- Date posted
- 2y
Harm ocd
Guys I’m worried because I’m not reacting how I used to. I had a disturbing image in my head and I’m not reacting to it like I should. Please help me
Guys I’m worried because I’m not reacting how I used to. I had a disturbing image in my head and I’m not reacting to it like I should. Please help me
i like to think about it this way: we get a very scary scary disturbing thought and your anxiety spikes right away. but the more that thought is there (because of the attention we give it) the more we don’t give it a reaction because you’re tired already. it doesn’t mean we aren’t scared or disturbed by the thought, it just means that we are so used to having these thoughts that you sorta feel the need to not care about reacting anymore, you know? you are not alone. i know exactly where you’re coming from. remember that OCD attacks what you love and value the most. sometimes intrusive thoughts come out of nowhere on a beautiful day. but let’s remember to have some self-compassion and remind ourselves that thoughts are just thoughts. they do not define us as individuals. i am with you, my friend! stay strong.
That's habituation, baby! I sound excited because it's exciting. This is one of the things we are looking to achieve with ERP. The other goal of ERP is to be able to handle anxiety, doubt, discomfort, or feelings without needing to fix, figure out, change, or make it go away. If you feel anxious that you aren't reactive to something, it might be a "back door spike" (NOCD has an article that describes it better than I would). The reaction might resurface, but for now just roll with it. And keep doing ERP for what needs work - it sounds like you're making progress!
@ReadyForImprovement But the thing is I haven’t really done ERP? Like it juss happened like I naturally started doing my compulsions less and I guess I faced my trigger naturally idk it’s weird
Like i normally would react to it I mean^
I’m kinda at this stage with my OCD too. It’s strange honestly. Just talk to your therapist
Someone please help me I’m having intrusive thoughts of hurting my pets and I’m really scared of myself and I want these thoughts to go away. Can someone please help me I’m scared and I don’t know if I’m a monster
i’m back in a cycle of having harm related OCD thoughts and feelings and urges and i get these episodes where it’s like i’m disassociating and feel like i’m about to snap and go crazy violent. does anyone else experience this? i need help
I don’t know if my hormones are extra wild this month or what, but I have been having so many POCD thoughts lately. It feels like I enjoy them in the moment, and then a few seconds later, I get this tiny flicker of *wait I don’t think I actually want to enjoy that.* It’s scaring me a lot. I was watching adult videos for the first time in about a year, since I had been avoiding them because of my OCD. I know they are not good for anyone, but I felt like i could (ironically it felt like a tiny win that my OCD had calmed down enough). But while watching, I had like 3 separate POCD thoughts. And it felt like I liked them. Like genuinely *liked* them. I don’t know if maybe my body was mixing up physical pleasure and mental pleasure, and then my brain inserted those not okay thoughts into the situation, which got tangled up with the pleasure responses I felt mentally and physically. It is all really confusing. I just feel so scared. I know OCD thoughts are supposed to feel real, and that once you get desensitized to the anxiety, they lose their power. But this feels like I am *actually enjoying* the thoughts, and that makes me want to cry. I’m scared that I actually like these thoughts when I’m really aroused :( Please help.
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