never actually improve.

Username: confusedconfused

Date posted: 1y ago

I have these same fears. That I am broken permanently. I think its a tough thing with OCD because in some sense you are having to accept that you might not recover. That you might always have some ocd. Thats part of recovery but it feels demoralizing and defeating. I think reframing it as, everyone is living with imperfection is a good way to think of it. But I havent accepted it either. I’m sorry I know how horrible it feels

Username: October12October12

Date posted: 1y ago

I get this too. That extreme always/never thing. The truth is you WILL reach the other side and it could be sooner than you think! Part of this I’m learning is acceptance. Acceptance of where we are within any 24 hours. One day at a time. One hour at a time.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

This is the first time I hear about meta ocd what is it

Username: Ocd9239Ocd9239

Date posted: 1y ago

I think I'm getting the same symptoms too, my brain keeps telling me that "you'll never get over ur past decisions and ur never going to recover because you don't deserve to..." they're scaring me so much and I still feel so much stress. And samd, I am almost out of school and I really don't want my thoughts to ruin it. I especially get anxious that my summer won't go great or it'll get ruined if something happened that would trigger me sm

Username: Ocd surferOcd surfer

Date posted: 1y ago

I have the fears too. But I have to face it right. What else can we do?

Username: Messa

Date posted: 3y ago

Does anyone relate? I have really bad schizo OCD.. and before I had a lot of other themes but because the schizo theme is current and taking over the other ones have kind of been pushed to the side and all I can focus on is becoming crazy.. Well these past couple of days have been bad and as soon as I wake up I have this like really uncomfortable feeling in my chest.. no matter how much sleep I get or if I wasn’t stressed before going to bed. Then another thing I guess since I don’t have thoughts about really anything else for the day (ex. What are my tasks today, I’m excited for this today, oh I’m hungry.. etc) my thoughts are kind of all over the place about my schizo ocd and then it’s to the point I have random conversations that don’t even make sense in my head or I hear family members voices in my head saying something but it’s like I know it’s all my mind doing it but it still confuses me why random thoughts I didn’t think pop up or why I’m hearing it in their voice but this only happens when I first wake up or if I’m falling asleep. Then once it happens my brain is like.. does this mean I’m going crazy and starting to hear voices.. idk it’s literally driving me crazy..

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Username: jojobahnojo

Date posted: 3y ago

Anyone else have meta-ocd (obsessing about ocd itself)? I consider it for me the ultimate OCD fail safe. It keeps me doing the compulsions even if the distress goes away. I do most stuff just not to go through the constant rumination of ‘do I have ocd?’ and mental review of my entire life. I believe every thing I say and do now is fake/a lie/made up. I feel nothing but mentally I’m frustrated. Every time I do an ‘OCD-like’ behavior and do not experience uncomfortable emotions I doubt if I’m making it up for attention or misunderstood my symptoms. I am so distant from my emotions. I’m probably just ‘scared’ that I won’t be distressed> don’t have ocd> biggest fraud on this rotating rock. Sorry just had to vent. 😑

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Username: ocdgirl123

Date posted: 2y ago

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i’m so frustrated with myself. despite my attempts to lean into uncertainty, there’s still some part of that is convinced my theme is real and therefore needs to be looked into. i relapsed pretty badly after a stressful day two nights ago and i’m struggling get back onto the wagon. i know that many people say that you don’t need to know something is ocd definitively in order to treat it as such, but i feel like i do. because if it’s not ocd it’s a thing that needs to be solved. idk. does anyone have any advice on what i can do?

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