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That’s horrible! I’m so sorry this happened to you. Remember it’s okay to cry. It might actually make you feel better. I hope you’ll be able to have that good relationship with him again, but take one day at a time. Right now, you’re in a safe place❤️❤️
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My God what happened to you was really awful and hard to endure. You are such a warrior. I agree with what they've told you: family is part of the therapy. Your dad could join you when you attend therapy. It's important to educate our loved ones, this disease is difficult to graps for those who don't suffer from it directly
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Awww bless u my love. I feel so sad 4 u. I wud feel bad about my situation. My dad has schizophrenia. But he is ever do kind to us all. Never ever violent. When I was little my older brother was abusive. We stopped talking n that kept the peace. Just stop talking 2 ur dad 2 protect urself. It's good the police were called. U need 2 b safe hun. If u like we can talk over email. I have a lifetime experience of OCD. My OCD was sooooo bad. Now I can go swimming something I thought I cud never do due to contamination fears. N also a dog 2. Albeit against my will. But I love her so much. Also hun I think their is a link with OCD and schizophrenia. U need 2 be in a low stress environment. Keep a humble quiet life. Sometimes that's the only way. Trust me I tried going 4 a career, uni n job n all. But never worked out. We r homebodies. Thankfully with the internet we can do things from home. I love 2 listen and create ASMR vids on youtube. Maybe we can play online gaming 2gether. I have agoraphobic phases where I'm 2 paranoid n scared 2 go out. So wud b nice 2 have an online freind. What kinda games u like? I love all sorts like car race, ping pong and monopoly.
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Hi... Be quite as you can... Do you met a psychologist for your ocd? Have your father ever came with you? If not yet, it's necessary that he will meet your psychologist... The family is also a part of the therapy. And maybe it's also a good moment for your father to realize what he did... Good luck
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I’m so sorry for what you’re going through. Page 11 & 12 of this guide has some helpful tips for family members to help them understand ocd. Sending the very best your way. https://www.ktph.com.sg/uploads/1493878296A%20Handbook%20for%20Caregivers%20on%20OCD.pdf
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Hello, sorry for the late reply to all of you, I went to bed after posting this. My dad's been very involved with therapy actually, it's just that his anger issues never get addressed. In fact, everyone denies them he has them in the first place and says it is all because of my OCD that he does this. And I know living with someone as severe as me is hard but at the same time... I almost feel blamed for being beaten honestly... because I have a disorder which I can't seem to get a grasp of. I've tried ERP on my own but never had a specialist guide me as they are either not available in the area or too expensive with online stuff as I don't have an income right now. The crisis service is the only help I get but they do not do ERP with me. I'm honestly so stressed being in another house right now, needing to use a different toilet (I have avoided it for 2 years), all of that... I just can't. I can't seem to sleep much either, I keep having nightmares of what happened, I wanna go home but at the same time I don't. Because my dad makes me feel unsafe. It's an awful feeling and I don't know how to cope with this on top of severe OCD. Even when I have literal bruises I'm being told to stop playing the victim and understand it is because of my actions (crying, yelling out of frustrations because I am beyond stressed from doing compulsions and stopping them also stresses me so I feel trapped whenever I want and need some rest) that he hurt me. I don't know if I can forgive them. If we were not a good family prior to OCD I would've cut ties with him for sure but now I don't know what to feel or do. I just feel depressed and I wish I could sleep and never wake up in this living hell again.
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I have OCD, but my parents don’t understand what I’m going through. All I wanted was for someone to be by my side and support me, but they dismiss my struggles, telling me to "just stop thinking" and that I’m making a big deal out of nothing. When I asked for a new therapist because my current one isn’t helping—she isn’t even an OCD specialist—they became angry and didn't believe I need therapy and instead blame me for everything. My father was so mad, he insist to gave me a knife and kill myself. He threatened to isolate me completely, cutting me off from school, the internet, and everything else. My mom cried and shut me down when I tried to explain my pain. They refuse to listen and my dad said it’s all my fault. That day they threw me outside the house for a night, and called me back in telling me to forget everything and forgive them, but I understood that I will not be able to mention anything about my mental health or seeing an OCD specialist ever again, I am completely alone now. With no financial support, and now I don’t know if I’ll ever get the proper therapy I need. I’m only 15, but it feels like I’ll be trapped in this suffering forever, I feel hopeless, I feel like shit, I am going to suffer forever with no support and help.
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I’ve shared on here before that I don’t have the best relationship with my parents but I still care for them a lot. I love them. This disorder has been so debilitating for the last 4 months. It keeps getting worse. It’s been attacking any physical contact with my parents. Any touches, hugs, playful jabs, caresses, anything. Anything that’s supposed to be pure and loving. My brain jumps to it being inappropriate, or weird or just comparing it to something sexual. Then I just feel so uncomfortable. I don’t know if I’m just hyperaware of how I feel, I tense up badly or if I’m checking how I feel. I don’t know. It breaks my heart. It genuinely hurts so bad. I feel like a child who just wants to cry in her parents’ arms but OCD is trying to take them away. This feels so painful, I’ve been dealing with so many themes but this specific situation hurts the most. I feel devastated and scared. If anyone else has been through this or has any advice, I’d really appreciate it. And if not, just knowing that someone heard me would mean a lot. I feel so deeply sad.
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My child was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt them that I might as well do something else because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it and causing another feeling (I literally had to question what to do during this and the only thing I could come up with was to move my elbow towards her groin area) but it came across my mind to elbow my child, and I elbowed their crotch or side area. Which caused another unwanted groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out and asked my child to move. Then I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be theirs anymore. Idk what overcame me, and in the moment, it felt like I wanted to move my elbow, but I know that can also be my OCD speaking. Right? I clearly regret it all and hate myself. I would never intentionally hurt my child; I don't know what happened in my head when this happened. I was doing SO well! Is this my POCD that I've been diagnosed with by my OCD specialized therapist? Just a struggling mom who used to be the best of the best. I'm very depressed by this. Idk what to do with myself. I live in regret now, and I just wish it would've never ever happened. I can't stop ruminating and being depressed thinking I don't deserve anything.
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