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I recently told my fiance what has been going on with me since it just started to occur and I couldn't stop myself from crying and hiding it. I currently have been having intrusive thoughts like POCD becuase of something I watched on TV. And now I am having regrets on telling him becuase I am scared he might tell someone and my life will change I never wanted these thoughts in the first place I don't want to be seen as a pedo for something I didn't do or can control yet mentally....I'm scared he might use it against me now it's making it worse and idk what to do I love him so much but I keep thinking he will tell his family since they are so close....he told me he wouldn't but it just keeps bothering me I love his family I don't want them to think differently of me....what do I do?

Username: SeaDuSeaDu

Date posted: 1y ago

I know how hard it is to tell someone about your intrusive thoughts. You are so strong for sharing something so vulnerable. The first thing you need to do is trust your fiancé. If he says he will not say anything, you need to trust that. However, if it helps, you could try to educate him in small amounts on what OCD is so he gets what your going through. I showed my husband some infographics and a couple articles and it really clicked for him. That was what gave me the most peace about telling him. Stay strong, friend. 💛

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Thank you I'm going to try to not overthink it I just keep thinking he might think I'm disgusting after a while if i dont resolve it quickly since I currently started to have these thoughts just for a couple of days and just started to seek treatment for it it is something completely new to me and the guilt is just eating at me and he knows it I just don't want him to change his feelings for me and leave....

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

But thank you such for these it really does help me know he loves me truly just my thoughts just keep going and its hard to stop you know

Username: KathCataKathCata

Date posted: 1y ago

@SieMaDu Hiii, sorry I don’t know how to share things like that here but could you pass me the infographics please? And the couple articles? It might help my bf and me in this journey! Thank you a lot and I’m happy for you tol

Username: KathCataKathCata

Date posted: 1y ago

POCD can be really distressing :,c I know it’s hard, but maybe your fiancée would understand if you explain him about OCD and normalize that everyone of us have intrusive thoughts, just that in OCD can be really distressing. My boyfriend has been really empathic with my ocd journey and it’s also helping me with finding a therapist. Ik it gets distressing and overthinking when telling an intimate distressing thought, but maybe sometimes can be better to “breath”. I know he would listen :)) you can respond when you want or talk to us when feeling in a bucle

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Thank you he does seem to understand and wants to help and says he is proud of me for seeking the help I need knowing I am not that person I am thinking and would never do those things I hope you and your boyfriend have a good journey regarding your ocd if you ever feel like your in a buckle please let me know I don't want anyone to feel alone like I didn't before my fiance or this app

Username: KathCataKathCata

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous Thank you for offering your help! ^^ it’s actually really nice, Ik your post is anonymous but you can also talk with me if you feel like it when feeling ocd really bad. You’re doing great:)

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Thank you I just started on the app today and I wasn't comfortable talking about my thoughts without feeling scared I would be the only one with these thoughts... now that I have read on some of the comments and see I am not the only one with this problem now I know and that there are people that can help so thank you I really do appreciate it and so are you :)

Username: ccsantiago

Date posted: 5y ago

I really need some and advice. I have just discovered that I suffer from POCD and I have yet to seek treatment. This has been eating up for the past two days now. I'm not attracted to children in the slightest bit. And my fiance doesn't know. I'm afraid that he will leave me. I can't tell my parents because they wouldn't understand. I am not a pedophile. But I'm afraid that I might become one. Please help urgently.

Username: jelly

Date posted: 5y ago

Hey so I’m an 18 year old college student I’ve had ocd for a long time but I never wanted to admit this aspect of it as part of it and I still don’t. That’s why I won’t say it cause I’ll just end up crying again. I don’t even want to post about it cause this would just make the problem real. I know I’m not sexually attracted to them but my mind wants to trick me and I end up getting confused on which is rlly me, like the other aspects of my ocd. It spiked ig when someone sent me a meme and it was fine but at the end of it it showed a child being shown in a sexual way which was suppose to I guess be funny but it wasn’t rlly funny to me at all and got uncomfortable and the pocd thoughts came in hard and I had such a bad panic attack and then I felt the need to go back and check to see what I was feeling and went to the video the next day after avoiding it to see which after reading the threads here is I guess a big no no? I know I’m not sexually attracted but my mind is playing these games and confuses me and I’m so scared to even talk to my therapist about it or ask people for help cause what if they think I’m a pedophile? Children genuinely make me happy and I have a motherly instinct to care for them but my mind turns it into something darker and I know I don’t think of these kids sexually but it’s like I have the power to?And that freaks me out so much and it won’t leave me alone I don’t know what to do I know I’m not one but my mind is tricking me and it’s freaking me out and if my mind says it could be what if other people think I am no one I trust will even understand idk what to do I just needed to put this somewhere to vent

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Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

Anonymous

Hi all. I opened up to my psychiatrist today (my therapist and ocd therapist know) about the intrusive thoughts I've been having. The one thought would pop up over and over "child porn" and it made me so sick to my stomach because I can't believe I would think of such a thing. Then the thoughts were more dark like thinking of touching my son and even images of that happening..then came urges...and i felt so guilty and disgusted with myself :( after I told my psychiatrist ( who is currently treating me for bipolar 1) he was so concerned and told me I need to stay with my mom to make sure my son is safe. To not trust myself and have someone watch me. Well that made me feel a whole lot worse! The thoughts were actually subsiding this week and talking about it with him made the "child porn" thought pop up again. I just feel like I'm failing at life and as a mother. My immediate family think I should turn myself into a mental health facility and have intensive treatment. They think because I have those thoughts that I want to act on them or to let it go. I don't want to act on them and would never! Im scared of my thoughts and thats the problem. This is so frustrating.

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