ClydeWinter
- Date posted
- 2y
Harm ocd
Guys I’m worried because I’m not reacting how I used to. I had a disturbing image in my head and I’m not reacting to it like I should. Please help me
taantaan
- Date posted
- 2y
i like to think about it this way: we get a very scary scary disturbing thought and your anxiety spikes right away. but the more that thought is there (because of the attention we give it) the more we don’t give it a reaction because you’re tired already. it doesn’t mean we aren’t scared or disturbed by the thought, it just means that we are so used to having these thoughts that you sorta feel the need to not care about reacting anymore, you know? you are not alone. i know exactly where you’re coming from. remember that OCD attacks what you love and value the most. sometimes intrusive thoughts come out of nowhere on a beautiful day. but let’s remember to have some self-compassion and remind ourselves that thoughts are just thoughts. they do not define us as individuals. i am with you, my friend! stay strong.
ReadyForImprovementReadyForImpr...
- Date posted
- 2y
That's habituation, baby! I sound excited because it's exciting. This is one of the things we are looking to achieve with ERP. The other goal of ERP is to be able to handle anxiety, doubt, discomfort, or feelings without needing to fix, figure out, change, or make it go away. If you feel anxious that you aren't reactive to something, it might be a "back door spike" (NOCD has an article that describes it better than I would). The reaction might resurface, but for now just roll with it. And keep doing ERP for what needs work - it sounds like you're making progress!
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
@ReadyForImprovement But the thing is I haven’t really done ERP? Like it juss happened like I naturally started doing my compulsions less and I guess I faced my trigger naturally idk it’s weird
ClydeWinterClydeWinter
- Date posted
- 2y
Like i normally would react to it I mean^
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
I’m kinda at this stage with my OCD too. It’s strange honestly. Just talk to your therapist
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- Date posted
- 23w
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- Date posted
- 22w
Harm ocd
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Anonymousssssss
- Date posted
- 21w
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