I think the most frustrating thing about this disorder is…. WHEN you have been very well off and then when you get hit with more intrusive thoughts more frequently you start to believe them. I’m by no means back where i use to be, but it certainly sucks when you’re getting hit with a bunch of thoughts when prior uiu were fine 🤣 How is everyone doing?
I feel you. Sometimes when I’m feeling well and “normal” for too long, it’s like my brain is ready to pounce again with intrusive, anxious thinking at any moment. Practicing meditation, observing thoughts as they are, and being present has helped but it’s like my brain wants to go back to the old familiar patterns. 🥲
@PERS0N I like that a lot! For some reason the thoughts aren’t that much different but they are impacting me as if they are
I've got you all beat. I started having OCD symptoms at age six. Goes to show, there is hope for recovery. I'm a prime example.
@Steven55! Don’t know your theme but that’s wild! Bet it’s been a fun journey 😅
@Michael F - Themes...and it's been a real barrel of laughs...:-)
UHG. Going through the same things. The thoughts are so present today and it's been a very long time since they've made me so anxious and guilty, but here we are!! And they're different than usual so it's difficult to recognize them, then I engage, then I start a new cycle. Anyways, sorry to hear you're going through this but know you're not alone
@Michael F Same!! How long have you been dealing w this and are you recovered by any chance??
@Anonymous Wellllllll I’m 26… it’s been “bad” since 20 but I’ve had what ifs since early teens, but wasn’t obsessive until i was 20 or the college years i should say . Hbu?
@Michael F - That's very common in OCD, for the disorder to begin in the teens.
@Steven55! Ironicallly i remember praying “I’d rather twitch then think i was gay” when inwas young, and that ritual worked, and once again it came and went passively here and there
@Michael F Are you getting erp/therapy for it? And did it help at NOCD? I’m 24 gonna be 25 in September. I was 12 when I first had a random thought I was lesbian and that’s when it all happened… it went away after being tortured by it for months… fast forward to college I saw a super pretty girl and it felt like attraction and that’s when the question of bisexuality came in… cus all my crushed have been men and it went away cus harm ocd went away. Fast forward to now… it’s back and the false attraction. I feel so weird and I want to be straight only. I’m scared one day erp is gonna make me accept bisexuality
@Michael F Sorry for the rant 🥹
@Anonymous You’re okay! That’s wild, it’s kinda comforting to see someone else have it as well at a younger age 😂 no offense. If you ever wanna chat I’m always open on Instagram or whatever poke__fed I’m sorry you’re struggling :) you’re not alone
I so feel you, friend! Just keep leaning into your values as much as you can! You've got this!
@Bella_la_la_lahh Sound what i Can! It isn’t easy 🫡
@Michael F Totally dude, it's definitely easier said than done+
I know exactly how this is. It’s been almost a year since ocd hit me like a freight train and I was in the worst of it. I’m constantly afraid of going back to that place. But I’m much better then what I was. It still sucks though.
@Dj-is-trying Oh wow. I’m glad you are on the road of recovery like all of us! :)
Man I was doing pretty good, but this past weekend it feels like the thoughts are never ending. Anxiety is a bit more intense and I almost be believing these thoughts, even though I know it's all not real 🥲 ROCD is a trip 😂
@OCDaze Preaching to the choir ! ROCD is the worst.
My thinking and this disaster also began for me at 19 or 20, I'm 26 and coincidentally when I was younger I remember saying "Thank God I'm a man and I like women, what a nuisance to be a woman, why do women want to go out with men?" and without any context, I just appreciated my role😅 and now I suffer with this
Completely understand. I’m glad you realize you aren’t where you used to be though.
@artsygirl Still not easy! Every day is a battle
About to start treatment on Tuesday! I’m a little nervous because I’ve been having less of my physical symptoms but also still having my thoughts without worry. The thought that always pops up is, “Why am I not worried about my thoughts? Does this mean they’re true?!” I feel you! It’s annoying when I’m doing well all of a sudden, and then I go back to my OCD brain.
does anyone else with this theme feel like their suic. ocd skyrockets when something in your life happens?? i’ve been doing so good managing these thoughts and not panicking, but i had a event happen in my life and all of them are back hitting hard. i’m arguing with myself on whether im actually depressed or not and “what if this means my thoughts are real”, it’s all what if thoughts, but because ive been doing so good with them, what if they are real this time? like im panicking again because im scared they are real? like i’m not depressed im just going through a few things right now. idk what it is. but i really need tips on how to help with setbacks and what to do to stop myself from arguing with my mind when i already know the truth.
I hope everyone is doing well today, and for those of you who are struggling my thoughts and prayers are with you. Just know your moment of peace is coming soon. I think it’s important that we post / come on here every now and again even when we are not in a moment of pure panic and fear. Remember that we are not our thoughts as hard as it is to understand. Remember that OCD makes it feel “real” and that OCD will always make us think the most inappropriate things and the most inappropriate times. Remember that all humans, have thoughts that come and go and as hard as it can be to understand you are not alone in your thoughts that feel so unique. For me I get a lot of anxiety from thoughts I used to have , which of course makes them return in full throttle. The more I push them away the more they come back. And those thought makes new connections to those things in my life I value. OCD is a pain but it’s important that as much as you hate it you learn to be compassionate and understanding that it’s there to “help” you no matter how bad it does it job sometimes. Stay strong everyone
Lately, my mood shifts so frequently. A couple of minutes ago, I got triggered and decided that instead of doing a compulsion, I'd write in my journal (since I haven't done that in a while). But after writing not even half a page... I'm okay? Well, sorta! 😭 I'm experiencing a resurgence in old obsessions, which is disappointing. A couple of weeks back, I was doing a lot better, but now it's just one thing after another. Really wish therapy was more affordable. I'm already seeing my psychiatrist, but she wants me to see a specialist as well. When I think about living with this for the rest of my life, I can get a little emotional. I know it'll get easier to manage as time passes, and it might not even affect me in the future, but right now...? It's a lot of work I'll need to do to overcome this. I'm willing to do it, but I get discouraged at times... But that's enough of my little vent! I hope anyone who reads this is doing okay. Hang in there 🤍
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