I’m hyper aware of…everything. My thoughts, consciousness, everything. I’m scared to not be distracted out of fear I’ll be overwhelmed by my thoughts. It’s incredibly overwhelming, and I’ve spent all day so far in the same spot basically catastrophizing. I feel like there’s nothing I can do to distract myself, and that my anxiety has been consistently through the roof. Just…very rough day so far :(
I'm so sorry to hear you're having a bad day. I understand, I, too, have been struggling with some fears and, if I'm honest, I've been ruminating all morning. I hopped on here trying to at least move forward a little with my day. I do know, allowing uncertainty is the answer, but when we are stuck, it is difficult to get unstuck. I also know, from past experience, the "doing" comes before "feeling" so I have to move forward even though I still have the fears and anxiety. Maybe you could start with some small activity. I'm rooting for us both :) take care!
@VGH “Doing comes before feeling.” That was super helpful to me today. I feel off the wagon into bad rumination today and felt like I couldn’t get back to work because I’m anxious and upset. Now I’ll consciously just try to work anyway and see what happens 🤷🏻♀️ thank you!!
@VGH Thank you SO much for this. I ended up actually getting up and cleaning my car out- just a quick 15 minute buffer to stall my rumination episode and OMG. Was able to get back into the saddle and get myself together again, as well as practice some ERP without completely being overwhelmed. I was able to finally get something to eat, too! Thank you for the comment, I hope you’ve improved since and wish only the best for you !! :))
@r.achelld Oh I am so glad it helped❤️. Yes, my day got better too, appreciate this community so much!
Thank you for sharing - I was having a morning like this and moving around really helped a bit
Hi there, I am currently going through this. I am scared to relax without distraction as the thought of existing in my own consciousness is overwhelming. This is all fairly new to me and I'm terrified that I will be aware of this forever. I sort of know it will pass eventually but don't feel particularly confident.
Hey, hope you were able to allow the uncertainties to be there and hopefully you were able to get some relief. It is hard, allowing uncertainty, and I understand, it is so tempting to want to "figure it all out". I hope you see, from how many people respond to these things here, you are not alone, and there is a whole community rooting for you. Hang in there, let time pass, try to move toward what you value, in spite of your fears. You are right, it will pass. Take care.
@Will W Hey !! I know that this theme can seem very overwhelming, especially at first. The best thing to do, I’ve personally found, is to let it stay. Let the hyperawareness exist when you’re going about your day— I know it seems very scary but your body and brain will get used to it and it’ll become much easier!! It all comes with time :) Wishing the best !!
I have hold back my tears . I’m trying so hard to play it off. I can’t think about it anything without on the verge of falling apart . I have no self control over my mind . I’m scared. Is this a psychosis . I have barely eaten in days . My stomach is growling but I have no appetite. Idk what’s going on . Normally if I have a rough week I can fight it but I can’t fight it this time. My biggest fear is loosing my bf. I’m spending the day with him and all I can do it think about what’s gonna happen when I leave .
I’ve tried living in the uncertainty today & kept myself busy but I can’t shake this feeling that I’m about to lose control & act on my thoughts. I keep feeling like I need to check in to see how I feel & keep my self safe & when I’m near my trigger it feels like I’m being pulled into doing it & feels like I want to but I’m not using compulsions. My thoughts feel like my own & feeling like I’ll be like this forever. Can someone relate or give advice 😩
I’m stuck in a loop, I can’t stop avoiding the thoughts by watching tik tok, I’m paralyzed on the couch, I’m searching for clues everywhere that something bad is happening I don’t know how to go on like this anymore my fears are so strong so present they feel so real. Any mention of the future sends my whole body into panic. My arms go numb, I can’t keep living like this i feel like I’m going crazy
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