- Date posted
- 2y
SOOCD - the logic of ‘feels true’
Can I get peoples thoughts on the logic of ‘ocd feels real’ with a lens of SOOCD? My brain seems to focus on hyper-noticing anything remotely related to me being gay. I identify as a straight 35 year old male, and before my initial “you are gay” thought at 25, I had never given my orientation a second thought. There was just no consideration about it. I’m in therapy trying to commit to ERP. A key factor holding me back is this inner thought that “I just feel gay”. And it feels real, like that I am. From what I’ve read, the real feeling or believing your theme/thought can be common. Is that true? Secondly - my logic goes: OCD is a fear based disorder. It’s a thought that lots of us have, but our ocd says “that thought is danger”. As soon as we give the thought the power of “danger” and engage in it to work out wether it’s true or not, then we conform to our brain that the topic is intact, danger. Hence, your brain will continue to make you want to engage with things that it perceived as a danger. The logic I get stuck with is for SOOCD, is that my brain seems to want to prove that my fear is RIGHT, not wrong. Is this OCD doing whatever it needs to, to prove it’s a real danger so I know I have to do something to fix it? Like, why would my brain try to prove it correct? How do others deal with this?