ClydeWinter
- Date posted
- 2y
Harm ocd
Guys I’m worried because I’m not reacting how I used to. I had a disturbing image in my head and I’m not reacting to it like I should. Please help me
taantaan
- Date posted
- 2y
i like to think about it this way: we get a very scary scary disturbing thought and your anxiety spikes right away. but the more that thought is there (because of the attention we give it) the more we don’t give it a reaction because you’re tired already. it doesn’t mean we aren’t scared or disturbed by the thought, it just means that we are so used to having these thoughts that you sorta feel the need to not care about reacting anymore, you know? you are not alone. i know exactly where you’re coming from. remember that OCD attacks what you love and value the most. sometimes intrusive thoughts come out of nowhere on a beautiful day. but let’s remember to have some self-compassion and remind ourselves that thoughts are just thoughts. they do not define us as individuals. i am with you, my friend! stay strong.
ReadyForImprovementReadyForImpr...
- Date posted
- 2y
That's habituation, baby! I sound excited because it's exciting. This is one of the things we are looking to achieve with ERP. The other goal of ERP is to be able to handle anxiety, doubt, discomfort, or feelings without needing to fix, figure out, change, or make it go away. If you feel anxious that you aren't reactive to something, it might be a "back door spike" (NOCD has an article that describes it better than I would). The reaction might resurface, but for now just roll with it. And keep doing ERP for what needs work - it sounds like you're making progress!
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
@ReadyForImprovement But the thing is I haven’t really done ERP? Like it juss happened like I naturally started doing my compulsions less and I guess I faced my trigger naturally idk it’s weird
ClydeWinterClydeWinter
- Date posted
- 2y
Like i normally would react to it I mean^
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
I’m kinda at this stage with my OCD too. It’s strange honestly. Just talk to your therapist
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Brian.Hope
- Date posted
- 24w
Harm ocd
Hey, I suffer from harm ocd and I feel as if it’s non stop everything I do everyday I believe I killed someone I believe it’s harm ocd and false memory but like today I went to the store and saw a older lady and my head thinks of images of me pushing them or killing then and right after that thought I feel as if I done it then the rest of the day I ruminate replaying everything. I know erp and I should just accept the thought and let it go but it’s not easy and I feel as if i really hurt or killed someone and I don’t want to go to jail for something I don’t want to do . Any tips would be appreciated I don’t know how to accept and move on when it feels so real that I did something!
Andi 🤓☝️
- Date posted
- 23w
Triggered from NOCD article
Guys for the past couple of hours ive been spiraling! I wad researching and came across this harm ocd article question that has been worrying me. The title was "im scared of hurting someone when I'm mad. Can i trust myself?" And I was thinking "hey that's what ive been worried about for the past several months!" I even AVOID being angry. Im scared of it bc I get a lot of thoughts and I'm hyperaware of my hands and feel them tingly! Last time i tensed so hard to stay still as possible bc I was so so nervous from my thoughts and my hand twitched which made me SPIRAL. I never want to cause harm! And i always start crying after an argument bc the thoughts are so so scary! Anyway I got afraid bc the article said "research has shown that people with ocd don't struggle with impulse control- so if you find yourself intensely worried you could do harm based on the intrusive thoughts or urges you have, it's likely something else is going on." THAT SENTENCE HAS LEFT ME WITH A TON OF ANXIETY! Its so bad, my appetite is gone! I'm scared does this mean I don't have ocd and should be seriously concerned?!
laladracu
- Date posted
- 20w
idk if its harm ocd anymore
I dont know whats going on. I dont know if its OCD anymore. I know it was in the beginning. Ive been through a lot of trauma and had one little scary thought of killing my sister 4 months ago that has blossomed into this giant idea of me being a serial killer and wanting to hurt everyone (I never had any social issues growing up but I have had some trauma). Recently I’ve been having urges to just give in. And my mental images have been horrible and I can’t stop checking if I like them or not. I think I’ve convinced myself I have. This morning I woke up a shaking mess with an urge to unalive my family and when my mom left for work I was alone with my sister and couldnt stop vomiting uncontrollably. I dont know if i’m upset because I cant hurt anyone and I want to, or if I’m scared and just want my old life back. I was an avid horror and gore lover and now I’m convinced I want to do the things I’ve seen in the movies. Someone please help. I’m ready to check into the psych ward.
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