- Username
- Chellie
- Date posted
- 5y ago
That’s horrible! I’m so sorry this happened to you. Remember it’s okay to cry. It might actually make you feel better. I hope you’ll be able to have that good relationship with him again, but take one day at a time. Right now, you’re in a safe place❤️❤️
My God what happened to you was really awful and hard to endure. You are such a warrior. I agree with what they've told you: family is part of the therapy. Your dad could join you when you attend therapy. It's important to educate our loved ones, this disease is difficult to graps for those who don't suffer from it directly
Awww bless u my love. I feel so sad 4 u. I wud feel bad about my situation. My dad has schizophrenia. But he is ever do kind to us all. Never ever violent. When I was little my older brother was abusive. We stopped talking n that kept the peace. Just stop talking 2 ur dad 2 protect urself. It's good the police were called. U need 2 b safe hun. If u like we can talk over email. I have a lifetime experience of OCD. My OCD was sooooo bad. Now I can go swimming something I thought I cud never do due to contamination fears. N also a dog 2. Albeit against my will. But I love her so much. Also hun I think their is a link with OCD and schizophrenia. U need 2 be in a low stress environment. Keep a humble quiet life. Sometimes that's the only way. Trust me I tried going 4 a career, uni n job n all. But never worked out. We r homebodies. Thankfully with the internet we can do things from home. I love 2 listen and create ASMR vids on youtube. Maybe we can play online gaming 2gether. I have agoraphobic phases where I'm 2 paranoid n scared 2 go out. So wud b nice 2 have an online freind. What kinda games u like? I love all sorts like car race, ping pong and monopoly.
Hi... Be quite as you can... Do you met a psychologist for your ocd? Have your father ever came with you? If not yet, it's necessary that he will meet your psychologist... The family is also a part of the therapy. And maybe it's also a good moment for your father to realize what he did... Good luck
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I’m so sorry for what you’re going through. Page 11 & 12 of this guide has some helpful tips for family members to help them understand ocd. Sending the very best your way. https://www.ktph.com.sg/uploads/1493878296A%20Handbook%20for%20Caregivers%20on%20OCD.pdf
Hello, sorry for the late reply to all of you, I went to bed after posting this. My dad's been very involved with therapy actually, it's just that his anger issues never get addressed. In fact, everyone denies them he has them in the first place and says it is all because of my OCD that he does this. And I know living with someone as severe as me is hard but at the same time... I almost feel blamed for being beaten honestly... because I have a disorder which I can't seem to get a grasp of. I've tried ERP on my own but never had a specialist guide me as they are either not available in the area or too expensive with online stuff as I don't have an income right now. The crisis service is the only help I get but they do not do ERP with me. I'm honestly so stressed being in another house right now, needing to use a different toilet (I have avoided it for 2 years), all of that... I just can't. I can't seem to sleep much either, I keep having nightmares of what happened, I wanna go home but at the same time I don't. Because my dad makes me feel unsafe. It's an awful feeling and I don't know how to cope with this on top of severe OCD. Even when I have literal bruises I'm being told to stop playing the victim and understand it is because of my actions (crying, yelling out of frustrations because I am beyond stressed from doing compulsions and stopping them also stresses me so I feel trapped whenever I want and need some rest) that he hurt me. I don't know if I can forgive them. If we were not a good family prior to OCD I would've cut ties with him for sure but now I don't know what to feel or do. I just feel depressed and I wish I could sleep and never wake up in this living hell again.
I’m angry. Irritated. Whatever. I’m in a day program and yesterday they’re freaking out because I was open about my harm ocd. The dr I saw yesterday in the afternoon that wasn’t my actual doctor talked to me and told them it’s just ocd. Today my actual doctor told me to TELL MY FATHER THE THOUGHTS I GET OF STABBING HIM AND MY MOM IN THEIR SLEEP. Because “I don’t think he’d understand if he heard it from me” ME EITHER. Why the HELL would you give meaning to my thought?! Why would you make me tell him?! There’s no purpose, he’s an idiot! He was like “so you get thoughts of murdering us in our sleep” and said “should I be ready”. And then my dumb self mentioned my pocd while trying to explain ocd to him. ?♀️ He’s “trying” to be better then he used to be but he still pisses me off. I miss my best friend, I used to trust her with this stuff. I hate talking about my dad to anyone else.
My parents threaten to kick me out all the time because of my severe OCD. Each time they do I come back worse with new compulsions. They say I'm crazy for my OCD thoughts which is like, duh, does not make them feel any less real. Sigh. So tired of this life. My dad said he wished I was never born (just now), that I'm killing them physically with my panic attacks (I can't help it) and he said I'm the reason they smoke. I feel guilty and just want to die at this point. He also said he'd hit me if I'd not stop crying. They almost seem to think I like doing my washing compulsions and I can't stand it anymore. I feel alone in the world, even when so many of you struggle too, the fact that my once loving family is falling apart and that I feel so lonely in their company... it is tearing me down. OCD on its own is enough. This is too much.
My OCD has been attacking my Dad lately. For whatever reason my ODC says “what if u r face gets red around him or while you’re talking to him and ppl think u like him or what if I have a panic attack around him and ppl think that he must’ve done something to me to make me afraid of him and HE DIDNT! He’s never been anything but a loving great Dad. It makes me feel like such a horrible person. It causes me at times to avoid him and I don’t want to. I just want these horrible thoughts about my Dad to go away. Has anyone else experienced this? And if so how did you cope? I HATE myself for this😭
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