OCD mindset breakthrough!!

I’ve had NOCD for about a month now. Each day I come on here, compulsing, worried that I’m some horrible person, or at least a person that I don’t want to be. And each day I see many people like me, also anxious and terrified of their own thoughts and urges and sensations. But today I had an Epiphany. For me specifically, POCD is my subtype. It has become other forms of sexual OCD, but the main one still focuses on pedophilia. I have had it for about a month and a half. It is the nature of OCD to make us question and doubt if we have OCD. So I decided that I’m gonna get myself one year to treat everything that has to do with OCD. The ERP, resisting compulsion, resisting reassurance, and most importantly, trusting that it is OCD. If in one year it hasn’t gotten better and I still have these issues and I end up being the person that I am afraid of, I’ll deal with it then. But for now we all know that we have OCD here, so we might as well fix that. Because it can be fixed. We need to stop worrying about the what ifs, because in reality, no amount of worry and anxiety will change who we are. OCD will change us if we don’t fight it. We got this!

audiojack12

Date posted: 2y

I'm so sorry you struggle with that one. I've had religious OCD most of my life, specifically fear of demons and a lot of guilt and shame. But POCD is something I was struggling with. Really bad more recently. I never knew how horrible it could be until experienced it myself. While I Was giving into compulsions with religious OCD and kind of believed it, it was more of a what if thing but this type of OCD (POCD) Hit me so hard because no matter what my therapist said I still believe deep down that I was going to be a bad person or that I was that I really had those desires. It's like I couldn't convince myself and it genuinely made my depression so much worse. It's sad because I couldn't actually convince myself that I wasn't a bad person that this was just OCD. But what helped me was when My OCD started to calm down and I finally left myself. Stop worrying about it and trusted myself. It took a long time but eventually kind of went down on its own. Moved back to religious OCD. Even though I could have been upset that he just went from one type to another, it made me realize finally that It It was OCD. I wasn't trying to use this as reassurance or anything. Just that it showed me how much my brain lies to me because the amount of intrusive thoughts and sexual fears and things my brain convinced me I wanted to do when away. As soon as I stopped obsessing about it and trying to control it, I completely forgot about it. Our brain will always try to attack something that we're afraid of or care about deeply something that's important to us. That's how OCD works. I'm really proud of you and it sounds like you're on the right track. Be patient with yourself because it can take time but I like the part where you said. If you're not okay you will deal with it when it happens. That's how we have to treat everything like a flashy ad in our head. That's telling us to click on it and investigate. We have to just resist and realize it's just a thought. It doesn't actually mean that thought it's true especially when it comes from a place of fear. You got this and I'm proud of you. I wish you luck my friend

WorryBrain

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 25w

What are you waiting for….

My struggles with OCD began in childhood, but it wasn’t until after giving birth to my first child at 30 that I finally received a diagnosis. For years, I suffered in silence with intense anxiety, insomnia, and intrusive thoughts, but because my compulsions were mostly mental—constant rumination, reassurance-seeking, and avoidance—I didn’t realize I had OCD. I experienced Pure O, where my mind would latch onto terrifying thoughts, convincing me something was deeply wrong with me. After my son was born, I was consumed by intrusive fears of harming him, even though I loved him more than anything. Seven weeks into postpartum, I hit a breaking point and ended up in the emergency room, where I was finally diagnosed. For the first time, everything made sense. I didn’t discover exposure and response prevention (ERP) until years later when my son developed Germ OCD during COVID. I went through the program myself first, and it completely changed my life. ERP helped me sit with my intrusive thoughts instead of reacting to them, breaking the cycle that had controlled me for so long. Life isn’t perfect, but it’s so much better than before. I can finally be present instead of trapped in my head. Now, I’m working on trusting myself more and handling challenges without fear of “losing control.” As I prepare to help my daughter start therapy, I feel empowered knowing I’m giving my children the support I never had. If you know you have OCD but haven’t started therapy yet, what’s holding you back?

"Pure" OCD

dslite

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 24w

Recovery is possible

Just wanted to give some hope to those who are having ocd spikes, spirals and worries. This past year I have regained my life back. I went from beginning to isolate myself, being convinced by my ocd that my hobbies are bad and that I should avoid things I enjoyed, and having constant panic attacks. With the work of IOP, psychiatry and nocd, I have made great strives towards my future. I now don’t avoid things and instead embrace my life and ANY possibility that may come. Don’t let the ocd bully you. Yes, I have intrusive thoughts still but I am able to go about my day instead of obsessing over them. You can find this too. I encourage anyone on the fence to please seek help if you are in a tough time, it can literally save your life.

Cody Fournier

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 23w

OCD switches themes

I was just thinking about how OCD tries to be tricky and switches themes on us!! The amount of times I have said to myself in the past, IF ONLY I HAD THE OLDER THEME I USE TO WORRY ABOUT BECAUSE THIS NEW ONE IS SO MUCH WORSE!!! Has anyone ever experienced this before? Once I started ERP therapy, I began to really start understanding what mental/physical compulsions I was doing to really keep my OCD alive! While I did this, I would also tap into my self-compassion bucket, even when it felt like it was dry at times, because it was SO easy to judge myself for because of the sheer presence of my thoughts. I would also have the most self-compassion for myself for those taboo intrusive thoughts that really felt so strong, ego-dystonic and real!!! My OCD would hop around from theme to theme and just when I thought I figured it out (compulsion) it would hop again and make me discouraged! I noticed for me that once I really understood my compulsions, it didn't matter when the theme switched as I could tackle it at its core. If I was able to stay steadfast and resist compulsions the best I could, I started to notice that my CONFIDENCE increased in the long run! I also noticed that some of the core fears were the same for different OCD subtypes. OCD treatment is hard BUT living with OCD is harder. I have experienced subtypes including Harm OCD, ROCD, Moral Scrupulosity, Sensorimotor, Contamination, Perfectionism/Just Right, Hit and Run, Magical Thinking, Real Event/False Memory. ERP therapy allowed me to really work on stopping these compulsions and switching from theme to theme. I was fed up with what OCD took from me and I needed to do something about it. I talked to an ERP therapist and it was one of the best decisions of my life. If you are struggling, keep pushing and get the help you deserve!! You got this!!!

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