- Username
- ClydeWinter
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Harm ocd
Guys I’m worried because I’m not reacting how I used to. I had a disturbing image in my head and I’m not reacting to it like I should. Please help me
Guys I’m worried because I’m not reacting how I used to. I had a disturbing image in my head and I’m not reacting to it like I should. Please help me
i like to think about it this way: we get a very scary scary disturbing thought and your anxiety spikes right away. but the more that thought is there (because of the attention we give it) the more we don’t give it a reaction because you’re tired already. it doesn’t mean we aren’t scared or disturbed by the thought, it just means that we are so used to having these thoughts that you sorta feel the need to not care about reacting anymore, you know? you are not alone. i know exactly where you’re coming from. remember that OCD attacks what you love and value the most. sometimes intrusive thoughts come out of nowhere on a beautiful day. but let’s remember to have some self-compassion and remind ourselves that thoughts are just thoughts. they do not define us as individuals. i am with you, my friend! stay strong.
That's habituation, baby! I sound excited because it's exciting. This is one of the things we are looking to achieve with ERP. The other goal of ERP is to be able to handle anxiety, doubt, discomfort, or feelings without needing to fix, figure out, change, or make it go away. If you feel anxious that you aren't reactive to something, it might be a "back door spike" (NOCD has an article that describes it better than I would). The reaction might resurface, but for now just roll with it. And keep doing ERP for what needs work - it sounds like you're making progress!
@ReadyForImprovement But the thing is I haven’t really done ERP? Like it juss happened like I naturally started doing my compulsions less and I guess I faced my trigger naturally idk it’s weird
Like i normally would react to it I mean^
I’m kinda at this stage with my OCD too. It’s strange honestly. Just talk to your therapist
I had a terrible graphic intrusive image. So why didn't I feel nothing? I should have been disgusted immediately. I was just passive, it didn't effect me as much. I'm currently obsessing about the fact that I didn't react. I don't know if I should be afraid of this. I know I didn't like that, but when things like these happen I feel like I never have enough confidence, like to simply say "no I was disgusted, I don't like this, I would never do that" end of the story, without any second guessing thoughts. I can never have that statement confidently without feeling that it might not be true. And sometimes when I try to answer to the "OCD question" my brain double downs and says "well what about this? how about that? would you like it that way? you've never thought about it that way!" My brain asks me "would you do it if it was like that? have you ever considered what would it be like? maybe you would like it?" What do I do? I think I know what should I do, but I don't know if it applies to this, if it applies to me at all, as sometimes I think that these are not OCD symptoms or it isn't OCD at all.
I am really struggling. I feel like I have a constant harm related intrusive thought in my head, causing a horrible intrusive feeling in my head. Even if I’m just simply scrolling and see someone sometimes this feeling of an intrusive thought becomes present, leading it to become horrid intrusive thoughts and feelings. I would never want to hurt anyone. Let alone do it and I’m struggling so much. I feel like I have a constant harm related intrusive thought in my head and feeling. Which is reinforced when I look at people. It goes when im distracted and then i remember the horrid feeling. I feel like bursting into tears, ive had enough. Can anyone relate? I feel like a constant intrusive thought and feeling IN my head im so sad :( I feel horrid. Scared ill go crazy.
Today I am working but a huge amount of panic has over taken me because of a violent intrusive thought I got last night. I am so anxious to the point where i am considering cancelling because the intrusive feeling feels so terrible. What if i actually do it. What if I did tht and snapped. I am scared i just need a bit of support, a bit of i sont know wnymore
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