Ocdsuxs
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I Need An Off SwitchI Need An Of...
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Totally relate. You’re not alone. So many people are dealing with this. You have to stop ruminating. That means stop checking, reassuring, and going down the evidence rabbit whole. Practice observing your thoughts as thoughts which meditation is helpful for. Start managing your anxiety without performing compulsions. Maybe go and see a therapist for professional help. Every time you catch yourself beginning to ruminate, stop. Go do something to get your mind off of it. Take a walk. Talk to someone about a random subject. Exercise. Just because you are choosing to disregard the thought’s validity doesn’t mean you’re denying your sexuality or shoving your feelings down. This doesn’t have to do with sexuality in the slightest. You will be okay never knowing for sure. I am. I just focus on my life RIGHT NOW! I don’t need to know. Nothing I would ever find out would change who am now. You can get there too.
anonymous07anonymous07
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- 6y
I understand.
LeeskiLeeski
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I’m a 33 year old guy with a partner and three children and I started suffering with this about 10 weeks ago. I have intrusive thoughts and am constantly worrying what if if gay or bi. Up until 10 weeks ago I was confident In myself, happy and outgoing but now I spend hours a day checking HOCD forums, reading coming out stories and even checking guys out on the street to see if I’m attracted to them. This illness is cruel and unfair and leaves you feeling like you don’t know who you are anymore. I even try to watch gay porn to see if it turns me on (it never does) and take tests online (all come up straight) and have sex with my female partner yet the doubt continues ?. I don’t have any answers to this but wondered if anyone can relate?
jvada323jvada323
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I ha e the same problem
jvada323jvada323
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Have
jvada323jvada323
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If your a teen I have a group chat on instagram if you want to join my insta is jvad323
jvada323jvada323
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It’s is for Hocd support
OcdsuxsOcdsuxs
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I’m 19..
jvada323jvada323
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U could join if u wanted but itd be a bit odd
I Need An Off SwitchI Need An Of...
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Literally my thoughts on words!! I went from “omg, what if I’m bi and I’ve been denying it my whole life? How do I know for sure?” To... “omg, what if I’m gay?” To...”I’m in denial somehow and I must find out how to get out.” Just constant in my brain. There’s always something I’m missing that ocd loops me back in with. My thoughts are even in my dreams which freak me out. It isn’t even like a weird sexual dream, it’s like I’m testing my thoughts and feelings in the dream. Ugh. Even if I was gay, I would never find out. I would be perfectly happy if I was and in fact, I would prefer it if it would make the thoughts go away, but it does not. Ugh. So frustrating.
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anonymous00981
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- 24w
Uncertainty sucks.
I’m trying to live with uncertainty but it doesn’t feel right. The “I may or may not be bi/gay” really sucks because I can’t stop ruminating, analyzing, or checking. This especially sucks because I feel like literally EVERYTHING in my life leads to the fact that I’m a fraud which feels horrible. I can’t even talk to my friends the way I used to without feeling like I’m lying about myself. The false attraction and loss of attraction to men is literally horrible because now I feel like the life i fantasized for myself isn’t something I want.
anonymous00981
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- 23w
I feel like this is it
I had a bad rumination spiral yesterday and went to bed hoping I’d start over in the morning. I was wrong. I had dreams about liking women and not being attracted to men anymore and my entire body has been in a state of anxiety since. I genuinely feel like I’m gay and just need to accept it. I have this urge to accept it. Maybe if I do I’ll get some sort of relief because this feeling is awful. I feel like my brain is telling me that I’ll get relief if I just accept it and come out. The intrusive thoughts don’t even seem to be around sexual images anymore, just to come out.
g_rangel
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spiraling again.
i had recently been triggered to have so-ocd. its been on my mind non-stop. (i am a heterosexual female) and my mind has been all over the place questioning if i have been in denial the entire time. ive always had people tell me they sort of got that vibe it it never really affected me until my own mother had her suspicions. so i would constantly get triggered un public around the same gender, while knowing my true sexuality. ive always been attracted to men but as of recently ive been having super bad anxiety to where i cannot eat or sleep and feel weak all the time. it was like that for a week or so. now im in the calm where i have been trying accept the uncertainty but it still isnt fair as im getting triggered. im a little worried because it feels like i have been lying to my parents the entire time although ive never had the desire to be with the same gender. and i keep getting intrusive thoguhts that make me feel anxious and uncomfortable. its all starting to affect my friendships as im constantly getting triggered with the intrusive thoguhts. i feel a little less anxious compared to how i was a couple days ago. im really scared on why im having these thoughts now when i have been having romantic feelings for a guy the past year or so. ive also been struggling with false attraction and loss attraction to men. it makes me feel uncertain of my life the entire time
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