Givenup

Date posted: 2y

I feel alone

Thats mostly it…

Magzzz

Date posted: 2y

I promise you, you are not alone. We are all dealing with something that is absolutely terrifying to us in some way. Whatever you are going through, no matter what there are people who understand and care. The best advice I can give is do erp. It really does help. You just have to stay consistent. You are never alone. I feel alone too right now but at the end of the day you are not. I hope you feel better very soon

Phoe.nix

Date posted: 2y

@Mikeneko 🧡 Exactly. I feel completely alone as well, and don’t know how anyone else could possibly have ocd this bad, be a worse person than I am, anyone could ever forgive me, etc. but it’s clear even by reading this that’s not true, so please take comfort in the fact that it’s not true for you either. We’re all fighting this thing together. It’s scary as hell but you are strong so so so so so strong. I’m proud of you for pushing through my friend❤️

Magzzz

Date posted: 2y

@Phoe.nix Exactly what goes through my mind on a daily basis. I wish I could believe what you said about it not being true but unfortunately that’s not what the ocd wants me to believe. But I do understand what you are saying and I truly appreciate you saying that. Some days are worse than others but we are all in this together (cue high school musical song lol) just kidding but I don’t want anyone to feel alone. Life is too short. I don’t want anyone to feel the way I do on a daily basis so if I can do something that can change someone’s life I’m going to do it because I would have wanted someone to do that for me. You are not alone either friend! I hope we all fight the light at the end of the tunnel 🙏🏻

Magzzz

Date posted: 2y

@Mikeneko 🧡 *find

Phoe.nix

Date posted: 2y

@Mikeneko 🧡 TYSM friend🥹sorry it was confusing but what I meant by not true was that it’s not true that we should feel alone- meaning we are not alone🤗but yeah I see what you mean and I feel the same, my ocd makes me believe my stuff is true in that way as well. Thank you for your kindness, I really appreciate that and I hope we can all help each other❤️all my love my friend, baby steps. Stay safe and take care, you have my understanding and support in this❤️

Magzzz

Date posted: 2y

@Phoe.nix Oh I’m so sorry I completely misunderstood. I totally understand what you mean. You are not alone friend. Never. You stay safe and take care too! You have mine as well ❤️

Phoe.nix

Date posted: 2y

@Mikeneko 🧡 No need to be sorry at all, thank you so much!! That rly rly rly means a lot🥹🥹we really are all in this together ❤️

Magzzz

Date posted: 2y

@Phoe.nix You’re welcome! Yes %100 always 🥹

nate01

Date posted: 2y

Join clubs

Givenup

Date posted: 2y

@nate01 Its summer vacation and i cant…

nate01

Date posted: 2y

I forgot my fault but there are meet up groups most likely which could help out

Givenup

Date posted: 2y

@nate01 I dont know any clubs near me

Givenup

Date posted: 2y

@nate01 And no one responds to me on here or even likes my posts… so… that doesnt help…

Magzzz

Date posted: 2y

@Givenup Unfortunately I know how that is too. I stopped posting for a long time (which was probably for the better) because I felt more alone in this community because no one responded. Sometimes people won’t respond if you asking for reassurance because they don’t want to make your symptoms worse

Givenup

Date posted: 2y

@Mikeneko 🧡 Its like my intrusive thoughts… “adapt”… anything that sounds homosexual my hocd will give me thoughts about… like i could speak in korean and i would get an intrusive hocd thought in korean, or i could be looking at a woman and i would get a sudden intrusive hocd sexual thought thats detailed… like i seriously dont understand why this is happening to me… and the intrusive feelings, and the slightly faster heartbeat when i see a shirtless guy compared to a normal woman that im attracted to (plus giving me automatic intrusive thoughts about men whenever beautiful girls are mentioned) makes this life a living hell… I was checking my heartrate between seeing a guy people consider “attractive” and a girl i found attractive. I had a slightly faster heart-rate when i was looking at a guy… i don’t ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual at all… I dont ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual in any way in any way shape or form… i dont ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual at all…

