I went from... Omg what if I’m gay To Omg what if I’m bi To omg I am gay and I should come out And it’s like I’m not triggered anymore I just feel the need to go back and fourth in my head about my sexuality. And just come out but I know it’s not true. I don’t want it I don’t need it. I literally don’t want to be gay.

Totally relate. You’re not alone. So many people are dealing with this. You have to stop ruminating. That means stop checking, reassuring, and going down the evidence rabbit whole. Practice observing your thoughts as thoughts which meditation is helpful for. Start managing your anxiety without performing compulsions. Maybe go and see a therapist for professional help. Every time you catch yourself beginning to ruminate, stop. Go do something to get your mind off of it. Take a walk. Talk to someone about a random subject. Exercise. Just because you are choosing to disregard the thought’s validity doesn’t mean you’re denying your sexuality or shoving your feelings down. This doesn’t have to do with sexuality in the slightest. You will be okay never knowing for sure. I am. I just focus on my life RIGHT NOW! I don’t need to know. Nothing I would ever find out would change who am now. You can get there too.

I understand.

I’m a 33 year old guy with a partner and three children and I started suffering with this about 10 weeks ago. I have intrusive thoughts and am constantly worrying what if if gay or bi. Up until 10 weeks ago I was confident In myself, happy and outgoing but now I spend hours a day checking HOCD forums, reading coming out stories and even checking guys out on the street to see if I’m attracted to them. This illness is cruel and unfair and leaves you feeling like you don’t know who you are anymore. I even try to watch gay porn to see if it turns me on (it never does) and take tests online (all come up straight) and have sex with my female partner yet the doubt continues ?. I don’t have any answers to this but wondered if anyone can relate?

I ha e the same problem

Have

If your a teen I have a group chat on instagram if you want to join my insta is jvad323

It’s is for Hocd support

I’m 19..

U could join if u wanted but itd be a bit odd

Literally my thoughts on words!! I went from “omg, what if I’m bi and I’ve been denying it my whole life? How do I know for sure?” To... “omg, what if I’m gay?” To...”I’m in denial somehow and I must find out how to get out.” Just constant in my brain. There’s always something I’m missing that ocd loops me back in with. My thoughts are even in my dreams which freak me out. It isn’t even like a weird sexual dream, it’s like I’m testing my thoughts and feelings in the dream. Ugh. Even if I was gay, I would never find out. I would be perfectly happy if I was and in fact, I would prefer it if it would make the thoughts go away, but it does not. Ugh. So frustrating.