Scared I don’t actually have OCD
Anyone else scared that they don’t actually have OCD, and their relationship is doomed?
Honestly the "maybe I don't have ocd" thought is such a common intrusive thought. I try to view it this way: might as well treat it like OCD if it's similar to it. No matter what, therapy, guidance, and working at obsessive feelings or thoughts, can't hurt. ERP helps with things you're scared with, not just OCD. On my worst days, I also just try to answer this question: "Regardless of what thoughts I'm having right now, whether they are true or not, whether it's ocd or not, am I willing to stay in and work on this relationship?" That way I make the active decision to stay with my partner regardless. Making this "decision" helped a lot in the long run.
Yes, and I know I have strange circular Intrusive thoughts then panic that will doom my relationship… I always think I am the problem, they are better without me. Then my mind will clear no thoughts and I feel fine, just doomed to never have a meaningful healthy relationship, like I am not allowed to.
@tdb138 Exactly! Like they deserve better! I feel weird because I never have felt these kind of doubts before in a relationship before. But then again, no one really has committed to me the way he has though. It’s very confusing.
@songbird1 Currently I am working 2K miles away from him.he says don’t worry “I love you” I’m like how can you I’m broken
@tdb138 My bf and I live together, and it’s really hard with my thoughts. Are you thinking about getting treatment?
@songbird1 I currently have a therapist that I see… but I didn’t realize that the thoughts I have .. others have them too- I have been afraid to tell my therapist many of the thoughts. But, I am thinking that I might be able to express them now. If I do not, I fear that I will destroy the first healthy relationship I have had. I can literally drive myself into the ground obsessively thinking and worrying.
Same here on the worrying and obsessive front!
@Kingkj2 Trauma/ER/Psychiatric ER with a lock down unit
Does anyone else ever get obsessions where you worry that your OCD isn’t real or isn’t bad enough to be OCD?
I’m scared it’s not OCD and it’s something worse.
Does anyone ever get scared that they are just trying to convince themselves that it’s OCD. I have this fear that my intrusive thoughts about harm aren’t actually intrusive nor is it actually OCD and I’m actually some sort of crazy evil human being all of a sudden. As I’m writing this I can see how silly that is. Of course it’s OCD, but there is always that “what if” and it makes me scared of myself. I know that this could be considered “obsessing about obsessing,” but like I said, there is always that, “What if you are different? An anomaly.”
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