Magzzz

Date posted: 2y

@Givenup The faster heartbeat could be the anxiety coming from you already expecting to experience some sort of intrusive thought. Checking your heart rate when looking at men vs women is a compulsion and every time you do that you are giving in to it. You have to just let it be. Sit there with the fast heart rate and let it pass. Each time you are willing to do that, it will get easier and less scary. If you speak any language, your intrusive thoughts can come through in that language at least that’s what I think. If someone who speaks only Spanish and not English or both then no matter what it’s going to come through what they already know. I’d say that’s pretty normal for anyone who knows more than one language. I can’t tell you why it’s happening to you but I can say it’s because you have ocd and are experiencing ocd symptoms. But the more you fear it, the more it’s going to show up and get stronger. You have to sit with the anxiety and let it pass. Once you get in the habit of saying “I can hear you in my head and I can feel the random feelings but I’m going to go about my day and let it be”. It will eventually realize that you aren’t afraid and it will lose grip. I understand how this is. I’m dealing with it with POCD and it’s absolute torture. But you have to keep doing erp otherwise it’s just going to stay the same. Don’t check your heart rate, don’t ask for reassurance, sit with the intrusive thoughts and feelings and remember you are not alone in this. I can guarantee that. I really hope that everything gets better for you friend. Stay strong I know you got this! 🙂

Phoe.nix

Date posted: 2y

We are all here for you @ original poster. I truly believe you will find a deeper meaning to your pain, and you can do this. You are stronger than you know, and there’s millions of us out here just like you❤️

Givenup

Date posted: 2y

@Phoe.nix @Mikeneko 🧡 Its like my intrusive thoughts… “adapt”… anything that sounds homosexual my hocd will give me thoughts about… like i could speak in korean and i would get an intrusive hocd thought in korean, or i could be looking at a woman and i would get a sudden intrusive hocd sexual thought thats detailed… like i seriously dont understand why this is happening to me… and the intrusive feelings, and the slightly faster heartbeat when i see a shirtless guy compared to a normal woman that im attracted to (plus giving me automatic intrusive thoughts about men whenever beautiful girls are mentioned) makes this life a living hell… I was checking my heartrate between seeing a guy people consider “attractive” and a girl i found attractive. I had a slightly faster heart-rate when i was looking at a guy… i don’t ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual at all… I dont ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual in any way in any way shape or form… i dont ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual at all…

Phoe.nix

Date posted: 2y

@Givenup PLEASE Look up OCD Recovery on YouTube!! (Robert Bray is the founder) They’ve really been helping to change my perspectives when I’ve felt like I was at rock bottom these past few months

୨ৎ

Date posted: 19w

does anyone wanna talk?

feeling alone & scared : how is everyone doing ? 🥹

moon0270

Date posted: 15w

Isolated

I have this strong yearning to tell my mother all my thoughts and what I go through on a daily basis but then I get scared of what she'll think of me or that she'll worry even more and feel like it's her fault. I just want someone to understand what im going through but whenever I even begin to explain my thoughts to my therapist, she doesn't really get it and today it feels like no one ever will. like I try to make my therapist understand and bless her heart, she's super compassionate and understands how much pain it causes me but beyond that, it still feels like im not able to fully convey it. I'm sure this is something many people can relate to, but still. I feel alone.

Berryx2

Date posted: 10w

I feel all alone still

I don’t know what to do anymore I made a friend recently in college and was texting her the other night and she mentioned she was doing her nails and I said nice and asked her if I could see. Because I was curious about what she did to them this time around and since then she has not responded to me I apologized to her saying I’m sorry if it bothered her but still nothing. Some of my friends just don’t answer me anymore I feel like I’m a burden of the ones who do still talk me I’m so done with it all. I’m tired of trying to find love as well I feel nothing to it anymore it’s only left me with disappointment and sadness I feel like I’m an unlovable husk of a person and that I would only ever be a bother I cannot fathom the idea of someone loving ME I just can’t I feel like it’s impossible I feel like everything about me bothers people to the point where I think is it even something I should try to achieve anymore. I should honestly block myself from trying to make new friends and relationships I’m so so tired of it. I feel unappreciated and annoyed that I am the one that has to try to keep up any sort of relationship because if I don’t reach out they never will reach out to me the reason I know this is because it’s been proven time after time since middle school that I am nothing to these people and I might as well no longer try. I don’t know what to do anymore I feel like I’m going to be all alone for the rest of my life I’m just so lonely now.

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